Azra Tabassum's Blog, page 12

Hey. It’s me. It’s been awhile since we’ve talked but I wanted to tell you about where I am in life. I’m not really writing poetry anymore, which is something I’ve come to terms with. I left DC and am currently halfway through a program to get my masters i

Hi Alex, that’s amazing! I’m glad you’re doing better. You were such a shy little sunflower when we met. I’ve not written poetry in ages either, I miss it, I feel like I’m losing it somehow. Keep on, you can make your weaknesses your strengths if you love them hard enough.

It's me again - I'm still watching Friends. You said you haven't read anything that's moved you in months, may I send you something?

Yes of course.

Just saw a cat stand up to sniff a plant (in his own back garden), get startled, flail about and...

Just saw a cat stand up to sniff a plant (in his own back garden), get startled, flail about and fall over backwards. Wow.

Your writing makes me feel less alone - you know that feeling? Richard Siken changed my life, I know every line of every Friends episode and I think we'd be good friends. Your words are like the sunlight breaking through the blinds, they make you want to g

I feel very little these days. Nothing excessive. I cried a lot a few months ago, so much so that I let it all out. I feel an unwavering sense of love that stays as it is. I’m always stressed. I rewatched Friends from the beginning for a millionth time. I’ve not read poetry that moved me in months. I miss my friends, they’re so far away. Who are you?

what do you think about open relationships? could you be in one?

I think people are different and that’s cool but no, I couldn’t.

Hi, I have feel a silent follower of yours for a couple of years now. Your writings have been able to transmit all the feelings that consume me multiple times and for that I am forever thankful. Thinking of you somewhere in the light xx you deserve everyth

You lovely sunbeam. Thank you.

How did you meet your love azra?

We met here. In the most inconspicuous of ways. Almost unbelievable how the world conspires to bring the unlikeliest people together.

How long were you in a long distance relationship before you got together in person? And was it everything you thought it would be?

We were in a long distance relationship for 9 months before I moved to be with him. In hindsight that isn’t very long but felt absolutely like forever, as though every minute was just full of yearning. As for it being everything that I hoped it would be, yes and no. Sometimes he drives me insane, sometimes I’m bored out of my head. It’s sort of… just life isn’t it?

It’s very strange have been in a long distance relationship and then being with the one who was so...

It’s very strange have been in a long distance relationship and then being with the one who was so far from you. You never stop being grateful for it. For that gap being closed and that gulf disappearing. Sometimes it’s so boring, most of the time we do every day things we could do apart. We make dinner, we wash dishes, we eat takeaways in front of Netflix. But sometimes, you remember how it felt. That longing for closeness, to be near your best friend and share your day and your worries and your life. And then you’re just taken aback that you’re here, that you get to hold their hand and touch their face whenever you want. That normality is so important, such a gift. It’s fucking magnificent.

I miss writing so much, I need somebody to punch me in the face once a day and tell me to write.

I miss writing so much, I need somebody to punch me in the face once a day and tell me to write.