Michael Kindt's Blog, page 72

Why do I hate people so? Dr. Boring wants to know.

Dr. Boring isn’t his real name. He’s not descended from miners or anything.

And I tell him I don’t hate people, I just can’t relate to them. I can’t talk to them unless I’m writing.

You know those people who can’t talk, for whatever reason, and they scribble out notes and hand them to people? Yeah, that seems perfect to me.

Dr. Boring says I’m anti-social.

Why? Because I can’t relate to people and prefer to be alone? What a crock.

Haha, but maybe he’s right. But maybe that’s ok. I have never really had great experiences with real live people. I have had my women and money stolen by real live people on several occasions. If you allow yourself to become vulnerable, you automatically get hurt. Every time.

I mentioned in an earlier post how science was repeatable.

People at a distance. Especially female ones. I am the reason prostitution was invented. I want sexual contact, but not a woman around all the time to steal my heart and then break it..

Dr. Boring shakes his head sadly and ups my prescription.

Hey, at least I’m gettin’ fucked up….

So we had a Superbowl party here at the nut hut.

It consisted of a lot of cheesy dishes and dips and no alcohol.

I’m not even a football fan. I’ve always been more hockey and baseball. Especially baseball, due to my son. I signed him up for t-ball when he was 6, took cute pictures, and it was all downhill from there. He ended up playing it his whole youth. He is a lifelong Cubs fan (which makes me one as well), and probably didn’t even know there was a Superbowl going on.

But that’s what we did here at the mental health care facility: watch the Superbowl and eat cheese and not drink alcohol.

I really missed the alcohol, but did enjoy the game. I prefer defense over offense in anything. Pitching over hitting (my son was a pitcher). Goalies over Gretzkys. There’s just something nastier about it, more ‘fuck you’, and this Superbowl was all about the defense. Plus, due to the area I come from, and much of my family, so on, I’m genetically engineered to be a Broncos fan, at least if I happen to be watching them.

Anyway. Today the tv will be turned back to CSI: Duluth or whatever and I will be back to doing crossword puzzles and wishing I was in a remote Alaskan cabin.

Where do you shop for your silk boxers?

I have never shopped for silk boxers. The one pair I have were given to me by a woman. I do not wear them because they give me wood. Every step I take it’s like “Oh, baby.”

What'd you do to get thrown in the looney bin? Who's taking care of your dogs? Hope you feel better soon.

I feel fine. I got thrown into the looney bin because of the Pepsi Incident. They are in the care of my sister and her husband.

Police Escort...Understood. If I could, I'd thank the last pair of cops that arrested me. I was tired of being a functional drunk, as I called it. Perhaps, more so, I was tired of going to jail. But I digress. I'm sure you'll have some insightful stories t

My problem is that I don’t believe in psychology. I am a psychology atheist. I believe in animal behaviorism, because that is scientific and repeatable.

If you can’t repeat it, it isn’t science. Remember the recent study where they re-did a bunch of famous psychology experiments? Only a small fraction yielded the same results. Not repeatable; not science.

A friend and I were talking about acupuncture, how it’s an ancient and respected practice. How it works for many people. How it may be, like psychology, a pseudo-science. But we concluded: Whatever works. Maybe it’s the placebo effect, maybe it’s real, but who cares if it’s working?

This is why psychology will never work for me. I simply don’t believe that it will.

Police Escort...Understood. If I could, I'd thank the last pair of cops that arrested me. I was tired of being a functional drunk, as I called it. Perhaps, more so, I was tired of going to jail. But I digress. I'm sure you'll have some insightful stories t

My problem is that I don’t believe in psychology. I am a psychology atheist. I believe in animal behaviorism, because that is scientific and repeatable.

If you can’t repeat it, it isn’t science. Remember the recent study where they re-did a bunch of famous psychology experiments? Only a small fraction yielded the same results. Not repeatable; not science.

A friend and I were talking about acupuncture, how it’s an ancient and respected practice. How it works for many people. How it may be, like psychology, a pseudo-science. But we concluded: Whatever works. Maybe it’s the placebo effect, maybe it’s real, but who cares if it’s working?

This is why psychology will never work for me. I simply don’t believe that it will.

Cam Newton be like "Holy shit, an actual defense!"

Have a seat, Cam. On a side note, I thought the placement of Beyonce’s zipper was unfortunate. If you’re gonna put a zipper there, at least don’t make it shiny. It was like attack of the vagina zipper. The flashbacks to earlier halftime shows was the best thing about the halftime show. It was like “remember when we used to have real music?” Also, I would like to thank Peyton for showing up. Say what you will about the man, but he’s nothing if not punctual. Hopefully he will do the opposite of Metallica and retire with grace. I did actually think it was a good nitty gritty smash mouth game. MVP DENVER D!

"Thinking up goofy shit and coming around every once in a while to let you know what it is."

“Thinking up goofy shit and coming around every once in a while to let you know what it is.”

- the job description of a comedian, according to George Carlin

Are you in rehab against your will? It sounds like you are, but for all I know, the conversation you're having with "us" might be with yourself. I wish you well whatever the case maybe.

I’m not in rehab, that’s the other side of the building. I am in, according to the pamphlets “a mental health care facility.”

I came in, initially, against my will, via the police. I am now here voluntarily. I can leave at any time, but I’m not gonna. Oh no.

So there are group sessions, which are pretty much meaningless,...

So there are group sessions, which are pretty much meaningless, and there are one-on-one sessions, which are certainly meaningless.

We talk about my drinking and I always point out how I haven’t had a swallow in weeks, but apparently I have a drinking problem.

Yeah, like no fucking booze. Hello.

How often did I drink in the civilian world?

Almost daily. Six days a week, to be sure.

Is that normal?

It felt pretty damn normal to me. Notice all the people I haven’t killed.

But drinking every day, doesn’t that seem excessive?

Compared to what?

… .

And yet they got all these people eating psych drugs. It’s like if you were a lettuce farmer, growing your own lettuce out in the backyard, and somebody in a white coat comes along, carrying a regulated, more expensive head of lettuce, and tells you you got a lettuce problem so you need to eat his lettuce to cure it.

Dude, I went to business school. I can see this shit a mile away.

Also, apparently, I have a lot of anger.

Yer damn straight. I live in this world, don’t I?

I always thought psychology was a joke, but being in close contact with it really drives it home.