LOSS what is this ??

I can recall many times in a short little life the feeling of LOSS. I know many can relate, others believe only to imagine hurt and grief. As to many it revolves around losing someone close to you, a dear loved one.
Yes indeed the loss of a dear loved one can consume us, take grip of our emotional state and flip us like a tumble dryer tosses a flimsy bed sheet, yet our thoughts run wild in sync. I have lost in my life and that time I experienced, being in a car wreck and watching them tow away the crumpled up car, I felt great loss at that time I too felt grief those weeks without the vehicle. Never had any clue in my own mind that I was going through feelings of grief or loss, after all it was only a car.

When faced with the death of my true dear parent, my father, I experienced the harsh reality of loss. The feelings combined with thoughts were very different to anything that had ever come before. What is this horrible feeling, why do I see the day as though wearing "Technicolor" glasses. What is this disaster that has just occurred.
Some of you may find less feeling in saying goodbye to a loved one. For the cycle of life it made some sense, or not even considered that it is normal to bury a parent and continue on with life.
It is hard, surreal and just very difficult.

I have had the surreal experiences to bury my children and take "cycle of life" and turn it on its head.
What can be said? Nothing, nada, zilch LOSS is LOSS whether we feel it or think it. Grief follows in its shadows,
Does losing a loved one project us to another level? a new feeling that when encountered for the first time, places us in another dimension for a small period of time only to return us with a perspective never imagined.
It is normal, it is healthy and it is part of our life that death is the only guarantee we will ever be able to bank on. Yet when it shows up we can be steam rolled to run and hide from our emotions, try to escape our own minds to get away from it.

I wrote my story "TWO sons TOO many" to reflect and try to bring reason or rhyme to events in my life, did it make anything any clearer, you may ask. Not really though it has indeed inspired me to continue going the extra mile as death will come for us all some day, so why waste our time, why plough through without appreciation for the little things and gratitude for everything.
To comfort each other through loss is marvellous although temporary, our thoughts and our feelings live on and reflection upon memories may still cause a tear. Tears that are welcomed to feel the loss and experience raw life.

LOSS and grief may just feel the worst ever yet helps us grow even more on our journey.
Isn't it all amazing? the cycle of life that is.

To think so many just never pause to deal with or feel the pain, but in my pain I am reminded of the love I have for those that have passed and take strength from the lesson they have brought to me.
Hope you get a chance to enjoy the book.
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