Doubting but 1/5 done?

I’ve done a little word count today having finally completed Chapter 9 v1.0 and including those I’ve done for Part 2 – Return we’ve got 23,000+ words which represents about a fifth of the total I expect for this story. It was interesting having a scan through like this as I have, this week, had my “I don;t think I’m making progress” and falling out of love with it kind of feeling.

It’s a turbulent affair and when things don’t flow for a couple of days it is very easy to slip into the world of self doubt. I’ve not sold any copies this week so you automatically go for the “oh no is this a waste of time” feeling but in reality I know it isn’t in the slightest. I have achieved an audience of ONE (well in excess of fifty now which is good for a non supported self-published author I believe). Yes a bunch have been on free promotion but it is not about the money, yes that would be lovely but it’s about sharing my creations with the world.

Night shifts kill the creativity a little, staring at my background and Avengers whilst I try to see what I could create – alas it was two paragraphs that day!

The fact people WANT to read what I have created fills me with a pride of confidence so in these times of self doubt I try to remember that I haven’t had anyone tell me that I shouldn’t have bothered and that can only be a good thing.

So from staring at the screen in frustration for most of the week and feeling a poor flow from head to page for chapter 9 I have finished it today and am quite happy with how it has progressed.

I suppose it’s a reminder in a way to just take a break and then keep going! Which I intend to do.

Thank you for those who have supported and continue to do so!