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Ridiculous conversations while writing icos...
We have really stupid conversations while writing chapters. I figured I may as well share some excerpts.
BELOW THERE ARE SPOILERS FOR FADE CHAPTER 23, 24 and 25!! DON'T READ IF YOU ARE NOT THERE YET!!
I'm trying to put in space so this doesn't show on the main page to avoid spoilers but I can't tell how much space/writing I will need in order to achieve this goal so ignore the rambling.... the spoiler tag didn't seem to work for some reason...............
WRITING CHAPTER 25:
ais: i think boyd's porn star name should be Wham Bam Thank You Cam
sonny: thats
sonny: terrible
ais: COME ON IT WAS FUNNY
ais: if you didnt smirk even a little bit youre dead to me
sonny: nvr
sonny: ill never tell you
ais: whatever.
ais: i laughed out loud at the idea
ais: so i was amused enough for both of us
sonny: because youre a bad
sonny: my face hurts
ais: that was like a split sentence that made no sense
ais: my joke was SO HILARIOUS it scrambled your brains
sonny: my face hurts because
sonny: im 100% sure i have a sinus infection
ais: well that's less fun
Also, after this was written:
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"I'm looking for a job and I'm familiar with Skyn's works. I always liked the way your videos are shot more realistically-- it makes your videos stand out above the rest-- so I came in hoping there might be a position open."
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I told Sonny, "i want to make a joke about using the term "position open" in an adult film job interview but im too lazy"
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Convo while editing 23/24:
ais: btw in the beginning of 23 why does sin eye boyd so much?
sonny: idk
dont remember
ais: damn you!
Sent at 4:39 PM on Wednesday
ais: ok then in 24 during the sex scene where he's fingering boyd theres a part where boyd's thinking about how hes wanted this etc, and sin says "jesus fucking christ, boyd" before he changes their positions. what made him comment on anything?
im just curious if my assumed reason for him speaking there is correct
Sent at 4:41 PM on Wednesday
sonny: dont remember
ais: GOD YOURE USELESS TO ME
sonny: yes
ais: go back to your hole, man!
whatever hole it may be!
BELOW THERE ARE SPOILERS FOR FADE CHAPTER 23, 24 and 25!! DON'T READ IF YOU ARE NOT THERE YET!!
I'm trying to put in space so this doesn't show on the main page to avoid spoilers but I can't tell how much space/writing I will need in order to achieve this goal so ignore the rambling.... the spoiler tag didn't seem to work for some reason...............
WRITING CHAPTER 25:
ais: i think boyd's porn star name should be Wham Bam Thank You Cam
sonny: thats
sonny: terrible
ais: COME ON IT WAS FUNNY
ais: if you didnt smirk even a little bit youre dead to me
sonny: nvr
sonny: ill never tell you
ais: whatever.
ais: i laughed out loud at the idea
ais: so i was amused enough for both of us
sonny: because youre a bad
sonny: my face hurts
ais: that was like a split sentence that made no sense
ais: my joke was SO HILARIOUS it scrambled your brains
sonny: my face hurts because
sonny: im 100% sure i have a sinus infection
ais: well that's less fun
Also, after this was written:
----
"I'm looking for a job and I'm familiar with Skyn's works. I always liked the way your videos are shot more realistically-- it makes your videos stand out above the rest-- so I came in hoping there might be a position open."
----
I told Sonny, "i want to make a joke about using the term "position open" in an adult film job interview but im too lazy"
==================================================================================
Convo while editing 23/24:
ais: btw in the beginning of 23 why does sin eye boyd so much?
sonny: idk
dont remember
ais: damn you!
Sent at 4:39 PM on Wednesday
ais: ok then in 24 during the sex scene where he's fingering boyd theres a part where boyd's thinking about how hes wanted this etc, and sin says "jesus fucking christ, boyd" before he changes their positions. what made him comment on anything?
im just curious if my assumed reason for him speaking there is correct
Sent at 4:41 PM on Wednesday
sonny: dont remember
ais: GOD YOURE USELESS TO ME
sonny: yes
ais: go back to your hole, man!
whatever hole it may be!
More ridiculous conversations
More stupid conversations. This one has no spoilers. OR DOES IT?!
Ais: wow XD lets have sin and boyd call each other sunshine and honeybun
Sonny: no
[[random conversation]]
Ais: i wonder what the word would be for being anti-alien
Ais: but are you anti-alien?
Ais: are you an alien racist?
Sonny: yes
Ais: ok
Ais: just checking
Sonny: my head hurts
Ais: hmm
Ais: i wonder if you should sleep instead of attempting to write. it is late already for you
Sonny: its only 10:30
Ais: SO LATE
Ais: wow orgiastic is actually a word
Ais: lets have boyd describe lovemaking with sin as feeling orgiastic, like sin is so much a man it's like having sex with 2 of him at once
Sonny: ..
Ais: and sin can be like "honeybun sunshine i love you!"
Sonny: what is wrong with you
Ais: maybe boyd can tell sin that HSIN stands for Honeybun Sunshine Is Neat
Ais: lol i was looking up something
Ais: on chrome
Ais: and i dont remember what i was ... oh right
Sonny: youre a bad
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What was really happening? THE WORLD WILL NEVER KNOW.
Also, Sonny's supposed to be writing but he was being lame so. This happened. Probably this is all his fault.
I'd just like to put that out there.
Ais: wow XD lets have sin and boyd call each other sunshine and honeybun
Sonny: no
[[random conversation]]
Ais: i wonder what the word would be for being anti-alien
Ais: but are you anti-alien?
Ais: are you an alien racist?
Sonny: yes
Ais: ok
Ais: just checking
Sonny: my head hurts
Ais: hmm
Ais: i wonder if you should sleep instead of attempting to write. it is late already for you
Sonny: its only 10:30
Ais: SO LATE
Ais: wow orgiastic is actually a word
Ais: lets have boyd describe lovemaking with sin as feeling orgiastic, like sin is so much a man it's like having sex with 2 of him at once
Sonny: ..
Ais: and sin can be like "honeybun sunshine i love you!"
Sonny: what is wrong with you
Ais: maybe boyd can tell sin that HSIN stands for Honeybun Sunshine Is Neat
Ais: lol i was looking up something
Ais: on chrome
Ais: and i dont remember what i was ... oh right
Sonny: youre a bad
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What was really happening? THE WORLD WILL NEVER KNOW.
Also, Sonny's supposed to be writing but he was being lame so. This happened. Probably this is all his fault.
I'd just like to put that out there.
ICoS as a romance novel
He was a slave to the overbearing, monstrous world of the Agency, kept far from the light and removed from his native homeland of China. A beautiful, broken man with a tragic past and a life filled with violence and pain, he never believed he would amount to anything more than the Sin for which he was named.
Until one day a young man came into his life-- graceful, gorgeous, intriguing--who captivated Sin's heart at the first glance of golden eyes. But the young man didn't fall to Sin's infamous demeanor the way so many had before-- he neither feared nor desired him! The challenge he made! Sin's exquisite loins burned like wildfire for this young man whose power of bewitchment surely meant faerie blood ran within his veins.
But the mysterious young man has an atramentous past that has kept him shackled in spirit -- and his suicidal insouciance may prove too great for even Sin's unprecedented power to overcome.
Their tempestuous hurricane begins as an impassioned affair. Beautiful and dangerous, they burn for each other like the light of a hundred thousand million suns, but they may find that their greatest enemies aren't from without but are instead FROM WITHIN.
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Wow you guys help me, I really can't make a dramatic enough romance-novel-style-summary and in my attempts to add suitable drama I made it too long.
I'm kind of sad about this.
Also I like how I left Boyd unnamed for some reason XD It's just an entire book with him always referred to as "young man."
WHAT IS THIS CRAZINESS ABOUT??, you ask?
I WILL NEVER TELL!
(0.1 seconds later:)
On a TSP chat probably 1-2 years ago we were talking about how ridiculous romance books/covers are and then I said I wanted a het romance style cover done for ICoS because I thought it would be hilarious. Eternityras did most of the art; djabea and I did the background (including amazingly well done stick figures running around panicking and/or on fire).
You're happy I posted about this, aren't you? Your life would not have been complete without this awesome cover.
PS: I had this line in the fake summary and removed it because it was making things too long-- but the imagery amused me too much to leave it out of the entry:
Their hearts had never been caught before, even if their bodies had, and now this infamous Sin had set his sights on the sin he wished to commit: to deflower himself upon the young man's sturdy rod.
TAKE THAT SONNY. STURDY ROD. I'm totes writing that in the next sex scene btw.
"And then XX impaled himself upon YY's sturdy rod, the turgid member quivering at the height of attention as it was devoured by XX's erotic insides..."
I guess I'll be serious for once
I think one of the reasons I'm usually super ridiculous is because I find that having a sense of humor, no matter how moronic, is great for dealing with everyday annoyances as well as things that fill me with rage. It lets me vent the frustration and fury in short bursts and then I can let the poison out of my system, and start looking at things rationally again, and sometimes I can make bad things seem ok by laughing at it.
Sometimes.
If my general state of being is to be totally stupid and make jokes and try to find humor in everything, it kind of stores up the inward good karma for those moments when the outward (or inward) bad karma tips the scale. It's easier to right myself more quickly and make jokes about things that are otherwise difficult to process, and absorb the shittiness of the world/people without always letting it overtake everything else.
Right now is one of those times where it makes me think about how strange it is to be able to go from being perfectly fine to suddenly so horrified or disgusted by something it makes me rant, and then since this is online I can soon afterward type out stuff like "XD" and "<3" even before I feel it -- to try to restore myself to a natural balance.
Because oftentimes the things that truly disgust me are things I can't do anything about, and ultimately the only real effect I have on others is how I interact with them. Ultimately the main thing I can do to counteract the occasional complete shithole of humanity is to be as good of a person as I know how to be.
And I know that sounds cheesy and I know maybe it's not the healthiest of life choices or maybe it is, I can't say. But right now with this strange, vague lump in the center of my chest I know that if I focus only on that I won't be of service to anyone, but if I focus on the actions I can personally take and the outcomes I can personally affect, the burning will slowly, subtly subside.
So if you ever wonder why most of the time I say such ridiculous things, why I make such stupid jokes or act like I'm 5 years old, it's because at times like this it's easier to remember that most of the time I don't want to kick people, and most of the time everything's pretty okay. Most of the time, it's possible to laugh, and most of the time the things that seem so terrible can be accepted without being belittled but also without making it impossible to move forward.
It's when I start thinking about how such things are not possible for everyone, how some people are in terrible situations that they can't get out of, that it makes it harder to think that way. But then I get back to realizing that I can only affect what I can affect, and I can do everything in my power when it's in my power, and when it isn't I have to accept that, too, or I won't be able to help anyone even when it gets to a time when I can.
Sometimes.
If my general state of being is to be totally stupid and make jokes and try to find humor in everything, it kind of stores up the inward good karma for those moments when the outward (or inward) bad karma tips the scale. It's easier to right myself more quickly and make jokes about things that are otherwise difficult to process, and absorb the shittiness of the world/people without always letting it overtake everything else.
Right now is one of those times where it makes me think about how strange it is to be able to go from being perfectly fine to suddenly so horrified or disgusted by something it makes me rant, and then since this is online I can soon afterward type out stuff like "XD" and "<3" even before I feel it -- to try to restore myself to a natural balance.
Because oftentimes the things that truly disgust me are things I can't do anything about, and ultimately the only real effect I have on others is how I interact with them. Ultimately the main thing I can do to counteract the occasional complete shithole of humanity is to be as good of a person as I know how to be.
And I know that sounds cheesy and I know maybe it's not the healthiest of life choices or maybe it is, I can't say. But right now with this strange, vague lump in the center of my chest I know that if I focus only on that I won't be of service to anyone, but if I focus on the actions I can personally take and the outcomes I can personally affect, the burning will slowly, subtly subside.
So if you ever wonder why most of the time I say such ridiculous things, why I make such stupid jokes or act like I'm 5 years old, it's because at times like this it's easier to remember that most of the time I don't want to kick people, and most of the time everything's pretty okay. Most of the time, it's possible to laugh, and most of the time the things that seem so terrible can be accepted without being belittled but also without making it impossible to move forward.
It's when I start thinking about how such things are not possible for everyone, how some people are in terrible situations that they can't get out of, that it makes it harder to think that way. But then I get back to realizing that I can only affect what I can affect, and I can do everything in my power when it's in my power, and when it isn't I have to accept that, too, or I won't be able to help anyone even when it gets to a time when I can.
another stupid conversation + tumblr!
I'll make a note about the tumblr account in the news section too...
Sonny: bah i dont want to write 33
Ais: write it
i will whip you
Sonny: what if i liked being whipped then that wont work
Ais: then im going to send you to a fucking spa!
you WILL be massaged and there will be no happy endings!
Sonny: thats horrible
i hate massages
Ais: you're gonna get one
if you don't write 33
and it's going to be by a professional who WON'T STOP
for like an hour
also it'll be in a spa
so there will be girly scents
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Crossposted at our new ICoS tumblr account we just created today-- http://sonnyais.tumblr.com/
Sonny: bah i dont want to write 33
Ais: write it
i will whip you
Sonny: what if i liked being whipped then that wont work
Ais: then im going to send you to a fucking spa!
you WILL be massaged and there will be no happy endings!
Sonny: thats horrible
i hate massages
Ais: you're gonna get one
if you don't write 33
and it's going to be by a professional who WON'T STOP
for like an hour
also it'll be in a spa
so there will be girly scents
----
Crossposted at our new ICoS tumblr account we just created today-- http://sonnyais.tumblr.com/
....are you kidding me?
So we were just compiling each book into individual documents in preparation for streamlining/much stronger editing for eventual self-publication, and WTF GUYS.
For what is currently released for Evenfall, Afterimage, Interludes, and Fade through chapter 33:
1,595,047 words
3543 pages, Arial 12 & not formatted
....this is not even including any back or side stories.
1.6 million words?
Really?
And over 3500 pages NOT FORMATTED? Right now it's single spaced with an extra space between paragraphs. Once we make it all double spaced and no breaks between paragraphs it's just going to get longer.
jfc. We have a lot of editing to do XD
For what is currently released for Evenfall, Afterimage, Interludes, and Fade through chapter 33:
1,595,047 words
3543 pages, Arial 12 & not formatted
....this is not even including any back or side stories.
1.6 million words?
Really?
And over 3500 pages NOT FORMATTED? Right now it's single spaced with an extra space between paragraphs. Once we make it all double spaced and no breaks between paragraphs it's just going to get longer.
jfc. We have a lot of editing to do XD
