Never-ending story

“Autism mixed with Mood Disorder with a side order of puberty is like playing Russian Roulette. I never know what is coming out the chamber” – S.E.Isaac, Facebook & Twitter 2017

My house is an absolute nightmare! I would not wish this upon anyone. I do not care how much I fucking hate them! I would NOT wish this upon them. Being home with my son is a constant game of walking on eggshells. I never know what the hell is going to set him off. Is it the way I look at him? The way I breathe? The way his younger brother hugs me? Anything AND everything will set off my son with autism/mood disorder/puberty. Lately his meltdowns have turned into violence, because when he is not safe, I have no choice but to hold him. Physical contact during his meltdowns is like kicking a bull in the face…shits about to go down. I am currently covered in bruises, have a cut on the inside of my lip and other bs. I am so exhausted & just want to cry on someone’s shoulder or drown myself in a tub of Ben & Jerrys. (Preferably the ice cream. I don’t think I could say everything I truly feel without being judged)

Writing is my outlet, yet, I cannot work on any of my book projects because I am constantly dealing with him. I HATE school having extended holiday breaks! Like seriously FML.

He’s starting to spool up, so even this blog has to be cut short. If I’m not too exhausted, I may blog an update or attempt to work on my book. Here lately, I am in bed by 9. Pathetic…I know.

Happy Reading & Lots of XoXo!

S.E.Isaac

a.k.a

Mother gonna crazy

 

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