Murderous Thoughts

‎"My whole surroundings have changed
And they all looked at me
I stood with a smile on my face
I looked at Kamryn and Selene
Then I turned to Marie
Her smile faded from her face
“I am his Queen, and you cannot take my place
So get out of my face”
“I will kill you”
“Angel,” Kamryn screamed
As Marie came with a knife
Angel held up her hand
And stopped her in mid air
“Now is not the time, but you will get your chance”-JUDGEMENT DAY

I put a post awhile back on my Facebook page that we are all capable of killing or murdering under the right circumstances. Whether it may be protecting your family, payback, revenge, or uncontrolled and bottled up emotions let loose. I've had two experiences with this. One because of my emotions were bottled up with the person and situation and I just let loose one day, thankfully the Heavenly Father stepped in.

And the second, was regarding to my husband's ex when she came back in the picture and he totally disregarded me and my feelings just so that he can continue to talk to her and have his friendship with her again. The reason why I was so mad at her as well is because she knew how my husband was, how he felt about her, and what he did to her too, how he hurt her and cheated on her when they dated, but that didn't stop her. She had no consideration for me and my feelings.

So as time went on I begin to have thoughts that I really wanted to kill her, and I knew how I was mentally and emotionally if I ever saw her in the state I was in I probably would've and could have too. So I had to seek and go to the Father myself this time and pour out all my anger, pain, thoughts, and sorrow on him. I had to keep reminding myself of my past situation, my present, and that she wasn't worth it.

Marie had that same feeling, that same thought, that same choice, and as you read above she said it and was going to do it too. She wasn't able to that time, but she did get a second chance to do it.

But we aren't characters in a book that if we don't like an ending or an outcome we can just erase, delete and start over. We must choose wisely, and dispose, handle our emotions and situations properly before we end up and do something we'll regret for the rest of our lives. We must not let our Murderous Thoughts become Murderous Actions.