Explain a bit here and there

My book is the promotional material of course.
TWO sons TOO many
I have lost two sons in my little life time and thought lets write it all down. Seems a simple task, well for those that cannot imagine ever losing a child, I will try and explain to tie some things together.
Yes your first reaction is quite correct, devastating !
So time rolls past and dates become the iceberg type bitter/sweet memories of times. A simple memory of the first this or the first that of a child which many may remember but not hold as tightly to or even cherish, no it is not a criticism it is merely normal life.

It takes a little crossing to the side I now live on to perhaps gain a fuller or more in-depth feeling towards those memories, I mean I know exactly how it can be so nobody can be judged for being normal.
I wrote the book to take all my disbelief and doubts or more like demons from inside me and thought it would never be a book, well not one that others might read. In doing so carried the 1% therapy that many might assume it just, well cures one, for example. It helps but not like some may think.
Another unthinkable is that I never thought I would have, even though I lived a life of on the move and causing havoc through the first few years, well, I never thought I would become an expert on burying my children, who does? It happened to me and so I wrote about my life.
I hope that any who may take the read not that you might begin to feel compassion or sympathies but that you may just maybe take a moment to pause and realize what you have in those little muchkins.
Perhaps my path has been so reckless that it is very hard to read and or comprehend what a path it has been.
I am ok with what has happened and feel well that the pain I feel is a marker to how much I really loved my two little boys. Funny thing right there, they were not little, Darra my first an absolute bruiser of a baby and turned out to be an absolute fine young gentleman. Full credit to his mother there, although to see him laying in a dreaded coffin at only fifteen, a complete and utter disaster. A tragedy of devastation degrees really beyond the capabilities of the human mind. Such a stretch on imagination is required, I mean it, like seriously even I find it everyday hard to believe, let alone imagine.
Patrick my second son another beautiful strong as an ox baby, I had the chance to save him, CPR and mouth to mouth and all that however it was not meant to be. Another coffin another graveyard and more misery.

So I wrote the book to help share the path as it has twisted and turned to share with someone out there who may suffer in silence with their own grief or even just lay it out there of how anything can really just happen.
Life has been good in so many ways that they too are included between the covers and for this again sometimes a little beyond the realms of the normal living and as I recalled events and excursions I looked back in as much disbelief.

I have had two wonderful sons and two wonderful women who have had also to share in the loss of their children that it well simply put churns the barrels of any humans emotions to even think of such atrocities. But two beautiful women lost their son too.

Life goes on and life must continue and we must try and live for the now. Live to excel or reach higher than ever before to put meaning to it all. It is like I wish sometimes I could talk everyone I ever meet and play them the clips of video from my mind and see what anyone can take from them. For me it has only slowed me down to bring about an awarenss of how precious it all really is..
The meaning of life, no I do not thinks so nor is it the mastering of the human spirit but it definitely leaves me wishing every other human being on our planet to never have to go through such horrible experiences.
To take life and break it down to a single microsecond and let yourself know you are alive. Take a moment and breath, soak up the lovely life some greater power has given us. Feel the feelings at any given moment and cherish them.
Spirituality maybe, becoming mindful perhaps but for sure just not letting the petty issues get in the way anymore.
Maybe you are there already and it has not taken such loses for you to make it to a place that only my love for babies has brought me to. Who knows?
I hope you can enjoy the reading and I would take great pleasure in discussing any aspect of my Life journeys with any who may find the questions just won't leave their minds.
No apology for making anyone think or feel, just know that it is my book that it had to be written.
You can find many links to purchase a copy around the mighty world wide interweb and follow along on Twitter or face book @TWOsonsTOOmany.
Happy reading and have a wonderful summer.