ENTER MY WORLD—IF YOU DARE!

My first book in the bitter memories trilogy, Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival, is where I talk about my life after being kidnapped by my father.

I was only three years old when my life changed, forever.

Although this isn’t a fun book to read, it was my life. I wrote my story, not only to further my own healing from the scars of abuse, but to help other survivors still suffering from their pain. To date, my book has helped many survivors find a path toward healing.

My story is about extreme child abuse, but it doesn’t take extreme to mess up a kid’s head. It doesn’t take extreme to push a child over the breaking point where they think about, or even take their own life.

However, it doesn’t have to be this way! I was lucky to have survived at all, as you will learn when you read my story, but I was also lucky that I didn’t have to go through the pain and suffering alone.

I ended up with four “angels” to help me. Taking over my mind and body, theses four personalities took the abuse that was meant for me. For years I was afraid to talk about what happened to me. I was afraid what people would say.

And, some may still call me “crazy” but I wasn’t crazy at all, and I’m not crazy now! Multiple personalities do exist, and in my head they were very real. There is no doubt in my mind that without my “angels” I would have died. They protected me time and time again.

Abuse from my own father is what brought out, Ann, my first personality. As the abuse escalated, others were “born” and Ann became the guardian, a protector, not only for me, but for my other three personalities as well.

My story is extremely graphic and the language could put a sailor to shame, but there is no way to “sugarcoat” child abuse. There was no way for me to tell my own story without using the language I was hearing every day of my young life.

I probably could have written it without all the details, but why hide the facts? I set out to tell my story, my way, and while writing this book, many times I felt like I was in a trance. I wrote from the heart, not from my head, and many times I wrote from the heart of the child, exposing how I actually felt at the time.

Plagued by horrendous nightmares since I was a little girl, I used those terrifying times to help me tell my story and wrote what I believe is the actual truth of what all happened from the time I was two years old until finally found by the FBI and then rescued by my mother, a woman I no longer remembered.

From this first book came two more books in the series: Trophy Murders and Cutter’s Revenge. These books continue my story while living with the cop uncle and his wife all the way through my adoption. Although there’s more that could be told—and at a later date will be told—these three are a good start.

Trophy Murders is part truth, part fiction, but while I continue my own story, I give my uncle a job to do. He has to catch a ruthless gang of killers and bring our once peaceful, quiet little town back to tranquility.

Cutter’s Revenge is part truth, but there is more fiction in this one as
I continue my story. This book is written more the way I wished, or dreamed, my life could have been IF...

Getting my pound of “revenge” in the end, again, my uncle/father has a killer to bring down while trying to keep his own secrets from me—secrets he’s afraid will destroy me if I learn the truth. New characters are introduced; some you’ll love, some you’ll love to hate, but I hope you enjoy this exciting, pulse-pounding thriller as much as I enjoyed writing it.

I look forward to you taking this journey with me as I bring to light the horrors in this gripping account of my early life—a life on the run, hungry, terrified and abused—and then continue the journey by reading the other two books in this series.

After reading Bitter Memories you’ll know what’s true and what’s pure imagination in the other books, but I promise you a ride into every emotion possible by the time you’ve read all three of these books.

Enter my world—if you dare!

To learn more about the trilogy, and my non-fiction book of poems with short stories that inspired each poem, please visit my website. I also love feedback (and reviews) from my readers, fans and friends!

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