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So strongly looking into Peace Corp or...

Due to recent events, named depression, I have decided to start looking into major life changes today.

Today I have been looking into Peace Corp or the habitat for humanity out of the country.

I am also considering applying for teaching English in Japan or South American or Spain.

I think it’s time to be the wondering nomad I am. I have to admit I rather hate living in the state of IL. I have never been a fan.

So, with all that said, life changes here we go.

A picture that describes how I feel.

A picture that describes how I feel.

"‘Cause ya know, somewhere insideI cannot findThe feeling I got from youNo, somewhere insideI..."

““‘Cause ya know, somewhere inside

I cannot find

The feeling I got from you

No, somewhere inside

I cannot find

The feeling I got from you””

- Childish Gambino.

"You are the bestest, I will obey you”These words I wrote for you when you were fuckin’ other..."

““You are the bestest, I will obey you”

These words I wrote for you when you were fuckin’ other dudes

The only thing I need from you now is some solitude

Actions over words, “girls will be girls,” that’s all it proves

I used to be this guy sittin’ with an open heart

Now my computer screen’s the only place I feel a spark””

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Be Alone - Childish Gambino

I am a huge Childish Gambino fan, but this week his music/lyrics have taken on a special significance.

This song is exceptional for the line: “Still not a...

This song is exceptional for the line: “Still not a player, I just crush a lot.”

It’s like he is deciding to change what words mean so this chorus — because it’s the chorus of the song, sure, why not —no longer means “Girl, don’t you worry, I have had a lot of sex, but you won’t be another girl for me.” Let’s be honest, this is basically what he is saying. Instead, he Houdinis meaning somehow into that line so it means “I wont cheat on you girl, but I do fuck a lot. And like, I mean A LOT.”

And...

Inferiority Complex

“the feeling of inferiority is highly intensified to the degree that the child believes that he will never be able to compensate for his weakness”

TWO FREE KINDLE BOOKS THIS WEEKEND (6/9-6/10)

To celebrate the release of the novelNira/Sussa, its publisher, Martian Lit, has decided to make two Kindle singles by me free this weekend.

The first, entitled The Slave Factory, is a story of the slave trade told in 12 brief chapters, with interwoven narratives that come together to tell a devastating story about how we oppress ourselves and each other. It’s about 15,000 words and on Kindle here.

The second is its just-released follow-up, Shedding Skin: Two Tales of Horror and Identity....

Dig Doug, Day 2 | Martian Lit

Dig Doug, Day 2 | Martian Lit:

The second part, of three, for my short story Dig Doug. It is a slightly psychedelic story about the secrets we hide.

"That feeling of having to obey every impulse and gratify every desire seems to me to be a strange..."

“That feeling of having to obey every impulse and gratify every desire seems to me to be a strange kind of slavery. Nobody talks about it as such, though.”

- David Foster Wallace (via possible-leakage)

Sleeping can be a form of emotional escape and can, with sustained effort, be abused.