just be

 

   my darlings,

i didn’t finish Emeline B, instead i enjoyed myself. Which is news, enjoyment is never in my vernacular. But dear Plato once said,

”writing is the Geometry of the soul.”I swear all the great men are dead. Et the living ones are to busy trying to become billionaires in yatchs et private jets. I often wonder have we forgotten no man lives forever?

Okay since we are on the topic, no i’m not hating on anyone, i’m just trying to figure out what the heck am i doing …. I swear to you no one knows Okay so here is what’s going on, i went walking today on the boardwalk, et i met a monk. I did. Hence, i have always admired the teachings of buddhism.Then… i came home et i did my daily evening royal ritual with my dear boy et then i swam. In the rain. It was a legit storm. I always wanted to do that, luckily my husband was to busy to see me. Man, i live in a safe house  

So books stacked, manuscripts delayed, pages empty … but your writer is busy galloping abouts. Actually my desk is stacked with books – of fabrics. I have decided to do awnings, i laugh because i am getting old, this is exactly what’s happening. I honestly get asked a lot of questions on my home, it looks like an old chateau in the south of france. It’s home. i had many houses but home is where the heart is.

Talking of home, this was my favorite, it’s nestled right next to Oheka. When my children were little we had spent a great deal of time in their gardens. My life is not a fairy tale, it would of been had i not been hated by so many.

So many. Oui.

The trouble is, that’s why i have pulled the plug in being public. My life is more important than fame or success. Which by the way, my resume has been graded by a literary agents as,

“an enormous amounts of talent and a variety of sorts.”oh well, to bad i don’t care. I think the grief i’m suffering is holding me all kinds of back. I honestly think if there was someone that needed this book deal more than me, i would hand it to that person, because quite frankly, i have had it all in my 20’s. All.I never had to want for things. But also what i had more than all of you was pure pain. Now, you can’t measure  both can you?Father, mon père thank you for that. My grand mère always thought that heaven et hell was right here, she was right. I mean look around you, do you really think people love you for you or what you can give or do?Reality Check.  I told myself the other day,  Rianna kate Shaikh if you can’t write your heart, don’t write anymore.

(my portrait in art)Well i cannot do such, i am bloddy good at what i have done. The proof is in the pudding, it’s a #wallstreet  thing. And to all of you that read me daily that hates me, stop reading me, simple.  So to my real fans, i adore you. The rest is just numbers, lucky for  you i have never been about numbers. By the way, jesus had only 9 followers!

Well this post will be
deleted when my team reads it.
For the while, i don’t give a merde.
🧐     Enjoying my life regardless,                  Rianna kate Shaikhps. let’s start looking
at ourselves more than others. 
You have no idea, the stress of being
a writer. Be a butler instead 😩