Thanksgiving. Table for One.
I have given myself full permission to do what truly fills me up in this season. Every year in this season, I need something different from and for myself. Two years ago, I needed a change in scenery, so I checked into a luxurious hotel and spa on Christmas in Virginia. The year before that, I needed to be home with my loved ones so I traveled to my forever home. Last year, I needed to host Christmas dinner in my own, new home. This year, I needed my solitude, space, peace, quiet thoughts... so I sought after that fervently.
I went to Church yesterday morning and came back and cooked Macaroni au Gratin, Duz Riz a Pois, Oxtails, Jerk Salmon, Banane Frit, Sauted Kale. I baked an Apple Pie from scratch and had some Birthday Cake Ice Cream to compliment it. I had about 3 glasses of wine. No one hovered over me in my kitchen wondering “if” I could cook. I had nothing to prove. Only to myself. So I enjoyed the process. I fell asleep to some Lifetime, as my candles burned in each room of my house and soft, classical Christmas Music played in the Background. I put up my Christmas tree and its lights greeted me this morning.
Today, I cuddled with Bizoux and I stayed in my Pajamas all day. We woke up early and I appreciated the stillness and the beauty of a still, early morning. I did a Bible Study to some Dominican Cafe. I read, I wrote and reflected. I designed my Christmas Card. Ate leftovers. I realized I didn’t need to feel guilty. Nor did I need or want to over-indulge. Went running and did some yoga. I took a lavender soak and gave myself a manicure with red polish. I conditioned and twisted my hair. I sipped some Green Tea, honey, and milk.
This is is all I needed and wanted for this Holiday. To be still and know. To sip slow, and cook slow. To hear quiet. To bask in my own ambiance. To defy what the commercials and people and family tell me what I ought to do on this day. To love, appreciate, and pray for my family from afar. To appreciate the warm home that God and I have built.
Grateful for permission to visualize exactly what I need and want in this moment of my life. Grateful for the Grace, Provisions, and Confidence to go after it. Praying to grow a family one day soon. Thanking God for the lessons in being healthily and successfully single for now.
May I hold on to these sentiments in the New Year.
Blessed Holiday season to you. Do you. Be you. Be well.
Xo
Sophia Sunshine
I went to Church yesterday morning and came back and cooked Macaroni au Gratin, Duz Riz a Pois, Oxtails, Jerk Salmon, Banane Frit, Sauted Kale. I baked an Apple Pie from scratch and had some Birthday Cake Ice Cream to compliment it. I had about 3 glasses of wine. No one hovered over me in my kitchen wondering “if” I could cook. I had nothing to prove. Only to myself. So I enjoyed the process. I fell asleep to some Lifetime, as my candles burned in each room of my house and soft, classical Christmas Music played in the Background. I put up my Christmas tree and its lights greeted me this morning.
Today, I cuddled with Bizoux and I stayed in my Pajamas all day. We woke up early and I appreciated the stillness and the beauty of a still, early morning. I did a Bible Study to some Dominican Cafe. I read, I wrote and reflected. I designed my Christmas Card. Ate leftovers. I realized I didn’t need to feel guilty. Nor did I need or want to over-indulge. Went running and did some yoga. I took a lavender soak and gave myself a manicure with red polish. I conditioned and twisted my hair. I sipped some Green Tea, honey, and milk.
This is is all I needed and wanted for this Holiday. To be still and know. To sip slow, and cook slow. To hear quiet. To bask in my own ambiance. To defy what the commercials and people and family tell me what I ought to do on this day. To love, appreciate, and pray for my family from afar. To appreciate the warm home that God and I have built.
Grateful for permission to visualize exactly what I need and want in this moment of my life. Grateful for the Grace, Provisions, and Confidence to go after it. Praying to grow a family one day soon. Thanking God for the lessons in being healthily and successfully single for now.
May I hold on to these sentiments in the New Year.
Blessed Holiday season to you. Do you. Be you. Be well.
Xo
Sophia Sunshine
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