I’m done being Jyvur Entropy

I used to be Jennifer Embers. I picked that name because I felt like I was smoldering like embers. Like I was always sort of burning and about to burst into flames.

In 2017 I became Jyvur Entropy. I picked it because I felt like I was on an inevitable path towards chaos and disorder. Well, I finally hit my final state of chaos and disorder.

This author isn’t dead. This author is performing a whole fucking story with a very flawed character.

But I hit the end of this chapter. It feels like this portion of the story is done. I’m not Jyvur Entropy anymore. I don’t feel like I’m gradually descending into chaos and disorder anymore. I feel like I unraveled about as much as I possibly could.

And now I don’t feel like I’m falling apart or spinning around and around.

I plan to disappear for a while and come back with a new pen name. I already know what that new pen name will be. Like Jyvur Entropy, it encapsulates my energy at this point in my life.

I want to separate from Jyvur Entropy. I want to separate from this blog and my entire online presence that I had while performing a gradual decline into disorder and chaos. This blog is still linked in the incel wiki and I was unsuccessful in having it removed. I’m a known quantity on that side of the internet. Every once in a while a dude from over there still pops up wanting…I’m not sure what from me. And if you think you have a guess as to what they want: No, it isn’t that. But I figured out what I wanted from that whole episode. I figured out why I was so fascinated by that group. To be clear, it’s not that I’m going scorched earth simply because of that subplot. It’s more what that subplot represented about me, my internal motivations, and the toxic attitudes I was holding onto. As long as I’m still Jyvur Entropy, there’s always the possibility of slipping back into all of that. It’s never going to be possible for me to completely get away from what I’ve done and said as Jyvur Entropy and if people still remember and view me that way, there’s too much danger that I will continue to behave that way.

The very last thing I will post as Jyvur Entropy will be a very raw video on my youtube channel where I will explain some things I’ve figured out about myself. It’s not going to cast me in a flattering light. I don’t think the point of emotional exhibitionism is to make yourself look flattering: I think it’s similar to the point of fiction-to give people a glimpse into the nuances of the human experience. So that other people can watch you and use your flaws and mistakes as a jumping board to do their own reflecting. So people have a deeper understanding of what may be driving the behaviors of difficult people.

So, I’ll post that and that’s it.

I’ll continue to work on the books that I started as Jyvur Entropy. I might put the new pen name on them or I might not. I’m not sure.

If we’re friends, I’ll come find you with the new pen name and tell you it’s me.

It’s been fun and messy and painful, y’all.

In a few days, I will private this blog. The only content I plan to save is the interviews, because people took time and energy to allow me to interview them. The interviews will move to my new blog once I’ve laid low for a while and spent time growing my new brand. I want to be invisible for a bit.

Thanks for hanging out. Like a lot of you knew me when I was Jennifer Embers, I’m sure many of you will come with me into this new chapter.

I still plan to run the GFD anthology. For the moment I’m not on discord at all and my servers have all either transferred ownership or been deleted, but I’ll make a new account in March and in the meantime questions about the upcoming antho and submissions can still be sent to my jyvur entropy email.