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October 15: Why Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day?

Today is October 15.  In the global babyloss community, this is an important day.  Today, many of us gather in remembrance of our babies gone too soon, celebrating and grieving together.  We speak the names of our babies aloud to ourselves and to one another, and we light a candle at seven o'clock in the evening to represent the brief but brilliant light of our babies' lives.
To one who has not been touched in some way by the death of a child before, during, or soon after birth,...

Wild Woman Emerging

Quite a few of you asked, after reading this post, "What does it look like to howl in the wild?"  I have wondered myself.  Here is the beginning of a response...

Who am I in the wildlands?  What am I once the Lion has laid his claws into me for the gentle agony and stripped off these frozen scales, leaving me pink and bloody as a newborn soul?

I fear that once his sharpened love pierces my shell this tepid skin will deflate and bely all my empty.

But I hope that instead he'll loos...

The Not-End of Grief

It's that time of the year again.

The leaves turn amber, and the calender veers toward November, and suddenly I am seeing her dates everywhere.  Events, meetings, and more are scheduled on the day she died, and the day she was born.

And every time, it shocks me.  An electric current running through my bones, and my breath catches and my insides twist, and that part of me that is hollow because of her absence echoes more loudly.

I thought that the first year of grief, of not-having-her,...

Howling in the Wild

“Watch the ones whose only option left is to lean into the questions. The ones who are uninhibited by the unknown because they’ve jumped into that gaping hole and found themselves, by grace, unswallowable. Watch the ones who willingly stand with Feist and say, “I feel it all” even when it scares the shit out of them. It’s not brave to have answers.”

      — Mandy Steward, Spiritual WanderingsI am tired.
I am tired.
I don't know what else to say, but -- I am so, so tired.
It's why I...

When I Ask For Help

I'm not sure how to write this.  Because I hate where I've been this summer, emotionally,  and fear that it makes me sound like a dramarama queen.  
But the plain truth is that I've been struggling with depression.  Like, a lot.  
I suppose you already knew this, sort of.  But the difference between now and the last time I wrote  about my recent depression struggles is that it's stopped being a good thing.  It's stopped being a wake-up call, a s...

Birthday Giveaway Winners + an Art Shop Sale!

Thank you all so much for participating in my giveaway this week.  It had a huge turnout, and you blessed me.  Thank you.

I also enjoyed reading your answers to my blog prompt question.  I asked, "What question has been pressing on your heart lately?"  Your replies felt truly profound to me -- thank you for being so vulnerable.  Here are some favorite highlights (I've kept then anonymous here, but if you want to see who is speaking such delicious raw truth, visit the c...

A Birthday Week Made eCourse + Art Giveaway

I always feel a little silly, writing about my birthday every year.  And each year, I resolve to not mention it the next year . . . and then do anyway.  :)

Have you guessed yet?  This week is my birthday!  So to celebrate, I'd like to throw a bit of a party here on the blog.  I'm giving away some fun prizes.  You can win:

one of three (!!!) spots in the Made eCourse, which starts this Sunday (!!!!!!), September 1

one of three (!!!) 4" x 6" Epiphany Art Studio prints...

Imminent

Made opens in one week.

One week from today.

Oh man.  I am nervous.

And I am excited.

This is going to be epic.  Either epically amazing, or an epic failure.  But huge either way.

At least, huge for my heart.  I had big-ish plans when I began Made, following this idea that felt like it was planted in my brain during a run on the treadmill.  But I never imagined that we'd have a class of over 130 participants. 

Whoa, God.  Whoa.

I am nervous because it's a big grou...

{New In the Shop} A Bit of Art

This post is going to make it look like I've had oodles of time to get all paint-ified and make lots of art lately . . . but that's not the case.  Instead, I've been working hard to carve out tiny pockets of time to get ready for the imminent (!!!) start of Made.  Things are falling into place.  I am so excited for the ecourse to begin!

But in spite of the Made-induced time crunch, tonight I had some extra time and wanted to [finally] share some mixed media art pieces that I've...

When God is Holding Me Down (In a Good Way)

I hardly know how to write this.  It's only been a couple of weeks since my last post, but it feels like far longer.

I have been feeling lost this summer.

It started with my husband declaring his atheism, I think, and was compounded by the exhilarating, terrifying, joyful challenge that is leading Made. 

But there's also more than that at the root of this lost-ness.  I've been hurting, more than I have in a long while.

And it's not just grief, which is what most people guess when...