Life Changes
This week has gone better than the week before. I am starting to find a schedule that works and I am gearing up for a turn around trip from Southern California back to Colorado with my mother. This week I was able to finish a little more than twenty pages. The progress was not as good as I wanted but it is getting better. At this point in life I am going through monumental changes in my life. With those changes comes healing. I am working on healing the pain and sorrow of my past, while at the same time embracing new changes. This week’s blog is going to be about two people I recently met and what I am learning.
Within the last two weeks I have met two amazing people. The first was a female Rabbi that I met at the park while hanging out with one of my best friends. We took our kids to the park and while playing with the kids we struck up a conversation with two women as they walked their dog. This woman was extraordinary. She is a chaplain for search and rescue teams. She has a dog that is half wolf, who works with search and rescue and she has survived some major traumas in her life. She is also an author. She is a smart, kind and talented woman. She is someone I would love to be friends with. Unfortunately for me, she was just asked to move to France where she will be working as a Rabbi. The fortunate side of this is I got to spend an hour talking to her. One of the things we spoke about was change and how to embrace it. How sometimes the hardest thing to do is force a change within ourselves in order to improve our lives. She was in an abusive relationship a few years ago and got herself out. She left her husband and started over with nothing. She spent the first few months in a deep depression and found the strength to do something with her experience and wrote a book not just about her experience but how to come out of it better than before. Talking to this woman was a great experience and one that I will carry with me forever.
The other person I met lives in my apartment building. I live in a large apartment complex, so it’s not that abnormal for me to not really know my neighbors well and say hi in passing. This neighbor walks the same trail as I do and we always say hi and joke in passing. Last weekend he saw me and said meet me out front of our building next Sunday 8:15am and I agreed. What I didn’t realize was I was about to make a friend, one that I can talk to for hours about a number of different topics. He is an intelligent man that is easy to talk to. He is also an author. He has written a few nonfiction books and is in the process of writing a sci-fi fiction series. He has been through his own trials in life but talking to him is enjoyable.
So what have I gained from both of these individuals? The first thing is a new friend. The second is some perspective. Right now every aspect of my life is changing. I am newly single, I am about to move my mother out to Colorado so we will be living together and I am starting to work on not just my writing career but my future career in ABA therapy. My life is changing at warp speed and it is causing me to not only doubt myself but my skills. It is part of the reason I am struggling with my writing. What I am noticing in the last two weeks is that I am getting more comfortable with the changes that are coming. I am finding confidence in the life I am working towards. That confidence is drawing others to me. Individuals who are engaging and I enjoy talking to. People who make me think, which in my opinion, are the best conversations. With the surge in confidence my demons come out to play making me question things about myself. It is one of those things I am battling and eventually I will master.
The changes that I am facing currently are all about growing. I am growing as a human being. I am working towards a better and happier life. I have had several people tell me I am doing this wrong or that wrong. I have had many opinions about my life and what I should or shouldn’t do. The truth is, I am doing what I am need to for me. It may not be the way everyone else thinks I should but it is what I need to do. For the last two months, I was thinking about giving up writing. This book has been such a struggle and there are a number of pages that are just bad writing. I have struggled to even write this blog on several occasions. What I am finding with the people I am meeting and becoming friends with is that I am a writer. I can’t give it up. I can’t stop. Life may kick me around a bit and I definitely kick myself around but at the end of the day I am a writer. With finding my independence, I am rediscovering my passion for writing. I am learning how to shut out some of the outside influences and I am getting back to my passions.
Life is full of changes. The scariest ones are usually the most important ones. Embrace the changes as often as you can. Learn from your mistakes and continue to learn in life. Take a chance on making new friends. Until next time!
Within the last two weeks I have met two amazing people. The first was a female Rabbi that I met at the park while hanging out with one of my best friends. We took our kids to the park and while playing with the kids we struck up a conversation with two women as they walked their dog. This woman was extraordinary. She is a chaplain for search and rescue teams. She has a dog that is half wolf, who works with search and rescue and she has survived some major traumas in her life. She is also an author. She is a smart, kind and talented woman. She is someone I would love to be friends with. Unfortunately for me, she was just asked to move to France where she will be working as a Rabbi. The fortunate side of this is I got to spend an hour talking to her. One of the things we spoke about was change and how to embrace it. How sometimes the hardest thing to do is force a change within ourselves in order to improve our lives. She was in an abusive relationship a few years ago and got herself out. She left her husband and started over with nothing. She spent the first few months in a deep depression and found the strength to do something with her experience and wrote a book not just about her experience but how to come out of it better than before. Talking to this woman was a great experience and one that I will carry with me forever.
The other person I met lives in my apartment building. I live in a large apartment complex, so it’s not that abnormal for me to not really know my neighbors well and say hi in passing. This neighbor walks the same trail as I do and we always say hi and joke in passing. Last weekend he saw me and said meet me out front of our building next Sunday 8:15am and I agreed. What I didn’t realize was I was about to make a friend, one that I can talk to for hours about a number of different topics. He is an intelligent man that is easy to talk to. He is also an author. He has written a few nonfiction books and is in the process of writing a sci-fi fiction series. He has been through his own trials in life but talking to him is enjoyable.
So what have I gained from both of these individuals? The first thing is a new friend. The second is some perspective. Right now every aspect of my life is changing. I am newly single, I am about to move my mother out to Colorado so we will be living together and I am starting to work on not just my writing career but my future career in ABA therapy. My life is changing at warp speed and it is causing me to not only doubt myself but my skills. It is part of the reason I am struggling with my writing. What I am noticing in the last two weeks is that I am getting more comfortable with the changes that are coming. I am finding confidence in the life I am working towards. That confidence is drawing others to me. Individuals who are engaging and I enjoy talking to. People who make me think, which in my opinion, are the best conversations. With the surge in confidence my demons come out to play making me question things about myself. It is one of those things I am battling and eventually I will master.
The changes that I am facing currently are all about growing. I am growing as a human being. I am working towards a better and happier life. I have had several people tell me I am doing this wrong or that wrong. I have had many opinions about my life and what I should or shouldn’t do. The truth is, I am doing what I am need to for me. It may not be the way everyone else thinks I should but it is what I need to do. For the last two months, I was thinking about giving up writing. This book has been such a struggle and there are a number of pages that are just bad writing. I have struggled to even write this blog on several occasions. What I am finding with the people I am meeting and becoming friends with is that I am a writer. I can’t give it up. I can’t stop. Life may kick me around a bit and I definitely kick myself around but at the end of the day I am a writer. With finding my independence, I am rediscovering my passion for writing. I am learning how to shut out some of the outside influences and I am getting back to my passions.
Life is full of changes. The scariest ones are usually the most important ones. Embrace the changes as often as you can. Learn from your mistakes and continue to learn in life. Take a chance on making new friends. Until next time!
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