Conversations: Under the Bodhi Tree

In a YouTube video, I watched Adyashanti say he went through a five year period in his life during his Awakening that he "wouldn't wish on his worst enemy".  Upon hearing this I cringed in fear and thought, "please, not me, please, not me".  Yet, reflecting on the circumstances I've endured this past year and even further back, I now shrug and say, "been there, DOING that".  And I wouldn't wish any of it on my worst enemy either.

Every dream and every illusion I ever had has been shattered and continues to be shattered  - and for this, I am grateful.  I call this time of purification, the Crucifixion of the Ego.  Jesus and I have a running joke that I've got his 40 days in the desert beat by far.  But, I'm stubborn.  I admit it.  The idea of giving up hope would have been over my dead body.  It seems nearly, that's what it took for Buddha and many others to supplant the idea of self for I AM.  But, I'm vain, too, and God and I have a deal.  I'll do whatever it takes to be the One, just don't touch the body.  I like mine, too much.  God's running joke with me is that I turned 45 this year and well, you know the rest...

And I AM.  I am so in love with God, I am willing to die in every moment of now and to suffer every egoic humiliation my imagination can dream up to be the One that I AM.  To all of those whom endured my wailing and tears as ego demanded to have its way, I express undying gratitude.  It is now my turn to assist those going through the Crucifixion on the path of bliss and I devote my life to this end.

If you find yourself shuddering, wondering what's in store for you or you can relate to anything aforementioned (smile), I invite you to come home to yourself and discover Heaven on Earth.  Heaven really is available to each of us in every moment of now.  (And it's an inside job.)  Please visit this blog and theOnethatIAm.com as we learn to trust and embrace opening the heart wider than we ever thought possible.

"Wait and see...rest nakedly in truly not knowing. Until now we have opted for trusting our minds, images and ideas, rather than trusting the spaciousness from which all arises. What an opportunity is available now to trust the unknown spaciousness of the heart." ~ Gangaji

Happy New Year!

~ Namaste