The Invisible Spring

(Nimue dictating James typing)

This spring engaging with the changing seasons has been difficult. Unable to see much and often very ill, I’ve felt very cut off and also deeply in need of my connections to the natural world. In the past walking has been central to how I do my Druidry. Going out and looking at the world has been my key way of connecting. This spring I’ve not been able to see much at all.

I have walked when I could – dependant on help from Keith primarily. He’s been brilliant at telling me what was around me. That has meant some scope for seeing seasonal wildflowers. Although not in great detail. Birdsong has been really important to me and I can identify some birds by their calls. I’ve heard the dawn chorus more mornings than not, and it’s become a key point of connection.

My whole sense of time has been strangely affected by not seeing in the same way. I’m in a state of perpetual twilight. Days have had very different shapes and this has impacted on my body clock, so I am living in a strange liminal time space. Things I used to take for granted about the passage of time I now have to be more deliberate about. As I’m getting more on top of things, I hope to be able to share more about what I’m learning and experiencing. Hopefully I will eventually be able to read and write again. That could be some months away, so in the meantime, I’m adapting and healing as best I can. As James is doing a good job of typing(why thank you), this may give us a way forward.