S.E. Isaac's Blog, page 26
August 7, 2018
Summer Depression?
I have seen so many posts on social media with people expressing their sudden anxiety, sadness and/or lack in doing things. I have, also, talked to several friends who have expressed the same problems. You see on shows, when it is summer time, people running around, enjoying the sun, laughing, and having a good time. But it’s just that…a show. In real life, summer is just like the other three seasons. It can bring just as many stressors. I am personally experiencing the anxiety, sadness, and lack in doing things. (Grant it, I do suffer from anxiety and depression- I do take medication for them both- however, this summer my meds aren’t helping much)
What are some of my stressors this summer?
My two younger sons are out of school for summer break. They have been out of school since the end of May.
One of the two younger sons has special needs. (I mention him a lot in my blogs. He has autism, mood disorder, schizophrenia, and going through PUBERTY!)
Trying to entertain the boys without going financially in the hole.
The two rarely like doing the same thing. One is a social butterfly and wants to play with others 24-7 and the other one wouldn’t care if everyone fell off the planet.
Being an author is stressing me. I am losing interest and hope in my writing ability. It used to be fun. Now I find myself wanting to cry when I see that I have had no sales for so long.
Even when I do find the spark to write, something is going crazy in my house. (i.e. youngest is mad at YouTube, 13 year old is mad at youngest who is screaming at YouTube, 13 year old is having an outburst and verbally/physically attacking me)
My weight. I want to not look in the mirror and want to cry. Yes. This is a very personal stressor to share with all of you, but it is reality. I don’t want to hold back & make all of you, who are reading this think that I am ‘perfect’ in any sense. I am very unsecure. I had to go on medication for my depression/anxiety/etc. a few years back. The medication was Abilify and I gained sooooooo much weight. But it was medication that makes me gain a lot of weight or me staying with suicidal idealization. Now, I am back on track mentally (for the most part), but my weight is slapping me in the face.
Because of my weight problem, I have recently cut out soda and coffee. Let me tell you, cutting myself cold turkey, during summer break, and having the boys home is/was a HORRIBLE idea.
Not having date nights with the other half. It is almost impossible (unless my mother is here) to find someone who can watch AND handle my 13 year old. His track record with babysitters is the reason that I am a stay-at-home mom and cannot work. I desperately want to work. That’s another stressor…
Being stuck at home all the time, unless I am with the family or grocery shopping by myself (Yay, me! Hanging out with the people in Walmart. That’s always fun and stress free. **Eye Roll**)
Having no friends here. Because of my family issues, I am unable to make friends. My family is all I have. I have friends online, who I love dearly and appreciate. I just wish I was able to hangout with them face to face. Go places with them. Sit at a restaurant or bar somewhere, sipping on drinks, having a few appetizers and laughing about stupid stuff. However, I don’t have that.
Jealousy of others. Seeing the posts on social media of those I know going out and doing things. Having fun. Living life to the fullest. It gets me in a slump. It isn’t their fault. And I would never blame them for sharing with the world their happiness. I’m just being a party pooper. (Shrugs)
The list can go on and on. My point is, we’re all struggling. Sometimes we need to sit down, make a list of our stressors and tackle them or at least reflect on them. I know I was reflecting on my stressors as I was typing my list. Most are out of my control. I am hoping that knowing what my stressor is that I will be able to accept it or at least cope with it since I have identified them. Does that make sense of what I am trying to say? I hope so.
Despite my super long list of stressors and chaotic life, I do want to let you all know one thing…I am ALWAYS here if you need a listening ear or shoulder to cry on. I may be multi-tasking as I do it, but I am always here. Don’t ever think that you are alone in this world. Don’t ever think that you aren’t appreciated. Don’t ever think that you have to walk alone in this world. I am here for you. Always.
Happy Reading & XoXo,
S.E.Isaac
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August 2, 2018
Put on your dancing shoes…
I am happy to announce that this ^^^^ will be me (Yes, all four) on August 13th! My neighbors are going to think I’m nuts. AND…I don’t care. I am so ready for summer to be over. For multiple reasons. I am well aware that school isn’t a daycare. However, it does give my children time to play with people their age. Why do I want them playing with kids their ages?
1) I do not want to play Call of Duty 24-7
2) I do not want to play nerf guns 24-7
3) I cannot afford to go “do something” every single day 24-7
4) I do not want to go swimming in the pool 24-7
5) Unlike them (my kids), I am okay with being bored 24-7
(Incase you haven’t noticed from previous blogs, I LOVE doing lists. Yes. I know. I am weird as they come. **shrugs**)
Another reason that I will be thrilled for school is the fact that World War III, in my house, will finally be over. Eight year old social butterfly, who wants to play video games, run all day and have nerf gun wars + a thirteen year old autistic, going through puberty, has mood disorder and schizophrenia = SEND IN THE EFFIN’ TANKS!
Holy hell! These two can fight about who is breathing more air than the other one. I have come to the point, where I (a) pretend to be asleep (b) pretend to be deaf to any and all noise made by them. When I don’t do A or B, I find myself stressing to the breaking point. I already have depression, anxiety, etc. They are multiplying it by a thousand, when I allow them too.
And, yes, you perfect parents, I have taken away their electronics, put them in timeout, made them do consequences, etc. etc. so you can shove your good parenting advise up your…
Okay. Enough of that. How are all of you? 
August 1, 2018
Another day, another dollar…someone stole my dollar! :-(
They say, “another day, another dollar.” Have any of you received your ‘dollar’? I know that I haven’t. Sigh. Life is definitely a cheap ass. (HA)
Being an Indie Author shouldn’t be about the money…I know. But once you decide to become an “Indie Author”, you have to look for the $$$. Every little penny counts. I remember the days of enjoying to write. However, now I find myself stressing after I have checked sales reports. Then I become depressed. Feel like a failure. And, want to go into hiding. I need to quit doing that. I need to go back to enjoying to write. My life motto is: Everything happens for a reason. I need to remember that ALWAYS.
I’ve been seeing a lot of posts on social media of people feeling the same way I do about their lives. (writing, job, parenting, painting, exercising, etc.) We all need to stop stressing and just enjoy life. We aren’t getting any younger (OMG. I sound like a super old person. HA).
If you could choose one thing to do or one place to go what would it be?
Mine would be skiing or snowboarding. I’ve never been. It’s on my bucket list. I plan on checking this off my list ASAP.
Happy Reading & XoXo,
S.E.Isaac
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July 25, 2018
“Out on a Limb”
Have you gotten a copy of this naughty read? It’s only $0.99 for the time being.
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Happy Reading & XoXo, (Wink. Wink.)
S.E.Isaac
Captain’s Log
Day…too many to count.
Once again, I have embarked on an unwanted journey. A journey that pushes me mentally and physically to limits that are unknown to man/woman. Yet, it is a journey that I MUST go on. It’s the journey known to many of us. It’s known as Parenting a Special Needs Child (Specifically one going through puberty who has autism, mood disorder and schizophrenia). This is not a safe journey for anyone along for the ride.
There isn’t a disclaimer sheet prior to your mission (journey), in fact, you’re lucky if you get a heads up that you are going on a lifetime journey. You are just launched into it face first.
This is a list I have put together. This is not a complete list, just the shell of things.
No one is safe.
Hand-to-hand combat may be needed.
Going outside the compound/base is not recommended.
You will either go bald or have a head full of grey hair before the journey ends.
You will begin to question everything about yourself and the world around you.
Your weight will teeter-totter due to depression and anxiety.
Self-esteem will diminish.
Friendships will be limited to Ben & Jerry and anti-depressants.
Relationships will be pushed to their limits. Lucky if you can find someone willing to embark on this journey with you and be your anchor.
There will be days of complete hopefulness.
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Another day at our house…
Happy Reading & XoXo,
S.E.Isaac
July 24, 2018
I so Suck at Blogging!
[image error]Yep! Still crazy and loving it! (Most days) My oldest (18) son is visiting before he goes off to basic training. It has definitely been interesting having all three of my sons in the house; ages 8, 13 and 18. I believe my house can now legally be classified as a war zone. Sigh.
Tonight, my oldest and I are spending time together without the two youngest. We are going to push him off of the Stratosphere Casino & Hotel. Well, I’m not allowed to push him off 
June 24, 2018
Giveaway Twist!
Yes, you read that right. There has been a twist in my giveaway. The prize is a $20 e-gift card from Amazon. The e-book will be the bonus prize.
June 19, 2018
New Release
12 Days to Find a Mate (Mystic Harmony) by Josette Reuel & S.E.Isaac
A paranormal romance read. Two stories in one book. $3.99
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What happens when you’re selected to go on a paranormal singles cruise? On, Lovecroft Cruise lines, you find your mate or your money back. And, our spunky cruise director, Vikki, has a perfect track record of connecting those that are meant to be together. However, even she may have met her match with these two couples.
This collection of two steamy, humorous journeys include demons, fae, vampires, shifters, and ogres.
**Some Enchanted Cruise by Josette Reuel**
Byron Langston became a vampire in 1634 after he died in battle at the hands of a vampire. A second vampire followed the first and gave him the “gift.” Some gift. He had been forced to leave everyone he loved and to never see the sun again. Now, several centuries later, he was still completely alone and working as the nightly entertainment on a singles cruise for paranormal creatures. How much lower could his life drop? Never in his life would he have thought of himself as a vampire lounge singer.
Coralee Sue Ellen Devereaux spent her life dreaming of seeing the world while her parents dreamed of having grandbabies. So, they compromised and she flew to Los Angeles from her home in Louisiana for a singles cruise to Alaska. She didn’t make her momma any promises on bringing home a mate, but this gator girl wouldn’t mind finding a male to warm her cold-blooded heart.
**Mystical Love Cruise by S.E. Isaac**
Samantha Moondove is hitting the ocean on a paranormal love cruise, thanks to her mother. Her mother who was always meddling in Samantha’s life. When her mom cornered her about the cruise, Samantha gave in. Not because she hopes to find love, she just wants to escape her mother for the next few days.
Matt Boisseau is running from his demons. Literally. He isn’t fond of his friends’ idea of going on a paranormal love cruise; however, if it will get the demons off of his heels, he’s game. How much trouble can he get in?
A world of trouble is given to Matt when he crosses paths with the beautiful, blonde mysterious woman, who wants nothing to do with him or his past. Can Matt change his old ways or will his ship sink?
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Vacation continues…
Wow. It has been over two weeks since I have blogged anything. It has been such an eventful two weeks. Traveled to Texas for a week and now New Jersey for the past 7+ days.
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My phone’s camera is broken, so excuse the blurriness (yikes)
[image error]I have gotten to spend time with this chica! Love her to death. She is my baby cousin, the lovely Crystal! She is so awesome. Such a sweetheart. The boys love her! I need to bring her out to Las Vegas soon.
We went to the Boardwalk on Friday night. It was nice walking around looking at the shops and the people. People watching is always fun. HA! We had lots of laughs. Especially when the seagull swooped in and stole my pizza! The pizza that I had JUST bought. OMG. I was dying laughing. Fun times!
Has a family BBQ on Sunday. It was nice to see everyone. I don’t get to see them often. Last time I saw everyone was at my cousin Monica’s wedding back in the day. Maybe 2015? Not sure. (hmmmm)
Any who, I hope that all of you are doing well. I will be sure to post new pics and updates asap!
June 2, 2018
On the Road Again…
Five more days until my mother, my two youngest sons and I are on the road, again. We just got back from seeing my oldest graduate high school, the week of May 18th. Now, we are about to load em’ up, move em’ out…RAWHIDE! (My own version.
