Leader or follower?

Do you see yourself as a leader?

Good question…

I think that my stance on this has changed dramatically over time.

As someone who craves control over situations I find myself in, believed to be deeply rooted in my life experiences, it could be said I need to lead to maintain that control.

However, my lack of confidence and constant desire for approval means that I tend to sit as an onlooker, only contributing if I am certain of my input.

During my time in the teaching profession, I certainly led assemblies, meetings, subjects, and training, but as I’ve gotten older, do not fully understand how I did those things.

Today, I would say I am a follower because only when I am assured that there is no judgement do I step into the light.