348: Five Things I’ll Never Be Sorry For
As kind of an addendum to my I’m sorry post, I thought I’d spout out five things I’ll never be sorry for.
1. I swear a lot… and I like it.
Now this started at a young age and I have to admit that I am crude. I keep it tightlipped around the Monsters so that I’m not corrupting them completely. I know sometimes it comes out and makes people uncomfortable. I usually try to respect the company I’m in. But there was that one time I let a “fuck” slip in church. I’m also a USN Sailor, so swearing sort of comes with the territory. I usually have to retrain myself after a drill weekend.
2. I say what I think.
This has gotten me into trouble. I believe in being honest and authentic with people. Unfortunatley, I also have no filter when it comes to bullshit. I’m not mean for no reason, but expressing myself isn’t something that I can keep inside anymore. I used to and it ate me alive. So now it all comes out, good or bad. It’s hard to balance it, trying to stay my honest self without hurting someone I care about or purposely hurting someone’s feelings. There’s a point where people can be constructively honest, where it can be beneficial. But I won’t apologize any more for being honest. If you don’t want to know what i think, or you just want an affirmation, I’m probably the wrong person to ask.
3. I’m more of a dog person than a cat person.
I’m the odd one out with writers here. Most writers I’ve interacted with have cats or animals that don’t require a lot of attention. I love having dogs. I love how they cuddle up to me, greet me at the door happy, how they can’t stand to be away from me for too long. I love the way my dog lays on the floor next to me, no matter what room I’m in.
4. I can handle myself.
Seriously. I may ask like I can’t, and I may whine, but when it comes down to the wire, I’m the one who comes out on top. I don’t like feeling vulnerable and helpless. I want to do things like kickboxing, and ice hockey. I want to take all kinds of martial arts. I havne’t been in a lot of physical confrontations in my life. But living with an abusive man makes you doubt yourself and your ability to care for your family. I promised myself I’d never be that helpless, that alone again.
5. I love being female.
Political statements aside (because I can be very opinionated on that matter) I enjoy being female. We have the best clothes. We have such a variety of shoes. We can be just as strong as guys in one instance, and in the next, demure and soft. I love wearing things that show off my body. Not the slutty-should-be-underwear stuff, but some of the awesome tasteful flattering-to-a-curvy-woman clothes.
What are some things that you would be unapologetic for?
