Kendal Waller's Blog - Posts Tagged "eating-instead-of-facing-fears"
Being held accountable...
Well for some insane reason I stepped on my scale yesterday. It was not good but I realize it was okay because I can fix it.
During the past year - actually a year ago January 19th my mother was diagnosed with Inflammatory Breast Cancer. This was almost 2 full years after my father passed away from Prostate Cancer and I moved back to the farm to help her.
Stunningly enough it was my learning to care for the farm alone - and being lonely that inspired my first novel and thus my writing inspiration caught fire.
Meanwhile while helping mom and learning about the farm I believe I may have buried my fears in whatever food landed in front of my face or crossed in front of me while keeping my own family going.
Yesterday my mother had a check up with her oncologist who told her to consider herself cancer free and go enjoy her life.
A lesson for us all. Time for me to get a hold of myself. Pay attention to my own health and get myself back. I'm to embarrassed to tell you what I weigh but I will admit I've given in and bought a size 16 jeans. NOT OKAY. Admitting this to anyone who may read this will help to keep me accountable - to get off this couch and live my life doing things to shed this weight, even if that means walking and exploring the woods with my kids. This will be a year for me. I'm ready. I'm going to re-arrange my schedule and not be willing to sit and write or read all day.
Mom fought her fight without complaint and a year later she's been given the word to go enjoy her life. My turn.
Thanks for paying attention.
During the past year - actually a year ago January 19th my mother was diagnosed with Inflammatory Breast Cancer. This was almost 2 full years after my father passed away from Prostate Cancer and I moved back to the farm to help her.
Stunningly enough it was my learning to care for the farm alone - and being lonely that inspired my first novel and thus my writing inspiration caught fire.
Meanwhile while helping mom and learning about the farm I believe I may have buried my fears in whatever food landed in front of my face or crossed in front of me while keeping my own family going.
Yesterday my mother had a check up with her oncologist who told her to consider herself cancer free and go enjoy her life.
A lesson for us all. Time for me to get a hold of myself. Pay attention to my own health and get myself back. I'm to embarrassed to tell you what I weigh but I will admit I've given in and bought a size 16 jeans. NOT OKAY. Admitting this to anyone who may read this will help to keep me accountable - to get off this couch and live my life doing things to shed this weight, even if that means walking and exploring the woods with my kids. This will be a year for me. I'm ready. I'm going to re-arrange my schedule and not be willing to sit and write or read all day.
Mom fought her fight without complaint and a year later she's been given the word to go enjoy her life. My turn.
Thanks for paying attention.
