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April 7, 2016
Wattpad now!
I've had some advice that sharing some of my short stories on Wattpad may be an idea. And because I love new ideas and enjoy any means to share my work with people, I've popped open an account on the page. Check it out and, if you're on the site, chuck me a follow?
https://www.wattpad.com/user/JustinMa...
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The Thing in the Basement chapter 5
The fifth chapter of my new book, "THE THING IN THE BASEMENT", is up for public viewing on googledocs now! Have a read, leave your thoughts, and stay tuned for chapter 6!
https://docs.google.com/document/d/19...
https://docs.google.com/document/d/19...
April 5, 2016
The Thing in the Basement chapter 4
The fourth chapter of my new book, "THE THING IN THE BASEMENT", is up for public viewing on googledocs now! Have a read, leave your thoughts, and stay tuned for chapter 5!
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1k...
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March 30, 2016
THE THING IN THE BASEMENT chapter 3
The third chapter of my new book, "THE THING IN THE BASEMENT", is up for public viewing on googledocs now! Have a read, leave your thoughts, and stay tuned for chapter 4!
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1J... 629 4233
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March 24, 2016
THE THING IN THE BASEMENT
The second chapter of my new book, "THE THING IN THE BASEMENT", is up for public viewing on googledocs now! Have a read, leave your thoughts, and stay tuned for chapter 3!
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1XqXI_Be-gsO-O4gaoAn5dtYDFtk0HX_kQ5vGgEjPi2w/edit?usp=sharing
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March 21, 2016
THE THING IN THE BASEMENT
The first chapter of my new book, "THE THING IN THE BASEMENT", is up for public viewing on googledocs now! Have a read, leave your thoughts, and stay tuned for chapter 2!
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1j2LgBMIz6-d6_yStLHeqMrrmQHCxv6-0iWV8qWEygn4/edit?usp=sharing
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1j2LgBMIz6-d6_yStLHeqMrrmQHCxv6-0iWV8qWEygn4/edit?usp=sharing
March 19, 2016
For my new horror novel, tentatively titled "THE THING IN...
For my new horror novel, tentatively titled "THE THING IN THE BASEMENT", I have come up with a rather unique and possibly revolutionary idea. I will be writing this book over the course of an hour every week day. The book will be stored as a file, which will be accessible as it is being written via googledocs. You, the reader, will be able to pop on and view the creative process for this book, experiencing it in an open medium. You will be able to view it, comment on it, share thoughts and opinions. At the end, the book will seek publishing. I've not tried this type of format before. I'm hoping it will be quite the adventure for us all! :D
February 15, 2016
I, Suspect
"You only married me for my money, you bitch" he yelled.
That was how he greeted me that evening. I sighed, and turned to leave the room. I knew how these arguments played out. In the last month alone, in the simple space of three weeks, I had relived this same experience many times. Times enough that the experience had become little more than a repeating dance, our own little foxtrot of bitterness.
I could, if I tried very hard, boil the entire repeating cycle down to its core, examine it like a pattern that folded over and over until I knew exactly how it would transpire. He would begin with hurling accusations. I would move my defences up, telling him that he was wrong. He would then shift tact, accusing me of infidelity, of sleeping with someone else behind his back. Tell me that I was only with him for the hope of inheriting his fortune.
The truth was, I had loved him, once. In days that seemed so long ago that they seemed to be little more than a dream. I had, I know I had. Even if I had to remind myself of the fact.
We had married in a great, lavish ceremony. Me, on his arm, among throngs of his friends. We had been the talk of the society column. Who was I? Just some girl, far too young for him, no breeding, no culture. But he, he was Richard White, and as gallant a gentleman as his name would befit. We had been the toast of Paris, and our love could have changed the world.
Now, today. He was old. Thin strands of hair. Deep, dark eyes. Spittle flecked his lips each time he shouted at me, which was often. Arlington Grange had become his tomb, our honeymoon manor which had transformed, as he had so transformed, into an echoing sepulchre of bitterness. I think, perhaps, it was his youth that had cost him his mind.
I left him there, in his vast bedroom with his silver tea tray and lukewarm coffee. Left him to his mouldering curtains and screams of hated. As I strode through the echoing hallway, the coldness clouding my breath, I thought how I despised him. Despised what he had become. More than that, though, I despised myself, my reliance on him. The knowledge that I would be unable to survive outside of this miserable, cobwebbed manse sat as heavy as my anger. I had no friends that were not his friends, no world into which I was a part. Arlington Grange, I thought, was as much my tomb as it was his own.
"You'll never get my money" he rasped, his gravel voice reverberating like the creak of old wood. "Not a single penny, you hateful bitch. You wicked, stupid cow!”
I tried to shut out his words. But what could I do to silence then, when the entire hall seemed to reverberate with their lord's call? In days gone by, when his mind had first started to twist into the warped, gnarled thing that it was today, more like the roots of an especially ancient tree than the man I had once known and loved, I would have feared that the staff would have heard. Oh, when I was a girl, I had dreamed to live in a house as large as this, and to have staff to cater for the needs of the estate. And when I had first met, and been swept off my feet my Richard White, the entire manor had bustled with maids and waiters, gardeners and butlers. The manor had been warm then, the chill of the cold kept at bay by the duties of those who waited on us. But, as the years had passed, even they too had left, drifting gradually away with the seasons, leaving only myself and my husband and the ashen fireplaces. Try as I might, the fires would never burn for me.
The spiderwebs etched the manor like beads of condensation on a window. I would never admit that they scared me, that I felt a sense of fear from those gossamer strings. But as our servants had deserted, fleeing from lord White’s frequent and indiscriminate rages, the spiderwebs had come to lay waste to the manor. In the west wing, far from the rooms in which my husband would dwell, I alone maintained a vigil against their encroachment, fighting back against their perpetual invasion. It was into this sanctuary that I fled once again, eager to escape his biting words. And so I became a prisoner, or as much of one as I could confess to myself as being, locked within the manor with the man to whom my love had grown to hatred.
The night of the dinner party came suddenly. I had, I think, hoped that it would not. The guests arrived, one by one, five in number. In the days of my youth, they had numbered in the hundreds. But now, tonight, those who attended did so not out of duty or love but out of obligation. Gone were the nights that rang with music and dance, and instead the guests marched like a funeral procession into the echoing halls through the gates of Arlington Grange.
Without our staff, we attended the guests ourselves. Or, rather, I did, while my husband busied himself in the dining room, awaiting their arrival. I had polished the silver, as best as I could. Having all but neglected to attend to the approaching date of the dinner party, the event had all but caught me unawares. Still the forks were dingy, unkempt and dim. It had been a year since they had touched the table, since the last such party.
The sound of the bell broke through the silence like a dirge, and I opened the door to reveal my husband’s niece. Young and sheer, she brushed past me into the hall, a trail of her red gown crackling behind her, before she was joined a few steps behind by her mother. Cloaked in a shawl of gaudy feathers and bright colours, Mr White’s sister stood in stark contrast to the manor around her. Widowed for almost a decade, I thought, she made no secret that she yearned for her brother’s wealth, speaking of her desire to possess his financial security to maintain her rapidly sinking grandiose lifestyle.
I accepted the coats of our guests, and soon we were joined by the others, each a parade of grim faces, and I enquired as to their health one by one. As I spoke with the youngest of our visitors, an earnest gent of a scholarly nature who told me of his ascension into the realms of a doctorate. Before long, my husband emerged from the kitchen to join his guests. Even in their presence, he was dismissive. He greeted his oldest friend, who had served beside him in the army as far back as the mists of time, with little more than a customary grunt. Five friends only remained, standing around the thin waste of a dining room table, and they were alone.
Choice of suitable dinner wear had been slim. My husband, as wealthy as he was, was not one to extend the benefit of his generosity to me, instead clutching his fingers tightly, arthritically, around his purse-strings. What little I had to wear in order to play the gallant hostess amounted to a slender, simple white dress.
Conversation sat as still and lifeless as the roast duck on the plate. Our guests, their eyes turned downwards in the hopes of avoiding my husband’s next volley of ire, rarely dared to offer words to their thoughts. The dining room clung like marble to the floor, a thousand years deep, and each of us drowned in it. There we sat, not a one of us truly wishing to be present, and the thought grew then in my mind that each of us here had grown to despise my husband. Each of us in turn, across the years, had endured his cruelty, his barbs. I looked around the table, the grey faces young and old, and thought that we were all but trapped here within my husband’s tomb, locked within a cage of his own making. In desperation, I reached my hand around one of the many silver candlesticks that lined the table. “This is dirty” I said, my voice without tone. “I will polish it. Please excuse me.”
I strode from the dining room, clutching the meagre reason for my hasty departure as if it were a lifesaver. In the kitchen, I snatched a dingy rag from the dust-lain countertop and began to polish the silver. My peace from my husband’s presence lasted only a moment. He pursued me to the kitchen, barely leaving me but a moment away from his presence. “You are a cow” he croaked. “Why must you embarrass me so?”
Within my heart, I felt the old urge spin. I could sense it again, feeling with intricate familiarity the same pattern, the cycle that would lead irrevocably to my husband’s cruelty. I saw, with all the hindsight that decades of experience had gifted me, the course of the accusations that he was about to hurl at me. “No” I said, my voice little more than a whisper. “Please, not now. Not here, with your friends in the dining room.”
“You think I care about them?” he spat. Flecks of saliva dotted the front of his dust-ridden shirt. “Do you think that I care a jot for any of them? Why do you think they come here?” He jabbed his finger, stabbing it through the air, damning me with its accusation. “They come here for my money. Well, they won’t have it. Do you hear me?”
I turned, clasping the rag to the silverware, polishing it. I tried to ignore his words. Had he been younger, had I been any younger myself, I would have feared that he would strike me. But he was old, too old, almost twenty years my senior, and age had robbed him of his strength and his virility. In my mind I pictured him, a frail old man, twisted and bent under the weight of his loathing. Instead, he stepped closer, and in a tone that sliced through all of my defences he said “You won’t have any of it, either. I’ve changed my will; don’t you know? I have left every penny to the bank.”
Looking around, I thought for a moment that I saw the glimpse of a smile on his cragged lips. He must have seen something there in my eyes, caught a ghost of some terrible emotion that welled up inside me, because at that moment he began to laugh. Laugh a cruel, deep, cackling laugh, which ripped into me like a dagger.
It is true to say that I did not remain with him all those years because of his wealth. That was not, and had never been, the reason that I lingered within these walls with him, haunted by him, cursed by him. No, the money had been his damnation, not mine. But in that moment, I think, I saw inside him the depths of his hatred for me. Staring into the wild eyes that sat in dark sockets and mocked me, I understood that my husband held no love for me, if indeed he ever had. No, it wasn’t for the money; it wasn’t for that at all. It was, I believe, for the years and years of torment – for the yesterdays and the yesterdays of hurt and pain and the utter death of love – that caused me to bring the candlestick up and drive it against his skull. In the moment that I did so, he was gone. He collapsed, his arm crashing against the countertop and upsetting an old china kettle as it did so, before he became a lifeless heap on the floor, empty of all the malice that had animated him these many years.
I stood, clutching the silver candlestick to my chest, watching him. My heart hammered in my chest, its rhythm growing infinitely loud within the echoing emptiness of Arlington Grange. I breathed, and with each breath I expected that he would rise again, claw his way back to spit his last ounce of hatred at me. But he did not. And so it was.
Stepping around the empty, lifeless form that had once been my husband, I moved my way through the dining room, the eyes of our guests upon me, watching me. Surely, I thought, they had heard. Surely they knew, with all their reason. And yet not a one stood to stop me, not one of them rose to condemn me. They knew, I realised, as surely as I did, that they each held a reason for their hatred of my husband, each as strong and as secret and as forceful as my own.
His oldest friend, the colonel, who had paid my husband more than he could afford to conceal his gambling debts, and who now nestled a pistol beneath his bulging blazer. My husband’s sister, so envious of her brother’s wealth, who sat with feathers in her hair to disguise a small thin-bladed knife. Even the reverend, in his olive-hued shirt, face as sombre as the grave, clutching a hefty car wrench beneath the table as if it were the key to his own salvation.
I sat among them, guests of my husband’s ghost one and all, and sipped my tea from a frail china cup. Who would think, who would truly suspect, among all those who my husband’s cruelty had set against him and had come here tonight with murder in their hearts, that the person who murdered him was Mrs White, in the kitchen, with the candlestick?
That was how he greeted me that evening. I sighed, and turned to leave the room. I knew how these arguments played out. In the last month alone, in the simple space of three weeks, I had relived this same experience many times. Times enough that the experience had become little more than a repeating dance, our own little foxtrot of bitterness.
I could, if I tried very hard, boil the entire repeating cycle down to its core, examine it like a pattern that folded over and over until I knew exactly how it would transpire. He would begin with hurling accusations. I would move my defences up, telling him that he was wrong. He would then shift tact, accusing me of infidelity, of sleeping with someone else behind his back. Tell me that I was only with him for the hope of inheriting his fortune.
The truth was, I had loved him, once. In days that seemed so long ago that they seemed to be little more than a dream. I had, I know I had. Even if I had to remind myself of the fact.
We had married in a great, lavish ceremony. Me, on his arm, among throngs of his friends. We had been the talk of the society column. Who was I? Just some girl, far too young for him, no breeding, no culture. But he, he was Richard White, and as gallant a gentleman as his name would befit. We had been the toast of Paris, and our love could have changed the world.
Now, today. He was old. Thin strands of hair. Deep, dark eyes. Spittle flecked his lips each time he shouted at me, which was often. Arlington Grange had become his tomb, our honeymoon manor which had transformed, as he had so transformed, into an echoing sepulchre of bitterness. I think, perhaps, it was his youth that had cost him his mind.
I left him there, in his vast bedroom with his silver tea tray and lukewarm coffee. Left him to his mouldering curtains and screams of hated. As I strode through the echoing hallway, the coldness clouding my breath, I thought how I despised him. Despised what he had become. More than that, though, I despised myself, my reliance on him. The knowledge that I would be unable to survive outside of this miserable, cobwebbed manse sat as heavy as my anger. I had no friends that were not his friends, no world into which I was a part. Arlington Grange, I thought, was as much my tomb as it was his own.
"You'll never get my money" he rasped, his gravel voice reverberating like the creak of old wood. "Not a single penny, you hateful bitch. You wicked, stupid cow!”
I tried to shut out his words. But what could I do to silence then, when the entire hall seemed to reverberate with their lord's call? In days gone by, when his mind had first started to twist into the warped, gnarled thing that it was today, more like the roots of an especially ancient tree than the man I had once known and loved, I would have feared that the staff would have heard. Oh, when I was a girl, I had dreamed to live in a house as large as this, and to have staff to cater for the needs of the estate. And when I had first met, and been swept off my feet my Richard White, the entire manor had bustled with maids and waiters, gardeners and butlers. The manor had been warm then, the chill of the cold kept at bay by the duties of those who waited on us. But, as the years had passed, even they too had left, drifting gradually away with the seasons, leaving only myself and my husband and the ashen fireplaces. Try as I might, the fires would never burn for me.
The spiderwebs etched the manor like beads of condensation on a window. I would never admit that they scared me, that I felt a sense of fear from those gossamer strings. But as our servants had deserted, fleeing from lord White’s frequent and indiscriminate rages, the spiderwebs had come to lay waste to the manor. In the west wing, far from the rooms in which my husband would dwell, I alone maintained a vigil against their encroachment, fighting back against their perpetual invasion. It was into this sanctuary that I fled once again, eager to escape his biting words. And so I became a prisoner, or as much of one as I could confess to myself as being, locked within the manor with the man to whom my love had grown to hatred.
The night of the dinner party came suddenly. I had, I think, hoped that it would not. The guests arrived, one by one, five in number. In the days of my youth, they had numbered in the hundreds. But now, tonight, those who attended did so not out of duty or love but out of obligation. Gone were the nights that rang with music and dance, and instead the guests marched like a funeral procession into the echoing halls through the gates of Arlington Grange.
Without our staff, we attended the guests ourselves. Or, rather, I did, while my husband busied himself in the dining room, awaiting their arrival. I had polished the silver, as best as I could. Having all but neglected to attend to the approaching date of the dinner party, the event had all but caught me unawares. Still the forks were dingy, unkempt and dim. It had been a year since they had touched the table, since the last such party.
The sound of the bell broke through the silence like a dirge, and I opened the door to reveal my husband’s niece. Young and sheer, she brushed past me into the hall, a trail of her red gown crackling behind her, before she was joined a few steps behind by her mother. Cloaked in a shawl of gaudy feathers and bright colours, Mr White’s sister stood in stark contrast to the manor around her. Widowed for almost a decade, I thought, she made no secret that she yearned for her brother’s wealth, speaking of her desire to possess his financial security to maintain her rapidly sinking grandiose lifestyle.
I accepted the coats of our guests, and soon we were joined by the others, each a parade of grim faces, and I enquired as to their health one by one. As I spoke with the youngest of our visitors, an earnest gent of a scholarly nature who told me of his ascension into the realms of a doctorate. Before long, my husband emerged from the kitchen to join his guests. Even in their presence, he was dismissive. He greeted his oldest friend, who had served beside him in the army as far back as the mists of time, with little more than a customary grunt. Five friends only remained, standing around the thin waste of a dining room table, and they were alone.
Choice of suitable dinner wear had been slim. My husband, as wealthy as he was, was not one to extend the benefit of his generosity to me, instead clutching his fingers tightly, arthritically, around his purse-strings. What little I had to wear in order to play the gallant hostess amounted to a slender, simple white dress.
Conversation sat as still and lifeless as the roast duck on the plate. Our guests, their eyes turned downwards in the hopes of avoiding my husband’s next volley of ire, rarely dared to offer words to their thoughts. The dining room clung like marble to the floor, a thousand years deep, and each of us drowned in it. There we sat, not a one of us truly wishing to be present, and the thought grew then in my mind that each of us here had grown to despise my husband. Each of us in turn, across the years, had endured his cruelty, his barbs. I looked around the table, the grey faces young and old, and thought that we were all but trapped here within my husband’s tomb, locked within a cage of his own making. In desperation, I reached my hand around one of the many silver candlesticks that lined the table. “This is dirty” I said, my voice without tone. “I will polish it. Please excuse me.”
I strode from the dining room, clutching the meagre reason for my hasty departure as if it were a lifesaver. In the kitchen, I snatched a dingy rag from the dust-lain countertop and began to polish the silver. My peace from my husband’s presence lasted only a moment. He pursued me to the kitchen, barely leaving me but a moment away from his presence. “You are a cow” he croaked. “Why must you embarrass me so?”
Within my heart, I felt the old urge spin. I could sense it again, feeling with intricate familiarity the same pattern, the cycle that would lead irrevocably to my husband’s cruelty. I saw, with all the hindsight that decades of experience had gifted me, the course of the accusations that he was about to hurl at me. “No” I said, my voice little more than a whisper. “Please, not now. Not here, with your friends in the dining room.”
“You think I care about them?” he spat. Flecks of saliva dotted the front of his dust-ridden shirt. “Do you think that I care a jot for any of them? Why do you think they come here?” He jabbed his finger, stabbing it through the air, damning me with its accusation. “They come here for my money. Well, they won’t have it. Do you hear me?”
I turned, clasping the rag to the silverware, polishing it. I tried to ignore his words. Had he been younger, had I been any younger myself, I would have feared that he would strike me. But he was old, too old, almost twenty years my senior, and age had robbed him of his strength and his virility. In my mind I pictured him, a frail old man, twisted and bent under the weight of his loathing. Instead, he stepped closer, and in a tone that sliced through all of my defences he said “You won’t have any of it, either. I’ve changed my will; don’t you know? I have left every penny to the bank.”
Looking around, I thought for a moment that I saw the glimpse of a smile on his cragged lips. He must have seen something there in my eyes, caught a ghost of some terrible emotion that welled up inside me, because at that moment he began to laugh. Laugh a cruel, deep, cackling laugh, which ripped into me like a dagger.
It is true to say that I did not remain with him all those years because of his wealth. That was not, and had never been, the reason that I lingered within these walls with him, haunted by him, cursed by him. No, the money had been his damnation, not mine. But in that moment, I think, I saw inside him the depths of his hatred for me. Staring into the wild eyes that sat in dark sockets and mocked me, I understood that my husband held no love for me, if indeed he ever had. No, it wasn’t for the money; it wasn’t for that at all. It was, I believe, for the years and years of torment – for the yesterdays and the yesterdays of hurt and pain and the utter death of love – that caused me to bring the candlestick up and drive it against his skull. In the moment that I did so, he was gone. He collapsed, his arm crashing against the countertop and upsetting an old china kettle as it did so, before he became a lifeless heap on the floor, empty of all the malice that had animated him these many years.
I stood, clutching the silver candlestick to my chest, watching him. My heart hammered in my chest, its rhythm growing infinitely loud within the echoing emptiness of Arlington Grange. I breathed, and with each breath I expected that he would rise again, claw his way back to spit his last ounce of hatred at me. But he did not. And so it was.
Stepping around the empty, lifeless form that had once been my husband, I moved my way through the dining room, the eyes of our guests upon me, watching me. Surely, I thought, they had heard. Surely they knew, with all their reason. And yet not a one stood to stop me, not one of them rose to condemn me. They knew, I realised, as surely as I did, that they each held a reason for their hatred of my husband, each as strong and as secret and as forceful as my own.
His oldest friend, the colonel, who had paid my husband more than he could afford to conceal his gambling debts, and who now nestled a pistol beneath his bulging blazer. My husband’s sister, so envious of her brother’s wealth, who sat with feathers in her hair to disguise a small thin-bladed knife. Even the reverend, in his olive-hued shirt, face as sombre as the grave, clutching a hefty car wrench beneath the table as if it were the key to his own salvation.
I sat among them, guests of my husband’s ghost one and all, and sipped my tea from a frail china cup. Who would think, who would truly suspect, among all those who my husband’s cruelty had set against him and had come here tonight with murder in their hearts, that the person who murdered him was Mrs White, in the kitchen, with the candlestick?
Nameless Little Tale
"You only married me for my money, you bitch" he yelled.
That was how he greeted me that evening. I sighed, and turned to leave the room. I knew how these arguments played out. In the last month alone, in the simple space of three weeks, I had relived this same experience many times. Times enough that the experience had become little more than a repeating dance, our own little foxtrot of bitterness.
I could, if I tried very hard, boil the entire repeating cycle down to its core, examine it like a pattern that folded over and over until I knew exactly how it would transpire. He would begin with hurling accusations. I would move my defences up, telling him that he was wrong. He would then shift tact, accusing me of infidelity, of sleeping with someone else behind his back. Tell me that I was only with him for the hope of inheriting his fortune.
The truth was, I had loved him, once. In days that seemed so long ago that they seemed to be little more than a dream. I had, I know I had. Even if I had to remind myself of the fact.
We had married in a great, lavish ceremony. Me, on his arm, among throngs of his friends. We had been the talk of the society column. Who was I? Just some girl, far too young for him, no breeding, no culture. But he, he was Richard White, and as gallant a gentleman as his name would befit. We had been the toast of Paris, and our love could have changed the world.
Now, today. He was old. Thin strands of hair. Deep, dark eyes. Spittle flecked his lips each time he shouted at me, which was often. Arlington Hall had become his tomb, our honeymoon manor which had transformed, as he had so transformed, into an echoing sepulchre of bitterness. I think, perhaps, it was his youth that had cost him his mind.
I left him there, in his vast bedroom with his silver tea tray and lukewarm coffee. Left him to his mouldering curtains and screams of hated. As I strode through the echoing hallway, the coldness clouding my breath, I thought how I despised him. Despised what he had become. More than that, though, I despised myself, my reliance on him. The knowledge that I would be unable to survive outside of this miserable, cobwebbed manse sat as heavy as my anger. I had no friends that were not his friends, no world into which I was a part. Arlington Hall, I thought, was as much my tomb as it was his own.
"You'll never get my money" he rasped, his gravel voice reverberating like the creak of old wood. "Not a single penny, you hateful bitch. You wicked, stupid cow!”
I tried to shut out his words. But what could I do to silence then, when the entire hall seemed to reverberate with their lord's call? In days gone by, when his mind had first started to twist into the warped, gnarled thing that it was today, more like the roots of an especially ancient tree than the man I had once known and loved, I would have feared that the staff would have heard. Oh, when I was a girl, I had dreamed to live in a house as large as this, and to have staff to cater for the needs of the estate. And when I had first met, and been swept off my feet my Richard White, the entire manor had bustled with maids and waiters, gardeners and butlers. The manor had been warm then, the chill of the cold kept at bay by the duties of those who waited on us. But, as the years had passed, even they too had left, drifting gradually away with the seasons, leaving only myself and my husband and the ashen fireplaces. Try as I might, the fires would never burn for me.
The spiderwebs etched the manor like beads of condensation on a window. I would never admit that they scared me, that I felt a sense of fear from those gossamer strings. But as our servants had deserted, fleeing from lord White’s frequent and indiscriminate rages, the spiderwebs had come to lay waste to the manor. In the west wing, far from the rooms in which my husband would dwell, I alone maintained a vigil against their encroachment, fighting back against their perpetual invasion. It was into this sanctuary that I fled once again, eager to escape his biting words. And so I became a prisoner, or as much of one as I could confess to myself as being, locked within the manor with the man to whom my love had grown to hatred.
The night of the dinner party came suddenly. I had, I think, hoped that it would not. The guests arrived, one by one, five in number. In the days of my youth, they had numbered in the hundreds. But now, tonight, those who attended did so not out of duty or love but out of obligation. Gone were the nights that rang with music and dance, and instead the guests marched like a funeral procession into the echoing halls through the gates of Arlington Hall.
Without our staff, we attended the guests ourselves. Or, rather, I did, while my husband busied himself in the dining room, awaiting their arrival. Even in their presence, he was dismissive. He greeted his oldest friend, who had served beside him in the army as far back as the mists of time, with little more than a customary grunt. Five friends only remained, standing around the thin waste of a dining room table, and they were alone.
I had polished the silver, as best as I could. Having all but neglected to attend to the approaching date of the dinner party, the event had all but caught me unawares. Still the forks were dingy, unkempt and dim. It had been a year since they had touched the table, since the last such party. I accepted the coats of our guests, and to each I enquired as to their health. The youngest, an earnest gent of a scholarly nature, told me of his ascension into the realms of a doctorate. All the while I ushered them to the table. Choice of suitable dinner wear had been slim. My husband, as wealthy as he was, was not one to extend the benefit of his generosity to me, instead clutching his fingers tightly, arthritically, around his purse-strings. What little I had to wear in order to play the gallant hostess amounted to a slender, simple white dress.
Conversation sat at still and lifeless as the roast duck on the plate. Our guests, their eyes turned downwards in the hopes of avoiding my husband’s next volley of ire, rarely dared to offer words to their thoughts. The dining room clung like marble to the floor, a thousand years deep, and each of us drowned in it. There we sat, not a one of us truly wishing to be present, and the thought grew then in my mind that each of us here had grown to despise my husband. Each of us in turn, across the years, had endured his cruelty, his barbs. I looked around the table, the grey faces young and old, and thought that we were all but trapped here within my husband’s tomb, locked within a cage of his own making. In desperation, I reached my hand around one of the many silver candlesticks that lined the table. “This is dirty” I said, my voice without tone. “I will polish it. Please excuse me.”
I strode from the dining room, clutching the meagre reason for my hasty departure as if it were a lifesaver. In the kitchen, I snatched a dingy rag from the dust-lain countertop and began to polish the silver. My peace from my husband’s presence lasted only a moment. He pursued me to the kitchen, barely leaving me but a moment away from his presence. “You are a cow” he croaked. “Why must you embarrass me so?”
Within my heart, I felt the old urge spin. I could sense it again, feeling with intricate familiarity the same pattern, the cycle that would lead irrevocably to my husband’s cruelty. I saw, with all the hindsight that decades of experience had gifted me, the course of the accusations that he was about to hurl at me. “No” I said, my voice little more than a whisper. “Please, not now. Not here, with your friends in the dining room.”
“You think I care about them?” he spat. Flecks of saliva dotted the front of his dust-ridden shirt. “Do you think that I care a jot for any of them? Why do you think they come here?” He jabbed his finger, stabbing it through the air, damning me with its accusation. “They come here for my money. Well, they won’t have it. Do you hear me?”
I turned, clasping the rag to the silverware, polishing it. I tried to ignore his words. Had he been younger, had I been any younger myself, I would have feared that he would strike me. But he was old, too old, almost twenty years my senior, and age had robbed him of his strength and his virility. In my mind I pictured him, a frail old man, twisted and bent under the weight of his loathing. Instead, he stepped closer, and in a tone that sliced through all of my defences he said “You won’t have any of it, either. I’ve changed my will, don’t you know? I have left every penny to the bank.”
Looking around, I thought for a moment that I saw the glimpse of a smile on his cragged lips. He must have seen something there in my eyes, caught a ghost of some terrible emotion that welled up inside me, because at that moment he began to laugh.
It is true to say that I did not remain with him all those years because of his wealth. That was not, and had never been, the reason that I lingered within these walls with him, haunted by him, cursed by him. No, the money had been his damnation, not mine. But in that moment, I think, I saw inside him the depths of his hatred for me. Staring into the wild eyes that sat in dark sockets and mocked me, I understood that my husband held no love for me, if indeed he ever had. No, it wasn’t for the money; it wasn’t for that at all. It was, I believe, for the years and years of torment – for the yesterdays and the yesterdays of hurt and pain and the utter death of love – that caused me to bring the candlestick up and drive it against his skull. In the moment that I did so, he was gone. He collapsed, his arm crashing against the countertop and upsetting an old china kettle as it did so, before he became a lifeless heap on the floor, empty of all the malice that had animated him these many years.
I stood, clutching the silver candlestick to my chest, watching him. My heart hammered in my chest, its rhythm growing infinitely loud within the echoing emptiness of Arlington Hall. I breathed, and with each breath I expected that he would rise again, claw his way back to spit his last ounce of hatred at me. But he did not. And so it was.
Stepping around the empty, lifeless form that had once been my husband, I moved my way through the dining room, the eyes of our guests upon me, watching me. Surely, I thought, they had heard. Surely they knew, with all their reason. And yet not a one stood to stop me, not one of them rose to condemn me. They knew, I realised, as surely as I did, that they each held a reason for their hatred of my husband, each as strong and as secret and as forceful as my own. Would the fancy woman with feathers in her hair strike up a performance for my deeds? Would the father hear my confessions and deliver absolution? We were alone in this house, I knew, at very least until the police came. And they would come, I was certain of it. They would come. And when they did, would any among them, with so many possible suspects, truly deduce that it was Mrs White who killed him in the kitchen with the candlestick?
That was how he greeted me that evening. I sighed, and turned to leave the room. I knew how these arguments played out. In the last month alone, in the simple space of three weeks, I had relived this same experience many times. Times enough that the experience had become little more than a repeating dance, our own little foxtrot of bitterness.
I could, if I tried very hard, boil the entire repeating cycle down to its core, examine it like a pattern that folded over and over until I knew exactly how it would transpire. He would begin with hurling accusations. I would move my defences up, telling him that he was wrong. He would then shift tact, accusing me of infidelity, of sleeping with someone else behind his back. Tell me that I was only with him for the hope of inheriting his fortune.
The truth was, I had loved him, once. In days that seemed so long ago that they seemed to be little more than a dream. I had, I know I had. Even if I had to remind myself of the fact.
We had married in a great, lavish ceremony. Me, on his arm, among throngs of his friends. We had been the talk of the society column. Who was I? Just some girl, far too young for him, no breeding, no culture. But he, he was Richard White, and as gallant a gentleman as his name would befit. We had been the toast of Paris, and our love could have changed the world.
Now, today. He was old. Thin strands of hair. Deep, dark eyes. Spittle flecked his lips each time he shouted at me, which was often. Arlington Hall had become his tomb, our honeymoon manor which had transformed, as he had so transformed, into an echoing sepulchre of bitterness. I think, perhaps, it was his youth that had cost him his mind.
I left him there, in his vast bedroom with his silver tea tray and lukewarm coffee. Left him to his mouldering curtains and screams of hated. As I strode through the echoing hallway, the coldness clouding my breath, I thought how I despised him. Despised what he had become. More than that, though, I despised myself, my reliance on him. The knowledge that I would be unable to survive outside of this miserable, cobwebbed manse sat as heavy as my anger. I had no friends that were not his friends, no world into which I was a part. Arlington Hall, I thought, was as much my tomb as it was his own.
"You'll never get my money" he rasped, his gravel voice reverberating like the creak of old wood. "Not a single penny, you hateful bitch. You wicked, stupid cow!”
I tried to shut out his words. But what could I do to silence then, when the entire hall seemed to reverberate with their lord's call? In days gone by, when his mind had first started to twist into the warped, gnarled thing that it was today, more like the roots of an especially ancient tree than the man I had once known and loved, I would have feared that the staff would have heard. Oh, when I was a girl, I had dreamed to live in a house as large as this, and to have staff to cater for the needs of the estate. And when I had first met, and been swept off my feet my Richard White, the entire manor had bustled with maids and waiters, gardeners and butlers. The manor had been warm then, the chill of the cold kept at bay by the duties of those who waited on us. But, as the years had passed, even they too had left, drifting gradually away with the seasons, leaving only myself and my husband and the ashen fireplaces. Try as I might, the fires would never burn for me.
The spiderwebs etched the manor like beads of condensation on a window. I would never admit that they scared me, that I felt a sense of fear from those gossamer strings. But as our servants had deserted, fleeing from lord White’s frequent and indiscriminate rages, the spiderwebs had come to lay waste to the manor. In the west wing, far from the rooms in which my husband would dwell, I alone maintained a vigil against their encroachment, fighting back against their perpetual invasion. It was into this sanctuary that I fled once again, eager to escape his biting words. And so I became a prisoner, or as much of one as I could confess to myself as being, locked within the manor with the man to whom my love had grown to hatred.
The night of the dinner party came suddenly. I had, I think, hoped that it would not. The guests arrived, one by one, five in number. In the days of my youth, they had numbered in the hundreds. But now, tonight, those who attended did so not out of duty or love but out of obligation. Gone were the nights that rang with music and dance, and instead the guests marched like a funeral procession into the echoing halls through the gates of Arlington Hall.
Without our staff, we attended the guests ourselves. Or, rather, I did, while my husband busied himself in the dining room, awaiting their arrival. Even in their presence, he was dismissive. He greeted his oldest friend, who had served beside him in the army as far back as the mists of time, with little more than a customary grunt. Five friends only remained, standing around the thin waste of a dining room table, and they were alone.
I had polished the silver, as best as I could. Having all but neglected to attend to the approaching date of the dinner party, the event had all but caught me unawares. Still the forks were dingy, unkempt and dim. It had been a year since they had touched the table, since the last such party. I accepted the coats of our guests, and to each I enquired as to their health. The youngest, an earnest gent of a scholarly nature, told me of his ascension into the realms of a doctorate. All the while I ushered them to the table. Choice of suitable dinner wear had been slim. My husband, as wealthy as he was, was not one to extend the benefit of his generosity to me, instead clutching his fingers tightly, arthritically, around his purse-strings. What little I had to wear in order to play the gallant hostess amounted to a slender, simple white dress.
Conversation sat at still and lifeless as the roast duck on the plate. Our guests, their eyes turned downwards in the hopes of avoiding my husband’s next volley of ire, rarely dared to offer words to their thoughts. The dining room clung like marble to the floor, a thousand years deep, and each of us drowned in it. There we sat, not a one of us truly wishing to be present, and the thought grew then in my mind that each of us here had grown to despise my husband. Each of us in turn, across the years, had endured his cruelty, his barbs. I looked around the table, the grey faces young and old, and thought that we were all but trapped here within my husband’s tomb, locked within a cage of his own making. In desperation, I reached my hand around one of the many silver candlesticks that lined the table. “This is dirty” I said, my voice without tone. “I will polish it. Please excuse me.”
I strode from the dining room, clutching the meagre reason for my hasty departure as if it were a lifesaver. In the kitchen, I snatched a dingy rag from the dust-lain countertop and began to polish the silver. My peace from my husband’s presence lasted only a moment. He pursued me to the kitchen, barely leaving me but a moment away from his presence. “You are a cow” he croaked. “Why must you embarrass me so?”
Within my heart, I felt the old urge spin. I could sense it again, feeling with intricate familiarity the same pattern, the cycle that would lead irrevocably to my husband’s cruelty. I saw, with all the hindsight that decades of experience had gifted me, the course of the accusations that he was about to hurl at me. “No” I said, my voice little more than a whisper. “Please, not now. Not here, with your friends in the dining room.”
“You think I care about them?” he spat. Flecks of saliva dotted the front of his dust-ridden shirt. “Do you think that I care a jot for any of them? Why do you think they come here?” He jabbed his finger, stabbing it through the air, damning me with its accusation. “They come here for my money. Well, they won’t have it. Do you hear me?”
I turned, clasping the rag to the silverware, polishing it. I tried to ignore his words. Had he been younger, had I been any younger myself, I would have feared that he would strike me. But he was old, too old, almost twenty years my senior, and age had robbed him of his strength and his virility. In my mind I pictured him, a frail old man, twisted and bent under the weight of his loathing. Instead, he stepped closer, and in a tone that sliced through all of my defences he said “You won’t have any of it, either. I’ve changed my will, don’t you know? I have left every penny to the bank.”
Looking around, I thought for a moment that I saw the glimpse of a smile on his cragged lips. He must have seen something there in my eyes, caught a ghost of some terrible emotion that welled up inside me, because at that moment he began to laugh.
It is true to say that I did not remain with him all those years because of his wealth. That was not, and had never been, the reason that I lingered within these walls with him, haunted by him, cursed by him. No, the money had been his damnation, not mine. But in that moment, I think, I saw inside him the depths of his hatred for me. Staring into the wild eyes that sat in dark sockets and mocked me, I understood that my husband held no love for me, if indeed he ever had. No, it wasn’t for the money; it wasn’t for that at all. It was, I believe, for the years and years of torment – for the yesterdays and the yesterdays of hurt and pain and the utter death of love – that caused me to bring the candlestick up and drive it against his skull. In the moment that I did so, he was gone. He collapsed, his arm crashing against the countertop and upsetting an old china kettle as it did so, before he became a lifeless heap on the floor, empty of all the malice that had animated him these many years.
I stood, clutching the silver candlestick to my chest, watching him. My heart hammered in my chest, its rhythm growing infinitely loud within the echoing emptiness of Arlington Hall. I breathed, and with each breath I expected that he would rise again, claw his way back to spit his last ounce of hatred at me. But he did not. And so it was.
Stepping around the empty, lifeless form that had once been my husband, I moved my way through the dining room, the eyes of our guests upon me, watching me. Surely, I thought, they had heard. Surely they knew, with all their reason. And yet not a one stood to stop me, not one of them rose to condemn me. They knew, I realised, as surely as I did, that they each held a reason for their hatred of my husband, each as strong and as secret and as forceful as my own. Would the fancy woman with feathers in her hair strike up a performance for my deeds? Would the father hear my confessions and deliver absolution? We were alone in this house, I knew, at very least until the police came. And they would come, I was certain of it. They would come. And when they did, would any among them, with so many possible suspects, truly deduce that it was Mrs White who killed him in the kitchen with the candlestick?
January 22, 2016
ANNOUNCEMENT - Twilight of the Faerie volume 2: Summer
Hello all, I am proud to announce that the second volume of the dark fantasy saga "Twilight of the Faerie" is due for imminant publication by Ionic Books!
Available for pre-order now at http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B019ZRLUCA and due for release on February 26th!
Set in the war-torn lands of the Fae, "Volume 2: Summer" follows the ongoing struggles noble Sidhe prince Elhart and the stalwart half-blooded farmgirl Rowan as they fight against time to bring together the scheming Faerie courts. Can these ancient families, so long set at each other's throats, put their age-long battles aside and turn their attentions to the deadly, nightmarish new threat that endangers the very world of human dreaming?
Written by horror novelist Justin MacCormack, author of the bestselling "Return to 'Return to Oz'" and "Diary of a gay teenage zombie", "Twilight of the Faerie" is a dark fantasy epic that merges contemporary young adult genres, vibrant characters and break-neck adventure to create a surreal, evocative exprience that is both dream-like and nightmarish.
Set a date on your diary for the online release of the second volume of the dark fantasy saga "Twilight of the Faerie" with our Facebook event at https://www.facebook.com/events/1189394921078163/ or on Goodreads at https://www.goodreads.com/event/show/981410-twilight-of-the-faerie-volume-2---summer-online-book-launch
"With her brother imprisoned for a crime he did not commit and facing execution in three days, it falls to Radiance, eldest daughter of the proud and noble Fiore family, to find the strength to resist the challenges that threaten not just her family, but all of the Faerie kingdoms.
But time is running short, and although love has been found between them, the star-crossed couple Rowan and Niamh struggle to find an aging Satyr who can lead them to the only person in the enchanted lands who knows the terrible secret behind the invading force that threatens to crush the very life of the dreaming itself.
Will they be able to enlist the aid of the mysterious Pale Lady, matriarch of the suspicious and mistrusting Winter Court? Or will they be helpless as the great capital city of Meridian falls to a threat far darker than any could ever imagine?
Following on from volume 1: Spring (already available at http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00ZGK1YWW), this second volume brings more excitement, more adventure, more danger and more thrills in this dark world of dreams and nightmares."
Join us on Facebook now, at https://www.facebook.com/Twilightofthefaerie/
Available for pre-order now at http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B019ZRLUCA and due for release on February 26th!
Set in the war-torn lands of the Fae, "Volume 2: Summer" follows the ongoing struggles noble Sidhe prince Elhart and the stalwart half-blooded farmgirl Rowan as they fight against time to bring together the scheming Faerie courts. Can these ancient families, so long set at each other's throats, put their age-long battles aside and turn their attentions to the deadly, nightmarish new threat that endangers the very world of human dreaming? Written by horror novelist Justin MacCormack, author of the bestselling "Return to 'Return to Oz'" and "Diary of a gay teenage zombie", "Twilight of the Faerie" is a dark fantasy epic that merges contemporary young adult genres, vibrant characters and break-neck adventure to create a surreal, evocative exprience that is both dream-like and nightmarish.
Set a date on your diary for the online release of the second volume of the dark fantasy saga "Twilight of the Faerie" with our Facebook event at https://www.facebook.com/events/1189394921078163/ or on Goodreads at https://www.goodreads.com/event/show/981410-twilight-of-the-faerie-volume-2---summer-online-book-launch
"With her brother imprisoned for a crime he did not commit and facing execution in three days, it falls to Radiance, eldest daughter of the proud and noble Fiore family, to find the strength to resist the challenges that threaten not just her family, but all of the Faerie kingdoms.
But time is running short, and although love has been found between them, the star-crossed couple Rowan and Niamh struggle to find an aging Satyr who can lead them to the only person in the enchanted lands who knows the terrible secret behind the invading force that threatens to crush the very life of the dreaming itself.
Will they be able to enlist the aid of the mysterious Pale Lady, matriarch of the suspicious and mistrusting Winter Court? Or will they be helpless as the great capital city of Meridian falls to a threat far darker than any could ever imagine?
Following on from volume 1: Spring (already available at http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00ZGK1YWW), this second volume brings more excitement, more adventure, more danger and more thrills in this dark world of dreams and nightmares."
Join us on Facebook now, at https://www.facebook.com/Twilightofthefaerie/
