not-giving-up story

hi there,

it’s been a long time… i suppose a lot has happened, however not much has changed. with everything going on, the future seems blurry, so i’ve had to put the present into perspective.

there isn’t always hope, when the tunnel remains dark and gloomy, it may appear that sight has become out of vision, and what is left once hope is gone for it takes along with it, all of what could be and when you left in the now as it is – not very great – it becomes difficult to imagine anything could be better.

i turned 21 a couple of weeks ago and it feels like i’m going in obscure circles. sometime ago, somehow, i tripped on a downward spiral staircase and ever since… well, you know.

there’s been humps and bumps and roley poley’s, i guess there are a few soft tumbles and smooth edges but just when i assume i’ve reached the end, i fall much harder.

i guess what i’m trying to say is, as difficult as it is to stay positive, it gets easier if not better, but for some of us it just takes longer… i can’t begin to tell you how badly i want to feel a sense of freedom without depending on anybody.

i’ve been talked down upon for the fumbles in my life, but you know what? miracles happen and who’s to say i won’t have a decent job or my own place soon? i’m not going to give up. i’ve inspired hundreds of people and even if my life turns out to be a flop, i don’t regret trying.

if you were expecting this to be a success story of some sort, i’m not sorry to disappoint. this is a not-giving-up story and maybe soon, i will come back and talk about how it does get better, if not, don’t give up anyway. whatever it is, wherever you are, try one more time.

“Th-th-th-that’s all folks!”