C.A. Sanders's Blog, page 18
June 22, 2017
Uneasy Riser
I don’t need a rooster to wake me in the morning. My cock is the sun (hehehehe)
Everyday I wake up the moment the sun comes over the mountains (did you know that the suburbs of NYC are all mountains?) like a troop of boyscouts singing a hiking song (why do they do that? Do trees like music?). In the winter it’s not so bad, but for the past two months, I’ve been waking up at 5, even 4:30. Today I was up at 5:15. My brain is boiled like an authentic bagel (no steaming!!!!)
Heck this heckin nons...
June 21, 2017
Strange Day at ShopRite
Yesterday I went shopping for groceries, as I often do. It is important to buy groceries, because eating is a socially accepted norm and hunger is often questioned with “why don’t you eat something?” Without groceries, the answer is usually “let’s get some delivery.” I then eat an entire pizza and lie topless on the couch, stomach bulging like an alien trying to escape, me regretting every decision that led to this point.
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I always return my cart. Since I used it, I feel that I should return...
June 17, 2017
My Gramma
Today my gramma turns 100. While that’s amazing and rightful deserves a party, my gramma isn’t the woman that I remember. Ever since my mother died a few years ago, she’s gone downhill, like she lost the will to live. And yet her body refuses to let her. She has been in constant pain for years from diabetic neuropathy. Over the last year, a series of blood infections have done a serious number on her brain. My gramma was also a kind person, very involved in local charities and organizations....
June 15, 2017
Update on the Watchmage Sequel
It’s been far too long between books. My editor got bogged down with other projects, and I wouldn’t think of using anyone else. As a result, the book release for Cold Iron is tentatively pushed back to next year. I hate having to do that. I’ve lost a lot of momentum, but it’s more important to make it good than fast.
A lot of other writers need to learn this.
Did you know that once a book is accepted by a publishing house, it still goes through revisions and edits? For Song of Simon, it went...
June 13, 2017
Coffee and Hard Truths (In that Order)
Earlier in the month I talked about how my doctor recommended cutting down on my coffee intake and increasing non-caffeinated fluids into order to regain my scattered concentration. I did it. I cut down to 20-30 oz a day, and increased my other fluids to close to a half gallon.
To my surprise, it worked. Of course this could be that I was in a minor manic cycle and I’ve come out of it. Or it could be that my coffee intake increased my anxiety, triggering the manic cycle. I honestly don’t know...
June 9, 2017
Man or Turtleman?
If you follow my blog, you already know that I have a deep affection for turtles. My pet turtle, Shelvin, just turned 34 last month, and he’s still going strong. Yes, he has scars from a bad case of shell rot (He stayed at my brother’s place while I was homeless, and he didn’t know that you’re not supposed to keep a turtle in an area without light).
Turtles might not develop as unique and complex a personality as cats or dogs, but they still show individuality. Shelvin is different from other...
June 3, 2017
Memories are an anchor. Possibilities are a wild wind, ta...
Memories are an anchor. Possibilities are a wild wind, taking you to new and fantastic places.
But if you let the wind alone guide you, you’re bound to run aground.
Use the damn rudder.
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June 1, 2017
An Honor to be in Their Heart
What was once yours belongs to everyone. You bled on your canvas, or keyboard, or guitar. You took your guts and spread them for the world to see. You shared your soul.
It doesn’t belong to you anymore.
Yes, you’re still the creator, but the child belongs to the world. It’s yours, but not. Everyone that sees, or reads, or listens, will interpret it through their own eyes and experiences. Your vision is not theirs.
Don’t despair. It’s meant to be that way.
Let go of your creation. Let it thriv...
May 30, 2017
Is Coffee Killing My Concentration?
I drink a lot of coffee, more than I even realized. I usually have about 40 to 60 oz of coffee a day, and I’ve been know to have far more. I never even realized how much coffee I was drinking until my nutritionist had be counting off.
40 to 60 is a lot. I was drinking more coffee than regular liquids…So here’s where the story begins.
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For the past couple of weeks, maybe even months, I’ve had a glittering fog over my head. I can’t focus, and I’m thinking a hundred and forty-seven thoughts at o...
May 29, 2017
Happy Anniversary Katie!
Two years ago today, I went for a late evening cup of coffee with a woman that I met on Okcupid. It was spur of the moment, and I am the type that needs planning. There are no spurs in my moments, but for some reason, that night was different.
I’m glad that I wore those spurs…not literal ones, metaphorical.
Two years later, we’re still together. I am forty years old, and this is the longest relationship that I’ve ever had. I’m not an easy person to stay with, but Katie has been by my side tho...
