Don’t Be Afraid To Be Yourself #Motivation #MyConfessions

Maybe the journey isn’t so much about becoming anything. Maybe it’s about un-becoming everything that isn’t really you, so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place. -Unknown

Ah those words, they ring so true! Yesterday I realized something and it made me stop and take note. At almost 33, I’m still learning things about myself and every time it’s something deep it shakes me up a bit. The process of un-becoming is a long one. I’d venture to bet it won’t end while I’m living and maybe even continue on after that.

I’m a go with the flow kind of girl (99% of the time) so when I have a “moment” where I realize something that goes against the grain, it jars me. Then methodical Michelle takes over. Do you really feel this way? Are you just scared? Is this because you don’t see the opportunity and you’re talking yourself out of it? Are you trying to save yourself from disappointment?

Once I get through those questions then comes the next set. Does this make me a bad person? Am I being selfish? Is it wrong to feel this way?

Finally I do a “heart check” to see if what I’m thinking sits well with my soul.

Then I go through the process one more time for good measure. (Sometimes I can lie to myself.) I did this last night, prayed about it, and when I woke up this morning I realized my mind hadn’t changed on the matter. I knew my assessment was true and real.

There are two deep desires God has placed on my heart. One I remember from when I was in Kindergarten and the other developed in my middle school years. Those two desires have stuck with me. One was met and then taken away. The other I’m still working on—I’d like to think I get closer to that goal with every passing day.