The reality of asking "why?"

The Why?

It's been over five weeks now since I got the word that I was being played.

I've done what all of us do in those circumstances and reexamined every odd bit of behavior or possible clue in all of our interactions over the previous nine months looking for that one sign I missed.  It's the "if only I had realized this meant that . . . " trope, that somehow I could have been smarter, could have been more protected.

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