Azra Tabassum's Blog, page 147

i would use your picture if i ever wanted to create a fake online account to impress people tbh i don't know why anyone wouldn't want to look like you

I mean as compliments go, this is a fairly terrifying one but thank you?!

why is being 17 such an odd span of time?

I don’t know, I came out of the sea fully formed so

"Nothing worthwhile was without risk. You had to decide whether your feelings were strong enough to..."

“Nothing worthwhile was without risk. You had to decide whether your feelings were strong enough to make it a risk worth taking.”

- Mhairi McFarlane

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"He said, “I never want to pull out of you” and I think I fell in love. What a fucked up thing to..."

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He said, “I never want to pull out of you”

and I think I fell in love. What a fucked up thing to do.

And this wasn’t supposed to be a fucked up poem

but it’s turning into a fucked up poem

because I haven’t been able to cum in three years

without thinking of your hips sliding into mine: like first base,

like second base, like third base,

like home.

”

- "The Most Magnificent Pastime", Trista Mateer

You should know how amazing you are, you are incredibly talented. Take it further. In ten years time I want to see you famous. You give me hope. xx

Thank you baby! Tbh I wanna be famous too if only so I can make sure my parents are settled, buy a few dozen cats and dogs and live in a cottage with this bearded bloke who I’m soft for

How do you get over the love of your life taping you?

Taping you? I don’t know what you mean baby. Is this a typo? If somebody raped you or took videos of you without your consent then they weren’t the love of your life. Foundations of relationships, good ones, are built on trust. Not pushing you to do things you’ve explicitly said you don’t feel comfortable doing. Not using excessive force. Respecting your boundaries. Whatever they did, I’m sorry. I hope that you heal. xx

"The God’s honest truth is this: I wanted to ruin you. It was selfish and it was delicious. I..."

“The God’s honest truth is this:

I wanted to ruin you. It was selfish and it was delicious.

I wanted you to pick out the bones of me from between your teeth for years after I happened to you.

And I did happen to you. We made sure of that, didn’t we?

Happened like the aftermath of some gruesome accident, it was so bloody and raw that you had to stop to look, didn’t you? And then you couldn’t take your eyes off it.

It was inside of you for as long as you could remember.

Then you had nightmares about all of that ugliness for days.

That was how I wanted you, half thrilled and half terrified that you were never going to forget what it looked like.

That it would be a splinter that never worked itself out of your skin and you’d feel it whenever you brushed against somebody else.

And why should you? When I loved you like that.

How could you forget?

My body so full that if the ocean tried to take me, the only thing that would come back up to shore was you. Or a bag full of bones curled around the shape of your name.

I loved you like how an abscessed tooth beats at the root, incessant and painful and raw.

I would have swallowed the entire Earth whole if you’d asked me to.

I would have taken the sky by the corners and ripped it away from the horizon.

So yes, it was the hungriest I’d ever been.

It was the most glorious I’d ever been, with you like that

stomach like a furnace, stomach like a hungry pride of lions.

Point me in the direction of any God you know and I’ll tell him,

I’ll get on my knees and beg him to never let you go,

‘I want to ruin that man. I don’t want him to ever forget me.’”

- Azra.T ”Prideful of Lions”   (via elizabethtudors)

i am so intensely affected by the elastic heart video and i keep watching it over and over to try...

i am so intensely affected by the elastic heart video and i keep watching it over and over to try and figure out why that is because it’s clearly not a good relationship between the two, it’s not a healthy portrayal of a father daughter bond but the moments between them, when he’s about to escape the cage and then stays because she’s crumpled on the floor, how he nearly touches her and she flinches away, in the end when she tries to wrench him from the cage, those little tender in between moments which barely exist, it’s so strange, it’s such a captivating visual

"I meant skies all empty aching blue. I meantyears. I meant all of them with you."

“I meant skies all empty aching blue. I meant

years. I meant all of them with you.”

- Kate Clanchy, excerpt from Perhaps Patagonia