D - Delilah

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I see your eyes on me when I step into a room Criticizing, gazing shamelessly at my curvesI was the one who hid behind shapeless clothesTo hide that extra roll of fat or two 
I'm the one that was made of fun of in school The pathetic fat girl who had no friends Jeers that I took on silently for I was ashamedI was disgusted at the body that was bestowed on me
Not fair, I came home and cried silently You will never know the long hours I spentSticking a finger up my throat to get rid of it allThe guilt I felt each time I gave into temptation
That double burger and crisps that I binged onThe more I ate, the more stressed I got Until it started all over again I was just another sad statistic
I was just another girl who was measured In terms of her Body Mass Index alone The fact that I wrote poetry or was fascinated with literature None of it mattered, neither did it count 
Until one day I realized that pleasing othersWas not my priority, I was more than that I was more than just a figure on a tipping scaleI was a woman, big and proud 
I no longer hide behind unflattering clothesI revel in my body and all that it has to offer My wide hips, my love handles, I love it all I still turn heads when I walk into a room 
But it's my confidence that gets talked of And my ability to weave words out of the blue I smile because they don't even see half of me And neither do I plan to show too
I'm a plus sized woman and proud of it I see women with svelte curves and the perfect hairBut would I swap places with them? With their tiny hearts?I would rather be the woman I am with a bigger heart still...

Linking this post to the A to Z Challenge.