A Voice of A Generation

There is this scene of the television show Girls, where the main character tells her parents that she might be the voice of her generation or a voice… of a generation.

I would like to know what the obsession is with voicing a generation. Here I am, almost 40 (less than a month!) and feeling that my life wasn’t yet fully lived, simply because I haven’t written that great novel, is exhausting. I’m 40. Even if I write a great novel, I’ll never be the young voice of a generation. I won’t be a young talent. I feel the heaviness of my age. I’m seeing young authors like RF Kuang, and I think, “This author actually did it. They did what I was too chicken to do. They already lived a full life.” What is it about my life that makes me think that I have not lived enough still? I had experiences, I laughed, cried, I laugh-cried, I walked on snow. But there are so many things I still haven’t done. I haven’t been abroad. How embarrassing is that? I’m 40 and I’ve never left my country rarely left my city. Never lived alone. By the age of 40, I was sure that I’d have the single woman living her best life alone in the city (any city, to be honest), but I haven’t done that either. I still live with my parents. I am in this stagnated phase. I’m old, yes, but I’m still like a child when it comes to taking care of myself. When it comes to living on my own, I’m no better than a privileged 12-year-old kid. LIFE. When will my life start? When will I stop being afraid of my own body, my own limitations and start living an authentic life where I can be on my own comfortably?

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