The end goal

Forum: Progress You are Making and Hope

I’ve been deep in sorrow briefly over the lost relationship. 

It happens when things have been intense at work and socially, leaving little breathing space. I crash at home one night and grief immerses me. There are terrible dreams, and it’s almost too much to bear.

This morning I see an end goal. When thinking of my ex in future, I want to picture him as I did this morning, floating above a flower bed. Kind, supportive, attentive to the children and me. I need to see that image and simply regret he couldn’t do better at some things. Then not feel an urge to reconnect, but leave it at that.

Those two thoughts, the benevolent image of him and the regret, are peaceful. I hope some day when this is harrowed through, I can rely on them.

The peaceful thoughts make me who I want to be.

For those of you who’ve divorced still loving your ADHD ex, and then processed the loss thoroughly, what are your thoughts of them now?