Azra Tabassum's Blog, page 182

"How to break this to you gently, you thought he was the sun but he wasn’t. I’m sorry..."

“How to break this to you gently, you thought he was the sun but he wasn’t. I’m sorry that you loved him as much as you did and that he betrayed you. You were so open and honest and full. You were like grass in a drought, wanting his love so badly that you weren’t willing to see that he’s not the rain. He’s the reason for your thirst. He’s the reason that your lungs feel like they’re closing up. And he didn’t know how to be loyal to you, that’s the biggest tragedy of all. Maybe it was because he’d never learned the meaning of loving someone so fully that you can’t see anyone else. Don’t you want to be the pinnacle? Don’t you want to be the only thing he’s ever going to see again? You deserve that kind of longing, you really do and I’m heartbroken that he doesn’t respect you enough to let you decide. You’re more than his brand of coward love. I want to take you by the shoulders and tell you that I loved him too and that it wasn’t worth it. It’s never going to be worth it. Not for someone half there. Not for someone whose love is made up of lies. There is nothing good in bending yourself backwards to adore someone like that and I hope that someday you learn what it means to be adored fully. No half-heartedness and no walls. There’ll be nobody else, not ever again. That’s how it should be.

Baby, you’ve got your hands up and you’re praying to him like he’s a God but he’s no God. He’s just a man. And he’s only loving you like half of one.”

- Azra.T “A Letter From The Other Woman” 

"Now I just sleep beneath your floor.My ghost just tries to keep you warm."

“Now I just sleep beneath your floor.

My ghost just tries to keep you warm.”

- “Wrapped in Piano Strings" by Radical Face 

"they never wanted youto know the hunger of persephone,how she starved for something other than..."

“they never wanted you

to know the hunger of persephone,

how she starved for something

other than pomegranates.


control.


the primal thirst

that burns all women’s throats,

denied by eons of men.”

- Emily Palermo, excerpt of Persephone (via camilla-macauley)

What has been your biggest challenge?

I’m still here trying to figure my relationship out with God and with Islam. I’ve been struggling with it more recently as I’ve grown up and developed as a person and found that there are aspects of Islam which war intensely with who I am and what I believe. But then there’s also my unfailing love of God which has stayed the same and I don’t think it’ll ever change. So in terms of challenges it’s trying to reconcile the person I am with my religion and whether that’s even possible x (if I get any hate messages about this I will block you immediately)

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and i don't know how it's happened again but i love you and im sorry taste the same in my mouth

don’t say it again until ‘i love you’ tastes like ‘i’m home’

"Don’t let what he wants eclipse what you need. He is very dreamy, but he is not the sun. You..."

“Don’t let what he wants eclipse what you need. He is very dreamy, but he is not the sun. You are.”

- Cristina Yang || Grey’s Anatomy

Stop sending yourself compliments, my love.

Hahahaha you’ve outed me, I’m so embarrassed, how will I ever return from this.

I'm not sure which I desire more: to be more like you or be with you. Either way you are magnificent and so is your talent as a writer and I hope you are doing well.

You’re such a darling, I love how earnest this message is! Thank you, I hope you’re having a wonderful day x

"Please, I need you to love me a little louder today."

“Please, I need you to love me a little louder today.”

- Azra.T.