Kendal Waller's Blog

Hmmm

Well... I've been gone for quite some time. Wish I could say I've been busy writing but I don't want to lie.

In August it will be 2 years since mom died and I would say I've been existing more than really doing anything worth talking about. I've started more new books than I care to admit but have eventually grown bored with each and everyone of them regardless of the idea behind them. I am my own worst critic and I am the champion of procrastination; in all things, not only writing.

I want to write.

I don't really know what is stopping me.

So taking a real step toward getting back to it buy coming back here and letting my friends kick my ass.

I hope you guys are still around... even though I haven't been. I hope you are all well and have been reading like crazy; another thing I haven't been doing.

Sharpening my pencils, charging my laptop, and finding inspiration to write something great.

xo

Perfection?

I've been tossing and turning with something on my mind and when I have to wake up to write something I find its best to just do that so I can go back to sleep.
This is my thought. Who gets to define perfect? What is perfect to you may not be perfect to me so why or better yet how is it defined? I'm attaching a poem I wrote a little over a year ago about myself. I'm attaching it because tonight I realized its not about me. It is about everyone of us who have ever felt like they didn't fit into the categories set out before us by society that we are supposed to fit into.
What is wrong with us when we can point out our flaws but can't pick out our perfections? Even the gray days offer light and most of them give us the spectacular gift of seeing the suns most perfect rays. God's way of gifting us with perfectness on a day we complain about.
So here is a poem from me to you, all of you who have gifted me with your unique perfectness. You who have felt not good enough, not pretty enough, thin enough, smart enough, or just not enough. I hope you will find that like me you are not light nor the absence of it you are every color of fabluousness. Own it.
I hope there are people you know that you can apply this to, share this with and remind them that it is up to you to define perfect and even though they may not feel good enough, they may be perfect to you.
To all of you who inspire me, thank you. I love you.

Starting Over

On January 19, 2013 my mother was diagnosed with inflammatory breast cancer, as her battle began so did mine. I vowed to help her in everyway I could for as long as I needed to until she was well and we could focus our lives on being happy again. She struggled but got through the rough times with a grace and acceptance that I don't believe I'd ever be able to match. Just after Christmas this year a small patch of cancer reappeared on her chest and she began taking an oral chemotherapy for it. Things went so well that in early April we were looking at potentially going off of chemotherapy altogether. However, her amazing oncologist suggested 'just for peace of mind' to have scans done prior to going off chemo. to 'make sure'. On April 25th we found out that her breast cancer had spread to her lungs despite being on Chemotherapy all along. We buckled down and braced for another battle, but after 6 surgeries in just as many weeks we were told that the cancer was to aggressive and the chemotherapy would not do the trick this time. We were given weeks, 'possibly' a month. She lived five difficult weeks and the last 72 hours of her fight were worse than any person of family should endure. Last Thursday morning at 4:09 a.m. I kissed my mom for the last time, thanked her and held her hand as she faded away from this world.

This story is a difficult one to tell but good came out of it. I found out that there are people in this world that will connect with you and reach out to you to offer a hand, shoulder, ear or whatever. Friends from this site have reached out to me and become extremely important to me. Once again, I am able to realize that I am a lucky girl. It is funny in a strange way though that those you thought would be there vanished into thin air and those you never would have expected came through with more determination and love than ever could have been expected.

Now I am starting over. I am going to find my way again and in time I will get back to writing and perhaps find a voice that will entertain again. I miss my outlet that is writing and look forward to tapping into this crazy imagination once I get enough sleep to decide what is what...

Meanwhile, I hope that all of my friends will encourage their friends and family to go to their doctors and get screened for cancer.

SALE! 44 and Fabulous!

Help me celebrate my birthday and spread the word that my books are on SALE... for a limited time you can buy all 4 of my books for under $4.00... and get a whole lotta love!

Read, Review, and Win!!!

Hi y'all I've got a little giveaway going on on my website... go take a look if you want to...

www.kendalwaller.com

Summer Reading?

For those of you who are following me... Thank you... if you have facebook have you checked out my Author page there?



I wish you would... you can find it at

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I am currently working on my 5th novel and hope to have it to editing by the end of the summer... released early fall. Please follow me and if you haven't tried one of my books, you should... and then review it!

Thanks

SALE

On my entire collection... find me on here or on Amazon to purchase for this price!

Thanks!!!

Hello Fool...

she says looking in the mirror... today I decided that sometimes it takes being a fool to get really motivated to be better than you ever were before...

So thanks for making a fool of me...

L'ed U

'Tis the season!

Hey y'all wanted you to know that I've put all four of my books on sale for 99 cents through the holiday season so go to amazon or you can go to my website, www.kendalwaller.com, and one-click to purchase for yourself or as a gift ...

Merry Christmas, or Happy whatever you celebrate! Hope you all have a fabulous holiday season and make it safely through the New Year.

Thank you for all the support during 2014, looking forward to releasing my next novel early 2015! Will keep you posted.

Kendal

My very first Blog Tour!

today begins my very first blog tour and I'm super excited and thankful for my friends over at Two Ordinary Girls and their books for hosting this... they try so hard to help newbie's like me and I sincerely appreciate them, their big hearts, and their sense of humor.

I don't know what to expect from this tour but hoping for good things and a lot of exposure.