Maranda Russell's Blog, page 15

Poetry Picture – Average

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Poetry – Dream Girl

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You look like the girl
in my dream last night -
hungry for a new name,
one to be called out
at the stroke of midnight
by those about to draw
their last tattered breath.

You always did want
to hold the dark power.

Poetry – Urban Decay

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The glove lay on the ground
abandoned.
The graffiti on the walls cried foul
in color.
The cracked windows of tenements
blacked out.
A neighborhood of souls in despair
entombed.

Poetry – Claustrophobia

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In the darkened bedroom
I keep the curtains open
just a slit
to tone down
and tune out
the claustrophobia.

Quotation Contest – Just a Dream…

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The above is one of the quotes I came up with to enter into an art and quotation contest. The quotations all had to be about diversity/making the world a better place/ending mistreatment like bullying and abuse. I’ve never entered a “quotation” contest before, so thought it would be something new to try!

Let me know what you think! Do you like the quote?

When Meds are the Problem…

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Ironically enough, someone commented on my last post about how maybe some of the drugs I’m on are part of the problem with my digestive issues recently. They were right about part of it at least. Turns out the stomach pain and nausea (and possibly some of the constipation) were caused by all the NSAIDS they had been giving me for the migraines lately. The toradol shots, the ibuprofen and naproxen I was told were safer than the other pain relievers when it comes to rebound headaches, etc.

So, now it seems I’ve developed ulcers and gastritis. Yikes. No more NSAIDS for me, at least for right now. They also found a hiatal hernia, but didn’t know if that was actively causing any problems at this point as it didn’t look very big yet.

So, now I’m just chilling out at home, eating bland foods, watching horror movies on tv, reading on my new Kindle Fire, and letting my body heal.

Bad Week with IBS-C and New Drugs

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Warning: Gross poop talk.

This past week has been a digestive nightmare. I went to the doctor last week about my recent migraine issues and we also discussed the worsening of my IBS. I used to have IBS-D (diarrhea), but lucky me switched over a few years to IBS-C (constipation). It is an ongoing issue that is made worse whenever I have to take a lot of painkillers and certain other medications (like many of the ones I take for migraines and the symptoms they bring on).

Before you ask, I do all the stuff you are supposed to do. High fiber, prunes, stool softeners, milk of magnesia, walking, gentle yoga, and I’ve tried other things like Miralax which I didn’t like and didn’t work well for me. So anyhow, the doctor put me on Linzess, which is a medicine made specifically for IBS-C.

The first day I took it, it worked well for what it was supposed to do, but it also gave me a high fever, horrible all-day nausea, extreme dizziness, stomach and bowel pain, and fighting off vomiting. At the doctor’s recommendation, I quit taking it. We are scheduling another appointment to discuss other options. So since then it was another 4 days of bad constipation and then I took an OTC laxative because I couldn’t take it anymore and when I took that it caused another day of nausea, dizziness, stomach pain, and wanting to vomit (none of which is normal for me with an OTC laxative). At least I didn’t have a fever this time.

Now I’m staring to worry maybe something more is wrong than just the IBS. I hope not, but I generally know how my body reacts to things, and it worries me when that changes.

Poetry – American Death

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I worry
every day
about the death
of America,
and every day
I watch her die
a little bit more.

Poetry – Modernity

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You've now been
baptized
circumcized
sterilized
traumatized
hypnotized
actualized
monetized
computerized
privatized
subsidized
economized
commercialized

Wordless Wednesday – She Said What?! (Digital Art)

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