Jack Lewis Baillot's Blog, page 2
March 3, 2019
Honeest Thoughts
Wherein Jack had a thought.
This has been on my mind for a while, I don't know if this is the right site to share it on or my project site. Maybe I will post it on both.
I am surrounded by friends and family, my age and younger than me, getting married and having babies. Not that I am bitter about that fact. But what is it like to be 31 and not even be dating or even know anyone who has shown interest in me?
There is also the question I face very often. What if I am never healed to the point where I could date and marry and be a mom? I know, "Now, Jack, don't be dramatic." But this is a very real possibility for me.
So what should I do? What DO I do? I was upset at first. I've never been a romantic, but like most girls I dreamed of getting married and having my own family. I even have names for children should I have any and should my husband like the names too. But what if I never get to use them?
I've heard so much advice written for single girls still waiting for their "Prince Charming."
I will share my advice. Though mine is different than others and directed more toward advice to myself as I believe most of my readers will one day find themselves in relationships if they haven't already.
It took me years to come to the realization I might not be able to marry, or have a relationship in marriage like others. That if I do marry it is going to look very different for me. I was angry when I realized this, angry and sad. I cried a lot and lost my temper a lot over things not involved with the issue.
So what changed? Nothing really has. It still makes me sad and angry, though I've learned to control that anger and also the sorrow. (Basically I went through the stages of grief).
What has helped me though is opening up about it. Talking with my best friend and my "sisters". And knowing my life isn't going to end because I might not be in a romantic relationship.
I put more of my time and effort into my interests and callings from God and found peace there. I talked with another single girl who also may not ever marry. And I realized the relationship of a friend can be just as meaningful as that of a spouse.
Also I realized how much I have come to rely on Dog, my dear pet and gift from God.
Some girls are called to a single life, but we live in a world where romance is shoved down our throats and shown that if one isn't in a romantic relationship they are less of a human. Are missing something vital.
Am I opposed to romance? Of course not. I celebrate it with my friends. New babies, marriages, engagements. I am happy for them.
But at the same time I have come to be happy where I am right now. God has given me tasks and I will accomplish them to the best of my ability. And if my single status changes then I know it is because God wills it. But until then I am truly happy.
This has been on my mind for a while, I don't know if this is the right site to share it on or my project site. Maybe I will post it on both.
I am surrounded by friends and family, my age and younger than me, getting married and having babies. Not that I am bitter about that fact. But what is it like to be 31 and not even be dating or even know anyone who has shown interest in me?
There is also the question I face very often. What if I am never healed to the point where I could date and marry and be a mom? I know, "Now, Jack, don't be dramatic." But this is a very real possibility for me.
So what should I do? What DO I do? I was upset at first. I've never been a romantic, but like most girls I dreamed of getting married and having my own family. I even have names for children should I have any and should my husband like the names too. But what if I never get to use them?
I've heard so much advice written for single girls still waiting for their "Prince Charming."
I will share my advice. Though mine is different than others and directed more toward advice to myself as I believe most of my readers will one day find themselves in relationships if they haven't already.
It took me years to come to the realization I might not be able to marry, or have a relationship in marriage like others. That if I do marry it is going to look very different for me. I was angry when I realized this, angry and sad. I cried a lot and lost my temper a lot over things not involved with the issue.
So what changed? Nothing really has. It still makes me sad and angry, though I've learned to control that anger and also the sorrow. (Basically I went through the stages of grief).
What has helped me though is opening up about it. Talking with my best friend and my "sisters". And knowing my life isn't going to end because I might not be in a romantic relationship.
I put more of my time and effort into my interests and callings from God and found peace there. I talked with another single girl who also may not ever marry. And I realized the relationship of a friend can be just as meaningful as that of a spouse.
Also I realized how much I have come to rely on Dog, my dear pet and gift from God.
Some girls are called to a single life, but we live in a world where romance is shoved down our throats and shown that if one isn't in a romantic relationship they are less of a human. Are missing something vital.
Am I opposed to romance? Of course not. I celebrate it with my friends. New babies, marriages, engagements. I am happy for them.
But at the same time I have come to be happy where I am right now. God has given me tasks and I will accomplish them to the best of my ability. And if my single status changes then I know it is because God wills it. But until then I am truly happy.
February 28, 2019
"Trying to fix the boyfriend."
Wherein Jack is here
As opposed to there.
Thank you everyone for the advice. I knew of many different publishers but not Vanity Publishers. I will not be going with them, I will continue my agent hunting.
And my other hunting, for num num cookies.
Oooo, I just remembered, I actually have cookies.
*Dashes off*
*Comes back*
I got two so I won't have to get up again after I realize with one that I want another.
I baked a lovely loaf of bread last night. I just had to post that because it turned out so pretty. Keep an eye on Instagram. I will be showing it off later this weekend I bet.
Ugh. I want a third num num cookie.
Yes, that is going to be a thing now.
I would have posted early tonight but I spent all evening fixing, rather getting help, fixing my Word program. But now everything should be running smoothly as far as computers go. (Haha) And tomorrow I can spend more time writing and less time working online fixing something or other.
That's all I have for you all. But thank you once again. I will keep you informed as always on the publishing journey.
As opposed to there.
Thank you everyone for the advice. I knew of many different publishers but not Vanity Publishers. I will not be going with them, I will continue my agent hunting.
And my other hunting, for num num cookies.
Oooo, I just remembered, I actually have cookies.
*Dashes off*
*Comes back*
I got two so I won't have to get up again after I realize with one that I want another.
I baked a lovely loaf of bread last night. I just had to post that because it turned out so pretty. Keep an eye on Instagram. I will be showing it off later this weekend I bet.
Ugh. I want a third num num cookie.
Yes, that is going to be a thing now.
I would have posted early tonight but I spent all evening fixing, rather getting help, fixing my Word program. But now everything should be running smoothly as far as computers go. (Haha) And tomorrow I can spend more time writing and less time working online fixing something or other.
That's all I have for you all. But thank you once again. I will keep you informed as always on the publishing journey.
February 27, 2019
"Marius, who cares about your lonely soul?"
Wherein Jack has updates
And is baking bread again.
That seems to be all I do lately. Update, bake bread, update again. Listen to Les Misérables.
Update time!
I heard back from one of the publishers! And they wanted my full book. And I sent it. And...
They want it!!
But there's a draw back.
Isn't there always?
They want to do the editing and get it into book stores which...*HEART EYES* but they need 3000 for the 250 books they will send me.
I'm just trying to figure out fi that is a good price for a full edit and book stores and 250 books. If anyone can tell me, because this is all new to me, is this normal?
Just in case I spent all morning submitting to another publisher. Now we go back to waiting. And waiting. And waiting. And baking bread and listening to Les Misérables. Because, let's face it, no one cares about Marius' lonely soul.
No.
One.
Sorry, Marius.
I should go now. I have to read some books I signed up to read and review.
And is baking bread again.
That seems to be all I do lately. Update, bake bread, update again. Listen to Les Misérables.
Update time!
I heard back from one of the publishers! And they wanted my full book. And I sent it. And...
They want it!!
But there's a draw back.
Isn't there always?
They want to do the editing and get it into book stores which...*HEART EYES* but they need 3000 for the 250 books they will send me.
I'm just trying to figure out fi that is a good price for a full edit and book stores and 250 books. If anyone can tell me, because this is all new to me, is this normal?
Just in case I spent all morning submitting to another publisher. Now we go back to waiting. And waiting. And waiting. And baking bread and listening to Les Misérables. Because, let's face it, no one cares about Marius' lonely soul.
No.
One.
Sorry, Marius.
I should go now. I have to read some books I signed up to read and review.
February 25, 2019
"Num, num cookies. Num, num cookies."
Wherein Jack could use some sleep.
I kept waking up at three for about a week from a sore back. Therefore I went to bed around six because I was so tired. So I got off track with sleep and when I woke up this morning at three yet again I knew I had to try something else to get myself back on schedule. So I am making myself stay up until ten so I can hopefully sleep in tomorrow and get back into a routine which doesn't involve three in the morning.
If I wake up at three tomorrow I will simply go on a rampage like King Kong. ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
I got an email today. The publisher I submitted Through a Glass Darkly to wanted the full book! I was so excited I tripped over myself, or close enough. I sent it to them so now I am back to waiting, but it is exciting to get to send in a full book.
I almost played Mary Poppins after work today, and not by choice. It has just been a very gusty day and had I an umbrella....
Also the electric went out and I was concerned for the fish but they made it.
That's all. It's almost time for all good Jack's to go night night.
I kept waking up at three for about a week from a sore back. Therefore I went to bed around six because I was so tired. So I got off track with sleep and when I woke up this morning at three yet again I knew I had to try something else to get myself back on schedule. So I am making myself stay up until ten so I can hopefully sleep in tomorrow and get back into a routine which doesn't involve three in the morning.
If I wake up at three tomorrow I will simply go on a rampage like King Kong. ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
I got an email today. The publisher I submitted Through a Glass Darkly to wanted the full book! I was so excited I tripped over myself, or close enough. I sent it to them so now I am back to waiting, but it is exciting to get to send in a full book.
I almost played Mary Poppins after work today, and not by choice. It has just been a very gusty day and had I an umbrella....
Also the electric went out and I was concerned for the fish but they made it.
That's all. It's almost time for all good Jack's to go night night.
February 24, 2019
"But watching this baby? This I do for free."
Wherein Jack needs a friend and a camera and to set both loose in the wild.
My profile picture is so old. And I want to get a new one. BUT I don't have a photography friend set loose in the wild. Maybe I can release one tomorrow.
That makes it sound as if I keep my friends locked up in cages....*Cough*
Oh and if anyone was wondering, Dog is so cute. Just, because you were all dying to know that. She didn't really do anything especially cute lately, I just happened to sometimes realize just how cute she is and always feel like sharing that information.
I had my adopted family over for breakfast today. we partied like it was 1888. And now I am going to keep partying as such. (Actually the party started last night with a secret party which involved two movies. I have FINALLY seen Incredibles Two. Took me long enough.)
Haven't heard back from the publisher yet. But, as I like to tell a certain adopted sister, NEVER GIVE UP! NEVER SURRENDER! Unless cookies is involved. NUM NUM COOKIES!
I am going to go look for cookies now. Bye
My profile picture is so old. And I want to get a new one. BUT I don't have a photography friend set loose in the wild. Maybe I can release one tomorrow.
That makes it sound as if I keep my friends locked up in cages....*Cough*
Oh and if anyone was wondering, Dog is so cute. Just, because you were all dying to know that. She didn't really do anything especially cute lately, I just happened to sometimes realize just how cute she is and always feel like sharing that information.
I had my adopted family over for breakfast today. we partied like it was 1888. And now I am going to keep partying as such. (Actually the party started last night with a secret party which involved two movies. I have FINALLY seen Incredibles Two. Took me long enough.)
Haven't heard back from the publisher yet. But, as I like to tell a certain adopted sister, NEVER GIVE UP! NEVER SURRENDER! Unless cookies is involved. NUM NUM COOKIES!
I am going to go look for cookies now. Bye
February 19, 2019
"Don't go getting too far, Stinker."
Wherein Jack is up too early
I've always been an early riser, but two thirty?! BRAIN WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?! But I am wide awake....probably because I am excited for today, so I may as well do something since I am too awake to sleep.
I've been hunting down new books to read. Not just new books, I have plenty I want to read, but Christian suspense books which are kind of like Through a Glass Darkly.
Why am I looking for them?
Glad you asked.
As I tell my friend whom I am helping market, an Author needs to READ. Every day. Reading is as important as writing. And when looking for an agent you want to be able to compare your book to others and send it to the agent who likes books like it. And the only way to do that is to read similar books especially ones the agent represented.
My problem? All the books I've found like mine so far have been self published. So I have to dig deeper. And maybe go to Bucky and Donna's. Shame. Maybe have to spend hours there browsing books. Pity. Poor me. *Cough*
The mishaps of Jack are back. I went shopping after work yesterday and got home late but I had been thinking of my BBQ chicken all day so I put it in the oven. After an hour it looked done so I began to ward off Dog and munch my dinner.
It was still raw. Like bleeding raw. So I quickly stopped eating and made noodles instead. Such a sad dinner when one has been looking forward to BBQ chicken all day. I plan to have it tonight instead since I will be home earlier than yesterday.
I have lots going on this week. But it is mostly fun stuff. Hence my can't sleep excitement. Also my friend gave me a new story idea which I love and am plotting out and doing research for. Except I can't find books on the subject so will be watching TV shows. Which is a new form of research for me so we will see how that goes.
And now I am going to get some more work done and plot my new story. Farewell. Don't be like me and get some sleep.
I've always been an early riser, but two thirty?! BRAIN WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?! But I am wide awake....probably because I am excited for today, so I may as well do something since I am too awake to sleep.
I've been hunting down new books to read. Not just new books, I have plenty I want to read, but Christian suspense books which are kind of like Through a Glass Darkly.
Why am I looking for them?
Glad you asked.
As I tell my friend whom I am helping market, an Author needs to READ. Every day. Reading is as important as writing. And when looking for an agent you want to be able to compare your book to others and send it to the agent who likes books like it. And the only way to do that is to read similar books especially ones the agent represented.
My problem? All the books I've found like mine so far have been self published. So I have to dig deeper. And maybe go to Bucky and Donna's. Shame. Maybe have to spend hours there browsing books. Pity. Poor me. *Cough*
The mishaps of Jack are back. I went shopping after work yesterday and got home late but I had been thinking of my BBQ chicken all day so I put it in the oven. After an hour it looked done so I began to ward off Dog and munch my dinner.
It was still raw. Like bleeding raw. So I quickly stopped eating and made noodles instead. Such a sad dinner when one has been looking forward to BBQ chicken all day. I plan to have it tonight instead since I will be home earlier than yesterday.
I have lots going on this week. But it is mostly fun stuff. Hence my can't sleep excitement. Also my friend gave me a new story idea which I love and am plotting out and doing research for. Except I can't find books on the subject so will be watching TV shows. Which is a new form of research for me so we will see how that goes.
And now I am going to get some more work done and plot my new story. Farewell. Don't be like me and get some sleep.
February 13, 2019
"You guys are so immature."
Wherein Jack got behind
So exciting, I know. What, were you hoping to hear about how I am being haunted by a squeaking hamster wheel in the wall?
I have to get on top of emails and book reviews again. Keep up on reading. Get rid of ghosties in my apartment. That sort of thing.
Also survive the storms. Okay the storms haven't been bad and have been lots of fun. I go trudging through the snow and tromping in the rain.
Maybe I'll go thrift shopping too. Why? Okay I have no good reason.
But to get back to the point I wasn't making. I have been keeping myself rather busy in all the good ways. Baking bread, walking, and all of that. Life has been rather quiet. I know it won't last so I'm enjoying it while it does.
So exciting, I know. What, were you hoping to hear about how I am being haunted by a squeaking hamster wheel in the wall?
I have to get on top of emails and book reviews again. Keep up on reading. Get rid of ghosties in my apartment. That sort of thing.
Also survive the storms. Okay the storms haven't been bad and have been lots of fun. I go trudging through the snow and tromping in the rain.
Maybe I'll go thrift shopping too. Why? Okay I have no good reason.
But to get back to the point I wasn't making. I have been keeping myself rather busy in all the good ways. Baking bread, walking, and all of that. Life has been rather quiet. I know it won't last so I'm enjoying it while it does.
February 9, 2019
"I don't need any calming tea!"
Wherein Jack got rejected.
And is possibly being haunted by a squeaky hamster wheel.
But that can't be proven right at this moment.
Back to the rejection. Was I prepared for it? Yes I was. Was I still disappointed? Why yes, yes I was.
Will I move on and keep summitting? PFFT. Of course. I just have to hunt down more agents. OH A HUNTING I WILL GO, OH A HUNTING I WILL GO!
Sorry, I am now suffering cabin fever since it has been so cold. Besides, I don't know how to hunt a book agent. Catch one in a box, sure, that I can do. Never let them go? Check.
Maybe I should deal with the haunted hamster wheel first before anything else. At least with all the cold I think the ghost cricket froze. Either way he has stopped haunting me for the time being.
Okay, I will be off now. I want to get back tot he agent hunt. And make some calming Jasmine tea.
And is possibly being haunted by a squeaky hamster wheel.
But that can't be proven right at this moment.
Back to the rejection. Was I prepared for it? Yes I was. Was I still disappointed? Why yes, yes I was.
Will I move on and keep summitting? PFFT. Of course. I just have to hunt down more agents. OH A HUNTING I WILL GO, OH A HUNTING I WILL GO!
Sorry, I am now suffering cabin fever since it has been so cold. Besides, I don't know how to hunt a book agent. Catch one in a box, sure, that I can do. Never let them go? Check.
Maybe I should deal with the haunted hamster wheel first before anything else. At least with all the cold I think the ghost cricket froze. Either way he has stopped haunting me for the time being.
Okay, I will be off now. I want to get back tot he agent hunt. And make some calming Jasmine tea.
February 4, 2019
"Math is math! Math. Is. Math!"
Wherein Jack is cold
But she has hot chocolate so there's an end in sight.
Dog and I went trooping through a blizzard after work. Why? Because why not? I have this thing with snow and rain. I can't help but go out and walk in it, or jump in puddles if it is rain. Again, why? Because I am a child.
I have to cut my nails. As if you were dying to know that.
Also I may or may not be bored because I am waiting to hear back from an agent. Okay, maybe not bored, maybe all anxious and hopeful and nervous. And loving this hot chocolate with marshmallows.
And because of my walk I am now hyper so may watch a movie before bed. But will probably not be able to decide on one so will read instead.
That's all I have. My hot chocolate is calling.
But she has hot chocolate so there's an end in sight.
Dog and I went trooping through a blizzard after work. Why? Because why not? I have this thing with snow and rain. I can't help but go out and walk in it, or jump in puddles if it is rain. Again, why? Because I am a child.
I have to cut my nails. As if you were dying to know that.
Also I may or may not be bored because I am waiting to hear back from an agent. Okay, maybe not bored, maybe all anxious and hopeful and nervous. And loving this hot chocolate with marshmallows.
And because of my walk I am now hyper so may watch a movie before bed. But will probably not be able to decide on one so will read instead.
That's all I have. My hot chocolate is calling.
February 1, 2019
"The game's afoot."
Wherein Jack got so much done.
And as you can tell, life is still short on the mishaps common in Jack's life. But oh well, they always manage to return in due time.
Happy February first!!
I hope January was well for everyone. Mine turned out to be nice in spite of being sick. I got books read as I mentioned in my last post. But last night was the most accomplishment thing of the month. I submitted Through a Glass Darkly to an agent!
And was it stressful. I felt redundant writing the proposal. But anyone who has done a proposal knows all about that. It is nice to have it done and out there, now I just wait to see what happens next.
Okay and that is all I have for now. I will keep all of you updated as it goes along.
And as you can tell, life is still short on the mishaps common in Jack's life. But oh well, they always manage to return in due time.
Happy February first!!
I hope January was well for everyone. Mine turned out to be nice in spite of being sick. I got books read as I mentioned in my last post. But last night was the most accomplishment thing of the month. I submitted Through a Glass Darkly to an agent!
And was it stressful. I felt redundant writing the proposal. But anyone who has done a proposal knows all about that. It is nice to have it done and out there, now I just wait to see what happens next.
Okay and that is all I have for now. I will keep all of you updated as it goes along.
