Sidda Lee Rain's Blog, page 31

The hopeless yet hopeful blogger~

So here I am after the crappiest week I've had....     I blog to you as a pitiful specimen that should be smeared across a laboratory slide.  My lungs filled, my windpipe literally swollen, ribs cracked and sad thing is that's not all.  Pneumonia & bronchitis have played a game of tag through my airways....I've yet to find out who's winning but I sure as hell can tell you who's losing.  Woe is me...     Medication is swimming through my veins.  Instead of attempting some Michael Phelps smooth as glass strides they have been flopping and flailing like aunt Beatrice attempting to back into the black tube outta some old guys 87' Buick Skylark.  A little cooperation here!  Not only do the meds make me sick but the devil drug prednisone has had homicidal thoughts replaying in my head over and over-did I mention over?    To soothe myself and not willing to risk addiction again I walk as far from the pacifier as I can and straight to my love.  Yep, my beautiful Extended Length Expedition.  I'd say Mizz Ford and I need some bonding time.  LAWRDY she starts like a dream.  It's eight at night, foggy and cool.  Hollywood couldn't have set a better scene to my mood.  Wait!  The true test...please tell me there's decent tunes on.  No pop.  No rock.  My attitude is less Gaga and more Strait.  Less Britney more Reba.  Less Perry & more Jennings. Less-nevermind if you don't have it by now you're not going to.  I was pleasantly surprised to push the button and to hear the man in black crooning about not taking guns to town.  Ahhh...crank that medicinal ear worm up and drive on.     I'm cruising past the cornfields but the fog is thickening and I'll I can think of denting my poor baby on some big buck crossing the clouded road. Ha!  Forget this back to town I go.  My whopping town has taken out our only stoplight and replaced it with not a four way stop but only a two way stop.  The town is so small we actually digress instead of progress. (Jealous?).  I'm waiting patiently (I've got nowhere to go) so I wait as 18 wheeler after 18 wheeler go by.(harvest time in the cornstalks). I'm waiting at the octagon-wait, hexagon?  Whatever!  I wait at the stop sign completely lost in Miranda belting out about being the fast girl in town and the thought makes me smile because its rather fitting when I'm behind the wheel.  But just like in the movies when all is looking to good-BAM!     Yup, a grampa decides his Buick would be best hooked onto my trailer hitch.  Good thing about the lesser gas mileage is the bigger truck.  Not a scuff of the Ford but gramps Buick now has a hole and crack through its purdy lil' grill.     So, what's this have to do with writing?  Hell if I know.  I forgot what the question is.  Oh-my lack of ability to focus right now.  Yeah, that.  It's completely gone.  I write...pumped, ready to tackle this word count and I mean I start strong but shortly find myself staring off into space.  Focus? (ford makes those to, right?) Anyways, focus gone....     BUT with every cloud there's a silver lining, right?  Good news?  The other night I checked my sales rank on amazon to see where we were sitting.  I had a brief moment of shock followed by amazement.  All 3 books were 36,000 or under!!! What a feeling to think I have 3 out there striving and possibly thriving.!!       I'm amazed by the insane readers contacting me and I fear I'm not worthy.  I truly adore them but what if the next book sucks?  What if I don't make my deadline?  Having great readers who have become some of my closest friends online now leashes me to the worry my next maybe not enough.  Now the pressures on and I can only cross fingers and hope I don't disappoint.Sidda

I hang my head in shame as I come before you today....

The headline of this blog is sad but true.  I have yet to master this thing called...life(amount other things).  It has been far to long between my random thoughts and rants.  At least can I use the excuse that I've been a busy bee?   Oh, what a difference it would've been to be born-hatched?  Queen.  No such luck here.  I'm nothing but a worker.     First lets chat about my latest...the first novella has been out for 5 weeks and d*mn if its not doing amazingly well.  It makes me as mad as it does happy.  I was told by many authors that a "flesh" cover would be so much better for my novel but me being the stubborn girl I am (part German) refused to change my cover and still do.  However, I had decided the CROOKED E RANCH novella series would be nothing but flesh.  Black and white-yet, flesh.  Chest, abs<~~the kind that personally frighten me.  Gorgeous shoulders and stunning backs.  Even the occasional beefy backside might grace the novella covers.  Well, these authors weren't just kinda right-they were dead on.  ~Sweet as Candy~ is still thriving five weeks later.  It's not top 100 or anything-I never thought it would be but it's selling decent numbers and getting great reviews.  Here I was afraid to even release it.  Not that it's a masterpiece.  Far from but I've yet to write a masterpiece and I just may never do so.  I'm not looking to.  I'm writing what I like and what I happen to think I'm decent at.     Second in my DIRTY DENIM SERIES has also been released.  This sadly brings me back to the flesh topic.  My photographer and I did a session with the most beautiful and cooperative beauty yet.  A gorgeous Harley Davidson Fatboy.  It didn't b*tch, didn't have ideas of its own.  Nope, it stood there gleaming in the sun in all its chromed and leather glory.  I knew the photo for the cover the first second I saw it.  We proudly make the cover for ~Steel Horse Cowboy~ and I'm flying high.  My story is done, my cover gorgeous, my blurb...well, blurb was done.  Did I mention I hate blurbs?  Anyways...I'm so excited to share my cover with the world and even though its wrong I'm more excited about my cover than I am about the story.  I release and it does...okay-far from impressive.  Actually, severely lacking from impressive.  My assistant and I are the only ones in love with the cover.  D*mmit!  Yes, I write erotic romance but no, I don't care for flesh covers.  Truth?  This bike gets me revved up far more then any half naked man in print could do.  But once again, I'm not your normal girl.       So what to do?  I wait.  I wait a couple weeks before I cave.  I cave in.  I'm soon on stock photo sites searching frantically for FLESH.  Ever the stubborn girl I'm only willing to compromise my cover so much.  I'm in mad, crazy love with the Harley cover BUT I need flesh to kick this book in the keister!  I find a man, a photo that resembles Scotty<~ my main man in ~Steel Horse Cowboy~.  Even then I decide I'm not pulling my bike!  I'm in love.  So...Scotty gets layered in.  He is brought onto the cover but he's off to the side so I can see my real panty dropper...the bike.  He's also faded so I can see the bike clearly.  Priorities,priorities.  I caved and added flesh but d*mn if I'll lose my bike.     Truth time.  We put the new cover out and without promoting I let that bird fly.  And d*mn if it didn't begin to soar!  My sales rank number shocked me.  My books were selling insanely better than they were just a few days before.  D*mn power of a half naked man!  So, once again I was told the right information from several romance authors.  Whether I like it or agree with it or not.  I just have to accept I'm in the genre I'm in and readers like what they like.  However I will still have artistic covers but I will have flesh added.  My novels will display more than a gorgeous body.  Just because...because that's how I want it and d*mn if they're not my books.     My books!  My books!  My books!  Yes, I'm totally stomping my foot with my to large bottom lip out.  I have a control issue thing when it comes to my books.  I want what I want and they are my works so why can't I have it my way?  Why?  Because if I want a publishing deal I have to be able to hand over at least some of that control.  Yes, this is probably why I've just turned down publishing offer eight.  Yes, eight.  Not huge publishing houses but some that just six months ago I may have fainted if they would have called me up.  But now?  Not so much.  My books are doing okay.  Not insanely well but not poorly either.  I'm quite content.  Of course I want more readers but I feel I can reach them on my own without giving up my control.  A publishing house isn't really going to promote me anyways.  So far the numbers I've received haven't been worth it.  But weekly a fellow author is announcing they have signed a pub deal.  One book, two book, three even five book contracts.  Which by the way I was told by Mizz Sylvia Day & Mizz Tara Lain themselves never do such a high book count deal.  Anyways, I wonder what kinda deals are these fellow authors signing?  I worry they are signing just for the sake of signing.  I hope they are getting sensational deals, truly but when I hear a friend sign with a publisher that has been trying to work a deal with me for weeks, I wonder.  I'm completely open to a deal but so far nobody has offered something I'm comfortable with.  If they can do it I think why can't I do it for myself, right?  Please tell me you agree!     Finally, let me fill you in on my plans thus far for the next year.  I'm hoping to attend at least three conventions and I'm so excited I could pee!  Yes, you read that correctly.  I apologize not (how do you like that grammar? Ha).  I'm itchin' to meet up with some amazing girlies I met at RT just months ago.  I have the second novella -Pure as Honey- coming out next week.  And I'm straight up crazy but I'm aiming to release another Thanksgiving week.  Some very amazing authors have talked me into a "Christmas" novella.  Swearing I won't regret it.  I'm still unsure of this but I trust these no named authors completely.  So, I shall do as they say.  At least attempt to.  Then it's onto the third novel in the DIRT DENIM SERIES.  It already has a name thanks to the friends and family who answered a late night text voting between two titles.  ~Roping Him In~ will be out sometime this winter.  I'm astonished by the following the DIRTY DENIM SERIES is getting and the names my name has been placed with.       So, I fully admit to sucking at this blog thang but I never claimed any different have I?  I'd promise to blog more but I don't lie.  But I will say I'll be back-just don't hold your breath.Loves,Sidda  

Stupid mutha f~ing mistakes still making surprise appearances or whatthe he*ll? Or do reviewers copy previous reviews?

Venting 101 in 5 4 3 2 1!!!!!!Son of a b#%>€¥@?()&@!$&?)&#%¥}!I admit I f'd up! I released my 1st book without proper editing services BUT I pulled the book & had it professionally edited...which apparently didn't do smack!  Since every review feels the need to mention spelling/grammatical errors!  Really?I am by no means a mistake free writer by all means.  I write for long exhausting hours at a time, I write late nights early mornings, hours even a day or two without sleep, fast-oh my I get an idea and I type like the wind!  My driving force are the characters, the storyline, the heat-not the mistakes made by ludicrous writing conditions.So, an editor will solve my problems?? Well, I thought so.  (Naive-I told you this before don't act surprised!). I found an online editing company who are a fave among many epubbing indie authors.  They weren't way expensive but they weren't the cheapest out there either.  Good reviews and examples.  I thought I was really doing it right!  Now, I'm not so sure.I still get spelling comments in reviews.  Are these reviewers reading the previous reviews and jumping on the band wagon or is there still so many errors that it is causing readers to lash.  Thank The Lord that for every 3 stars or under I have double who love the book, the story, the characters.  Then, I have reviewers who are trying to defend "book, story, author" whatever BUT all they do is start a fight-which I or my book get the repercussions from OR they talk about they negative to prove it's  untrue, unlikely, unimportant or just unnecessary.  All I get from it is they are talking about my books faults-which means my faults and the rest of the review isn't even heard, read or seen.Book 2 of THE DIRTY DENIM Series ~Steel Horse Cowboy~ is at the editors. A NEW editors! Crossing my fingers that the results are better than the last.  Because I really, really don't want to read the words grammatical errors or bad spelling AGAIN!What do I do if I'm in the same boat then? Hire another editor? (Umm...hello Indie author here I can't hire editors to go over each book 3 times from 3 different editors!!!  So for now? Fingers crossed as we wait to hear from editor. And for the love of God if you leave me a review I would most appreciate not one single mention of grammar or spelling!!!! 

Novella cover...~Sweet as Candy~

http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00EN3IK0C/ref=cm_sw_r_tw_dp_m5Jesb01AZJP9

I think I can...I think I can...I think I can...CR*P I can't...wait,yes I can!

First off...a confession!  I apparently SUCK on this whole blogging deal.Or...I could just be uber busy working on my up and coming books!  I'm going to claim the latter of the two.  If only because it makes me sound so proactived.     I will admit though it has been the the truth especially of lately.  We released my first novella in the CROOKED E RANCH series, ~Sweet as Candy~.  So, back again to waiting for any reviews to come rolling in.  I've been practicing the "I don't care face." And the "I just do it for my work not for the praise" face.  Yet, crossing my fingers every time I pull up my link and wait for the page from amazon to appear.  So far? Nuthin'! Not sure about that but I can be a rather impatient girl at times...so after some meditation A.K.A. A shot or two of cotton candy vodka I wait calmly.     Today the sales rank was in the 12,Xxx which means someone, somewhere has downloaded my newest baby.  That's the least I can ask for.  My first book has started moving some also since my novella was released.    Oh,oh,oh!  That reminds me that I need to share my woes from the worst release day like evahhh!  *First it took amazon quite a bit longer than it had before-so unplanned but not unmanageable.  Finally, its been okayed and its ready to go up!  Yay! Press the PUBLISH button and soar birdie soar! * Wait?  What?  My novella is up and available for the masses BUT WITH NO F-in' COVER!  The sexy cowboy abs of steel are no longer gracing my cover.  My pink is there but the black is a light,light gray and my name is nowhere to be seen. Sh*t! Cr*p! And all sorts of other words that I could so cleverly add cute little stars instead of vowels so you can guess the word but yet, I appear so much less vulgar than I really am. (Yay-you got an extra confession!). Back to the book.  We need this fixed and like now!  I call my amazing assistant who was informed "no changes could be made until ~Sweet as Candy~ is LIVE)-whew!  I wipe my forehead and sigh.  Thankful it's not live so that means nobody can buy it yet then but after a long wait I try the link and I can't control the urge to know for sure!  I have to!  I don't have the power captain-to resist!  Yep, I one clicked that book so fast my pointer was slightly bruised for days following.  Guess what?  My "NOT LIVE" book was on my iPad within seconds-impressive but that's besides the point.  Still not allowing us to fix the cover I snoop inside the downloaded novella as does my assistant J.M. Edwards...Sh*t!<---note the cute lil' star! Aren't I sweet?  The text is all messed up!  can this get worse?  Wait, wait, wait...we actually got confused for a moment.  Are we self pubbing or waiting for the cable guy to show up?*Thank ya sweet baby Jesus!  The novella has been up and downloadable for a couple hours with no cover and we couldn't do anything to stop it.  Now J was able to take down that upload and submit a new one.  Back to waiting...by this point it's somewhere around 9:00 p.m.*At 3-something in the morning my novella is finally up and with a gorgeous cover!  Thank you!     Now to make up for my release day debacle I promote and promote and promote!  I post on at least 40 Facebook pages and groups and of course on all 3 of my author pages.  I tweeted, I posted, I shared, I emailed, I even pinned on Pinterest.  Then a few emails came in..."Your link doesn't work""I can't get your book""Is it just me or what?  I can't get to your book to download it."WHAT?     So, once again I check my link...only to be greeted with a message from Amazon."Amazon is temporarily unavailable"REALLY?    I wonder if I should stand still or run in circles as the sky falls on me?Amazon was off then on then off then on.  I have never heard of this happening before so I'm sure it's a fluke but it really had to happen after my horroriffic release day-that I had promoted the livin' h*ll out of...ALL WASTED?!?     I'm not an overly sensitive kinda chick by any means but I was so frustrated that solo much work and hours spent on everything leading up to my novellas release was wasted.  Work and time I spent as well as J.  By this point I'm fully and certifiably p*ssed off and expecting a dreadful sales ranking-if I even made any rank.  Then I looked, stomach churning, mouth dry, eyes closed tight...a final deep breath and was shocked to find ~Sweet as Candy~ at 20,XXX sales ranking, really?  How in the h*ll did that happen?    The only answer?  Is that readers were patient and went back when they had been turned away.  To me that's the greatest.  Anyone can one click like a crackhead on pixie stix and RedBull but for buyers to have to come back at a later time for the link and site to be working is humbling.        My release day may have SUCKED but readers didn't disappoint in the next couple days.  Now, I can only hope that readers will find a special spot for the novella's in the CROOKED E RANCH Series in their kindles-you thought I was going to say heart, didn't you?  Kindle, iPad, computers, tablets, smartphones and of course hearts...I hope my books make it into everyone  of those and readers come back for the next ones coming in the series.  Next novella in the CROOKED E RANCH Series will be ~Pure as Honey~!     Thanks for listening!  You guys are so much cheaper than a therapist and you don't file restraining orders on me.Sidda

Rumbles and rambling along with gambles and grumbling!

     Soooo....been awhile-sorry.  Been a busy girl and such but I know I completely need to upgrade my blogging skills.    Novella-big ol' fat check mark! Done!  Yay!  ~Sweet as Candy~ has been completed and is being proofed and reviewed and I'm excited for its future.  I'm not going to lie...I had my OWN serious doubts about the novella itself.  I have a hard time believing that I can get a full story crammed into such a little word count BUT I think I just may have done it!  When I read I like a BOOK a big, fat, hard...what was I talking about? OH! A book!  I don't want no short, short book.  I like 'em long.  Nothing worse than thinking you are getting a full length one and once you start you find out-kidding its a mini! BOOKS PEOPLE!  As a avid amazon customer I download with the best of them but sometimes get tricked into buying what I think is a novel only to find out its a measly little 4,000 word short story.  I paid $3 for that?  Never, never again I say!  A week later....sh*t I paid $1.99 for a 3,500 short?     I didn't want people having these reactions to my novella so no matter how hard I tried to tell myself that if I posted word count and was honest they would no what they were getting into.  Can't do it!  I just can't!  I want readers to know I want to give them a good story at a fair price.       I read this article the other day saying new indie authors need to have; a short story, novella, novel, boxed set and there was another thing-which I can't remember....great now I'm going to fail!  Anyways, it said to have new product aka written work out there every 30 days.  Ummmm....how in the hell am I supposed to do that?  I wish I wrote 20,000 words a day but sorry to disappoint I tend to type around 2,000-5,000 on days when I'm feeling chatty.  I have no doubt there are authors out there that can do it.  I mean I just saw Jasinda Wilder has a treadmill she can walk on while she types...I can barely walk while chewing gum.  Not trying to be funny there...it's true.  I am trying my hand at the novella idea and I'm coming around to love the idea of the Crooked E Ranch series but I'm not sure i could ever publish a short story or a collection of them.  I'm all over the novel part but I'm planning on hopefully releasing 2 a year not one every 30 days.  Boxed set?  I'm game BUT you have to have enough to make a boxed set.  So, here I stand again...reading, attempting to follow advice from fellow authors but yet again I have to twist and turn everything to work for me.  I know, I know that's not how it's supposed to work but what the hell call me a pathfinder or a trailblazer-ohhh I like that one!  Makes it sound like I'm doing something amazing instead of trying to attempt this without being a failure.     I've been social networking my lil' heart out...I've come to hate the word Tweet and my left eye starts twitching when I read the word "status" but I'm doing it!  Yet, I see my sales rank number slowly getting worse.  Less and less people are downloading ~Quick on the Trigger~ but what do I expect right?  It's been downloaded thousands of times and hopefully word of mouth will keep it moving somewhat and that takes time.  I've come to accept that it's time to move on.  Let ~Quick on the Trigger~ wonder freely through the big bad world of published works and move forward with my life...as an author.  Move onto the 2nd novel in the DIRTY DENIM series ~Steel Horse Cowboy~ not just writing but promoting, pushing basically pimping.  As well as pimping my novella ~Sweet As Candy~.  Time to move on but like an crazy ex I can't help looking back, I can't help spying on sales rank, I can't help stalking Google I can't help trying to bait ~Quick on the Trigger~ into becoming a runaway success through bloggers, pages, reviewers, Ect.     ~Sweet as Candy~ has been MAN approved! I love that!  Women, we tend to thrive on the written word like a lifeline.  Men-not so much.  Now, now, calm down!  Not all men but the kind I'm talking about.  The kind of men who are doers, physical worker bees, alpha tendencies-at least some.  There is something special when I get one of those kind and they like my work.  I write erotic romance so a I take "gave me a hard on" or "that was f*ckin' hot" as a major compliment.  Where most women praise the storyline or characters the men tend to praise the scenes or the banter.  That's good, that's exactly what I want.  I want a book the wifey can read and then hand over and hubby likes it to-who wouldn't want that?     Novel-conquered, novella-conquering, social media-I got that sh*t covered, blogging-work in progress...next adventure in self pubbing? (Insert theme from Jaws here-hello, shark week people!). Next adventure for Miss Sidda Lee Rain to attempt...BLOG TOUR!  Yep, a frickin' blog tour!?!?  Me and a blog tour...perhaps this is the one I won't succeed at, maybe it's the one I'll fall flat on my face on but I as I walk through the valley of the shadow of...okay maybe that's a little "quick on the trigger" (see what I did there?) like everything I'm going to research and ask a million questions and drive everyone crazy I figured or I could just set it up with an outside vendor.  That sounds perfect!  Someone who knows what they are doing!  Someone who tells me what I need to write about and to who, what I need to send, what to sign...oh yeah sounds perfect!  Now...to find the right vendor? Sh*t and to think I once thought I'll just "toss it up on amazon"!

Is 35,000 words enough to rev you up?

     So, thank sweet baby Jesus(or grown up bearded Jesus-however you see him!). I finished the first novella in a new series I'm starting.  I'm sooo new to novellas and have been going kinda crazy trying to find the right word count.  I've told 2,000(which I'd call a short story) up to 60,000(which I'd call a novel)-yep majorly confused.     As you can tell-even on my blogs and post I tend to write long winded.  So, the whole novella idea is extremely difficult for me.  To me I feel as if its hard to get an actual story n characters that can thrive throughout the book.  Plus HELLO, erotic author here!  Can my small book have enough story not to come across as "wham bam thankya ma'am"-hey that sounds like a good novella title!     Answer.....I sure as hell hope the novella can pack enough story and of course enough super smexy time!!  The proof has been ordered so now I'll be sadly checking the mail over and over until it shows.       My first book ~Quick on the Trigger~ had a more "artistic" cover but after asking the question "do I need half naked people on my covers to sell more?" In numerous erotic author forums, Facebook pages and some others-I was given an ALMOST unanimous YES, yep put flesh on your books.  I decided not to change my cover for ~Quick on the Trigger~ BUT have decided I will try the route of chests, abs, shoulders, backs & hunky hineys!  We've designed numerous covers for the novella series which I'm calling the -Crooked E Ranch- series.     We're using this first novella as a test of the emergency broadcast system--wait never mid that...a test to see if flesh covers really make a dramatic difference or not.  I've looked up a ton of savory (& some not so savory) books and I've noticed some that have a horrible blurb, very short content and covers that look beyond cheap BUT have damn near naked people that are damn near engaged in illegal sexual acts(at least in the Midwest) and yet they have 40 reviews-I'm not saying all are bad because there are lots that are good to but what I'm saying is they are racking in reviewers-WHICH I WANT! So we'll have to see.     Personally for me I want a paperback with a cover I don't have to explain or embarrass the farm wives who surround me.  Now, on the other hand I don't give a sh*t what the covers look like on my ipad.  And I'm not a flesh cover lover, I prefer artistic ones. But I'm not gonna complain about hot cowboys either.    In other words peeps?  ~Sweet as Candy~ first in the -Crooked E Ranch- series will be making its debut and soon! And for the love of all YOU find holy PLEASE review it!!!  

Hmmm...imagine that, more late night ramblings!

     So, as I get done reading another review for ~Quick On the Trigger~ I find myself still lacking this so-called "thick skin" I was supposed to be acquiring.  
     Seriously, where the h*ll can I find one? Ahhh...I bet there's an APP for that! I've also come to realize that perhaps I just may need a new editor(bummer-they are worse to find than a gynecologist-4 real. How hard is it to find one that will dim the lights, wear a Stetson and refer to me as Miss Sidda Lee, while doing the exam?).      My book has been edited then edited again BUT yet "a few grammatical" errors have been mentioned-I'm the first to admit I wanna write.  I wanna worry about, fret over, dwell on the STORY.  I want an editor to fix mistakes.  Not because I don't worry about the book but because I get in a spaced out existence while typing away.      For one thing I'm an insomniac and write mostly at night until the wee hours of the morning.  Now, that probably helps my weird creativity flow and my inhibitions dwindle-it also means I write fast and I spell the dumbest words wrong(I assure you I know how to spell). I just make really stupid mistakes.  Thus dumb confession being out in the open-makes me comfortable to say that's why we Indie Authors pay to be edited.  Not because I love to feel like a worthless, incompetent, not smarter than a 5th grader while the editor sends me the "sea of red" edits to be made.     Here's the real kicker...reviewer said it was a 4.5*'s outta 5*'s.  Other Authors quit "virtually throwing stones at me". I know it's a good number but I think I was spoiled with the first reviews and blogs about my book.  I'm such a baby, right? Okay, okay...I heard the collective "YES" through my IPhone.       No more whining now onto the woes and h*ll no's of Facebook life!  I love social media-to a point.  I'm a nosey girl so I love to look at pictures and read statuses.  It's like watching "Girls Gone Wild" then flipping the channel to "Maury Povich show" all on display in my "Feed".  But now getting more Friends and likes and followers the creepers are starting to creep out.  Anything from pecker pictures, request for cyber sex, explicit photos, to people requesting I help them learn English.       I know right? Can you believe people? Really sad! I'm not  a teacher, learn English elsewhere. What?  Oh, you thought I was gonna complain about the wee winky pics?  Naw, they tend to be quite entertaining.  One of them took me like 5 minutes to figure out it wasn't "Slinky" the worm from Seasame Street...which bummed me out because he would've been like the most famous fan I would've had.  I do apologize Radelphoierahas for not leading an English class but with my "grammatical errors" you better pick another Author!  Cyber sex I'll pass on also...I just can't type fast enough to keep up and nothin' like a lousy lay via Google+.  Dirty pics?  Well, I suppose I could send out some of those but they'd be of my kitchen or h*ll even my truck!  Somehow though I doubt that's what they had in mind.     I gotta say though I am feelin' some love though. More friends, followers, likes daily? FRICKIN' AWESOME!  Oh, by the way I LOVE the emails too.  I feel kinda special and not ride the short bus special like normally.       BOOK UPDATES!!!     My first swim in the Novella pool will come afloat within the next 2 weeks.  ~Sweet As Candy~ is nearly complete after being edited will be available.  ~Steel Horse Cowboy~ will be out in August.  Then I will officially have series! Yaaay!  By the way it's 2:40 a.m. Here and I wasn't trying to prove my "dumb mistakes" I make writing in the middle of the night BUT GUESS WHO CAN'T GET THIS UNDERLING TO STOP?  Aarrgghh!

"I wanna be a real boy!"--wait-no! I wanna have real book! A hardcopy...wouldn't mind a hard body either BUT we can't have it all!

     Yay!  My first book is actually going to print!  The cover has been designed, book has been edited, I've been so excited I had to double up on my Unisom.  Although taking sleeping pills with Mountain Dew is I'm positive a contradiction on its own.       Now just maybe-some will see me as an actual author. See, the thing is most people just don't comprehend the world of Indie Epubbing-they just don't get it. I understand their confusion-I do...really.  But being one of the ants climbing the digital publication ant hill-I get it!  Every author wants to see their work in hard copy.  I may be a bird of a different feather but I do happen to want to flock with them together.  Epublishing has so far been very good to me.  My book is getting out there.  I'm meeting authors, reviewers, publishers, bloggers and most importantly readers!  Epubbing has made my baby available to the masses.  Yet-many people don't understand why I see this as a success.  Why?  Because they can't hold the final product in their hands (besides holding their smartphone, ereader or tablet).       Face it peeps the book world is changing!  This isn't an overnight change either but some people weren't paying attention over recent years.  Back in the day your book being published (in print) meant you had made it.  Not the case anymore.  Anyone can get printed-no, really they can.  There is always a publishing company out there that will print your work.  You might not want what they pay, lose your rights to your work or even lose your pen name or agree they get first dibs on future work(oh how they slither with their snakey, sneaky contracts).  Of course not all are like this.  I just wanted to prove my point that anyone can get published even if its not under the best circumstances.  So, if I would've sold my wares to the devil himself BUT received a hard copy of my book for the price of my soul than I would've been seen as successful?  YEP!  All because you could hold my work, read it on paper pages, smell the ink, fold the page corners to mark your spot.     Surprise uncle BillyBob, I can have my book distributed, read, reviewed, loved....maybe not so loved-whatever.  Bought, sold and paid for and I'm on the receiving end of it all.  How is that not a success?  How does that make a person any less of an author?  I don't see it.       Proof is in the pudding (aren't I just full of these little cliches today)?  I am paid every time someone downloads ~Quick On the Trigger~ (free promo withstanding).  The strange thing is that my epubbed book actually pays me more than if I had went with a publishing company and had hard copies of my book sold.  Epub there's no middle man/men.  It's lil' ol' me and my distributor-in my case amazon.  They get their 30% I get the remaining 70%.  No agent cut, no publisher cut added to the distributors cut-just me and amazon.  Thus meaning...those books I may grab on my way out of my pharmacy by some of the most "successful", popular, talented, adored authors out there-yeah those ones-I make waaay more moola per book than they do.  For real!  I'm no Nora, I'm no Danielle but I bring in more per book on my ePub than they do on their best sellers?  How is that right?  My simple answer...I dunno.      Of course you can't walk into your local Wal-Mart and buy my book though.  My ePub is exclusively sold in the kindle store on amazon.  So there they have my a** whooped!  But what the h*ll?  I can promote the livin' day lights out of my book.  I can beg reviewers, I can blackmail bloggers (wink,wink), I can hand out swag in person-the options are endless.  But-no hard copy=no success in some eyes.  Here's my answer to that...ready?  Kiss my computers hard drive!  Yep, right on the USB port! (I like it dirty-hey maybe I'll add that to the next book).       This brings me back to the reason for this rant in the first place (A.D.D. Kicked in there apparently). Main reason-I'm getting my book printed. Not after signing away any rights or not even after making the deal publishing dreams are made of.  Nope-just printing through CreatSpace (an amazon company).  For me at this moment it's the best for me.  I'm not saying I would never go with a publishing company-I would but it would have to be a deal that would be right for me.  The couple offers I have received through a couple small presses just weren't what I wanted at this time.  I'm not living in a fantasy that Mr. Moneybags is going to call me up and claim "Sidda, I want you, I have to have you." (Wait was that a publishing CEO or Channing Tatum in my dream?).  Point being-like the dishes...I'll do it my d*mn self.  Now uncle BillyBob, have I earned the title of author to be added to my name once you can hold the proof of my writing in your hand? (Were all the words on your IPad a lie somehow)?     Well, it's probably another one of those "you can't please everybody" or "when life hands you lemons" kind of puns that I'm über keen on dishing out today.  So, as I know I have suggested before-please yourself (could put that in a book to). I do call my self an author already.  But I am still pumped to see my book in hand with a glossy cover and my name going up the spine.  Now the cr*ppy part of waiting until it shows up.Sidda

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