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WARNING****CONTAINS SEXUAL CONTENT AND EXPLICIT LANGUAGE****

Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival took 40 + years to complete. Each time I sat down to write, the memories became overwhelming and I couldn't continue.

For years I tried to write my story as fiction, denying those things happened to me. But, the fiction didn't work. I wasn't telling the truth and truth meant so much to me. I’d lived a life full of nothing but hurt and lies, so how could I tell my story if it was all a lie?

I tried to clean up the language, but that also didn't work. I finally realized I had to keep the words I heard day in and day out, and I had to keep the events as I remembered, partly to keep the truth in my story, but also because there is no way to “sugarcoat” child abuse.

Still I struggled to write what had happened to me. Totally frustrated, I decided to change my name. Everyone else had a different name to protect their identity, so why shouldn't I have a different name, too? Of course, I never expected to publish what I was doing. I was writing to find healing and forgiveness for myself. I was sick and tired of living a life full of hate. For years I had so much hate toward the ones who hurt me, and that hate was destroying any chance of me finding happiness.

By changing my name to Sarah I found I was able to pull back and look at what I was writing through Sarah’s eyes. I was then able to face everything that had happened to me. My Sarah was like an imaginary friend guiding me to do what I knew I had to do.

Deep down I always knew I needed to talk about what happened. I needed to admit I was a survivor of child abuse. I needed to find a path toward healing my shame. Yes, shame. I blamed myself for what happened. I felt ashamed and I felt dirty. I felt I was a “bad” kid and that’s why Daddy, his brother and so many more did those things to me.

However, with Sarah’s help, I was able to look at my feelings. I was able to face all the horrible things done to me. But no matter what went down in black and white, I thought I still loved my father. And I hated myself for that! Over the years as more and more memories returned, I began to hate him even more than I hated myself for loving him.

The things he did to me; the things he allowed others to do to me, were unforgivable.

A parent is supposed to protect their children, not hurt them or abuse them. I had to face the fact that my father wasn't one of the good parents. He was cruel. He only cared about himself and his own needs that he forced me to fulfill. Once I faced up to the fact of who my father really was, amazingly, I stopped hating him.

When I finally finished writing about my horrific life, I found what I needed. With the hate gone from my heart my life began to improve so much that I knew I couldn't keep my story to myself any longer. I prayed by sharing what happened to me it would help others survivors still suffering. I hoped it would help save another child from abuse. What happened to me was extreme abuse, but it doesn't take extreme to mess up a kid’s head.

Not long after my book came out, my prayers were answered. I received a message from a reader after she’d finished my first book. I learned all the pain I had to relive during the writing was worth it, because one survivor came forward. She had been helped! She found her path toward healing!

By reading what happened to me, she realized she was not alone and healing was possible for her, too. Today she is living the life she’d been denied for so long. She is happy, maybe for the first time in her life.

Since that first message I have received many more messages thanking me for having the courage to tell my story; thanking me for helping them.

I've also received messages from people who didn't know the damages child abuse could do to a kid until they read my heartbreaking story. These people are now more aware of the children around them. They are aware of the signs that a child is possibly being abused. They can now help prevent child abuse just from their knowledge learned by reading my story.

Hearing these fantastic stories from my readers met what I originally hoped and prayed to achieve by sharing my life, but I have received so much more than I asked for in the beginning. I have received the best gift of all — everyone of these wonderful people who contacted me are now lifelong friends. What more could I ask for?

To learn more about my story, please visit my website. Read the bitter memories series, then tell others about my story. By you helping spread the word, knowledge will change the lives of so many still suffering; so many still being abused.

Please help make my other dream come true. Join me to help prevent other children from having to learn what child abuse feels like. Together we can make a difference in a child’s life.

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My World - My Life - My Journey

Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival (first in the series)

I was only three years old when my life changed, forever.

Plagued by horrendous nightmares since I was a little girl, I used those terrifying times to help me tell my story as I wrote what I believe is the actual truth of what all happened from the time I was two years old until finally found by the FBI and then rescued by my mother, a woman I no longer remembered.

My story is about extreme child abuse, but it doesn't take extreme to push a child over the breaking point where they think about, or even take their own life. Before I found my path toward healing I attempted suicide many times. However, it doesn't have to be this way! I was lucky to have survived at all, as you will learn when you read my story.

I probably could have written this without all the details, but why hide the facts? I set out to tell my story, my way, and while writing this book, many times I felt like I was in a trance. I wrote from the heart, not from my head, and many times I wrote from the heart of the child, exposing how I actually felt at the time.

Please take this journey with me as I bring to light the horrors in this gripping account of my early life — a life on the run, hungry, terrified and abused — and then continue the journey by reading the other books in this series: Drowning In Memories, Cutter's Revenge and From The Heart: A Collection of Poems and Stories.

For my fiction fans, Trophy Murders mixes truth with fiction for an exciting action-packed crime story about a gang of serial killers as I continue the journey after going to live with Uncle Henry (the cop) and his heavy-handed wife, Olivia. A life, by the way, I wouldn't wish on any kid!
NOTE: Cutter's Revenge is more fiction than truth, but this book puts a nice ending to many years of tragedy. It is a must read in the series.

Enter my world — if you dare!

WARNING****CONTAINS SEXUAL CONTENT AND EXPLICIT LANGUAGE****

You can find all these books on my website:
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MEMORIES AROUND EVERY TURN

Tonight's blog is very short because I'm a bit under the weather and I need to go back to bed so I'll feel better soon...I hope!

It seems like memories just keep coming back with each book written. At least most of what I've been remembering lately are good things, or somewhat good things.

I don't know if there will be enough that come back for another memoir, but I'm working on another book, just in case.

And this is it for tonight. Please visit my website to learn about all the books currently available, and if you grab a few that would be nice too. If you've already read my book/s, and if you have the time, I'd really appreciate a positive review if you liked what you read and learned about me so far.

Off to bed now. Good night my friends and fans! I appreciate each and every one of you.

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About the Author

Born in Dallas, Texas, kidnapped by my father when I was three years old, I began my writing career as a means of escape from emotional scars, pain, and repetitive nightmares from my childhood.

I wrote my first poem when I was 9 years old about my mother, the same night after her funeral. About two years later I began writing my first novel, a sci-fi, while still in grade school.

With only one chapter to go, my aunt found the manuscript hidden in the back of my closet, under a box of old clothes. Without reading it, she called it garbage, a waste of time and paper, then she forced me to watch as she tore it up and threw it in the trash.

I was so devastated I gave up writing until after I'd left home at age 18. I then continued to write poetry for several years. My main problem was: I couldn't write a poem to save my life unless depressed, which really wasn't a problem back in the early to mid young adult days. The words seemed to flow freely back then.

Fighting for many, many years I struggled constantly to tackle my childhood demons. I wrote my first full-length non-fiction book, Bitter Memories A Memoir of Heartache & Survival, about my memories after the kidnapping, the death of my mother (for the second time), going to live with her brother and his wife, and more.

Not stopping there, I wrote book 2 in the series, Trophy Murders for my fiction fans and Drowning In Memories for my non-fiction fans. Cutter's Revenge, #3 ends the series, mixing truth with fiction to bring a close in a way I wanted to "pretend" my life had turned out. Fiction and non-fiction fans both should like Cutter's story as it allows me "safe" revenge toward a few who hurt me over the years.

Although I decided not to include my book of poetry in the bitter memories series, it could be part of it. From that first poem written at age 9 — plus 14 more poems — I expose feelings never shared before from various times in my life. Included are short clips that inspired the writing of each poem.

Just for fun I wrote a fantasy story, The Rose, that "kids" of all ages should like.

I live in Nevada with my husband of 20 years, two dogs, a cat and a bird. Despite the life I write about, after winning my battle against haunting memories and demons, today I am very happy! I enjoy the outdoors (when it's not too cold or too hot), and I love to read anything with a good story line and interesting characters.

As for writing: Well, that's in my blood. I live to write and I write to live.

When writing that next story for my fantastic friends/fans, unless reminded, I find forgetting to eat very easy to do. When words are still rattling around in my head I just have to keep writing until I'm literally falling out of my chair. Of course, this is typical in the life of a writer — and I love my life!

To learn more about me and my books please visit my website for more information.

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A Look Inside the Series

The Bitter Memories series starts with the “do not talk about” subject of child abuse. While some people refuse to admit children are abused, within a dysfunctional, abusive family, what goes on there is a forbidden subject — always.

Being a survivor of extreme child abuse I don’t remember many happy times growing up. I do remember the bitterness I felt and the heartache on a daily basis.

Still, no matter how badly I was treated, I always had this fight inside of me. I was determined to survive — no matter how badly I was treated.
WARNING****CONTAINS SEXUAL CONTENT AND EXPLICIT LANGUAGE****

The "original" second in the series, Trophy Murders, written for my fiction fans, continues my story after going to live with Uncle Henry (the cop) and his heavy-handed wife, Olivia. A life, by the way, I wouldn't wish on any kid!

Remembering possible murders from my childhood, I needed to bring these memories (or nightmares) into focus, while still giving my uncle, the cop, an important role.

Exposing more about my life after the kidnapping, dear Uncle Henry fights his own battles — not only with the secrets and lies he’s kept hidden for so many years, but I give him a gang of serial killers to deal with. Will he bring this gang to justice? Will I find my answers to the dark memories of death from my nightmares?

Drowning In Memories, the non-fiction second in the series, tosses out all the fictional parts from Trophy Murders. Written in two parts, Part One continues my life after going to live with my uncle, the cop, and his heavy-handed wife.

Part Two goes into detail about my mother's sister, who I ended up living with and running away from, and of a time I literally ran from an abusive husband with nothing but my Siamese cat and what clothes I could fit into a paper sack, finding I was happier than I'd ever been in my life.

I also get to know my big brother who I'd seen once but never met or talked to in book one.

Dedicated to my brother John, this book also includes a bonus story, a very special tribute to a wonderful man who gave me hope to go on after a suicide attempt. This man actually changed the direction of my life.

Cutter’s Revenge, the last in the series, was when I decided I'd had enough. I wanted a pound of revenge! And I wanted some happiness in my life!

Introducing another serial killer for my uncle to battle, he continues to struggle with his secrets and lies that he knows will destroy him if he doesn't confess, but he also believes if I learn the truth it could destroy me.

There’s a lot more to Cutter than meets the eye, but with Cutter’s help in this twisted tale of terror, I get my revenge. Cutter’s Revenge is unrelentingly suspenseful.

After Midnight, available on Kindle as a single, is part two in Drowning In Memories while One In A Million, also available as a single, is the bonus story.

Discover all eight of my current books by visiting my website where you can read the full descriptions of each one.

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KIDNAPPED! A true story

Cover art by Gary McCluskey

Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival is not an easy book to read. It is a true story of a little girl (me) kidnapped by her father, living a life on the run, hungry, abused and terrified... I do not “sugarcoat” child abuse, therefore be prepared for EXPLICIT LANGUAGE (words heard daily), and SEXUAL CONTENT.

Cover art by Barbara Pack

Drowning In Memories (Bitter Memories series, #2) continues many memories that were not all bad. Told in two parts: Bitter Tasting Memories, part one; After Midnight, part two (dedicated to my big brother), and a bonus short story, One In A Million: A True Story of Friendship.

Cover art by Gary McCluskey

Second in the series, written for my fiction fans, delves into my vivid imagination to deliver an action-packed crime story while mixing in some truth to continue the journey from Bitter Memories after going to live with Uncle Henry (the cop) and his heavy-handed wife, Olivia. NOTE: For the true story with no fiction added, see Drowning In Memories.

Cover art by Gary McCluskey

Cutter's Revenge (Bitter Memories, # 3) continues after my adoption, again mixing truth with fiction, but anyone who’s read the other books will know instantly what’s true and what's not in this story.

While another fictionalized serial killer stalks our little town, I write my story the way it could have been if ... turning tragedy into a fantastic, exciting read! Cutter’s Revenge is unrelentingly suspenseful. ENTER CUTTER'S WORLD and enjoy a bit of "revenge" with me.

Trophy Murders and Cutter’s Revenge are both filled with action, suspense, drama, secrets, a love story, and more, My fictional crimes are a bit twisted and sadistic, but this makes for an exciting, sit-on-the-edge-of-the-chair read! Enjoy!

Cover art by Barbara Pack

From the Heart: A Collection of Poems and Stories includes fifteen poems written from various events in my life with short stories that inspired the writing of each poem. The audio version is totally awesome!

Cover art by Barbara Pack

The Rose: A Tale of Fantasy is a heartwarming story for all ages; a perfect story for the inner child.

Hollymae is a girl with a special gift and powers she isn't aware of yet. When she learns the animals of the forest that she loves so dearly are in danger, Hollymae must save her animal friends from sure death.

Cover art by Barbara Pack

One In A Million: A True Story of Friendship is about an amazing young man who changed the direction my life was heading.

After my attempted suicide I met David, another patient on the psych ward suffering from deep depression. However, David had a good reason to be depressed.

David began to show me life through his eyes while we helped each other deal with spirals of emotions, good and bad.

David truly was One In A Million. This is the bonus story included in Drowning In Memories.

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Kidnapped! My Personal Story of Horror

Bitter Memories, a memoir told from the heart, is the true story of my early life after being kidnapped by my father. I was only three years old, living a life on the run, hungry, terrified and abused. The names in this horrifying, unforgettable story have been changed to protect the innocent, and the guilty, but the events are factual Bitter Memories is a heartfelt journey into the world of extreme child abuse, but also the will to survive. Explicit and unnerving, Bitter Memories is not a cozy, feel-good book.
WARNING****CONTAINS SEXUAL CONTENT AND EXPLICIT LANGUAGE****

Drowning In Memories, a memoir written in two parts, is the story my fans have waited for. Part One continues my life after going to live with my uncle, the cop, and his heavy-handed wife. Part Two goes into detail about my mother's sister, who I ended up living with and running away from, and of a time I literally ran from an abusive husband with nothing but my Siamese cat and what clothes I could fit into a paper sack, finding I was happier than I'd ever been in my life. I also get to know my big brother who I'd never met in book one. This book is dedicated to my brother, John. Included is a bonus story, a very special tribute to a wonderful man who gave me hope to go on after my last suicide attempt. This man changed the direction of my life.

Cutter's Revenge, the last in the series, is very little truth mixed with some awesome crime fiction to complete the series in a way I wanted my story to end by getting a pound of revenge for some who hurt me. Pure evil lives in Cutter's Revenge!

For my fiction fans, this book is for you! Trophy Murders, based on the true story, is the realistic fiction sequel that continues my story from Bitter Memories, mixing truth in with an exciting gang of serial killers that bring terror around every turn. Truth: My repeated nightmares takes Henry to the prison to talk to my father. He wants answers, but will my father tell him the truth?

Please visit my website to read the full descriptions on each book, plus my other books available.

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What Would You Do?

If you’ve been keeping up with my blog, or if you’ve read my books, have you taken a few minutes to think about what you would do if you knew of, or suspected, a child was being abused?

Would you turn your head and look the other way? Would you bury your head in the sand, and say: “It’s not my problem.” Or, would you step up to the plate and call the police to save a child?

If you saw a child in a car all alone, parked in a lot or behind a junk yard, what would you do?

We all know leaving a child (or an animal) inside a car during the hot summer months, with or without the windows cracked open, isn’t something to do since it doesn’t take very long for the inside temperature of a car to rise and suck the life right out a child or an animal.

But what about the winter months or at night? Sure, the car isn’t going to become an inferno of heat, but what about the cold? What about that scared little child (or that animal) inside a car, shivering, unable to get warm?

I was very lucky my father didn’t leave me in the car during the hot summer heat (that I can remember), but he did leave me so many times in the car while he went off to have his fun with some woman he’d picked up. I didn’t have warm clothes to wear. I didn’t even have a coat. All I had was a thin dress and an even thinner blanket. Nothing that would even come close to keeping me warm.

But the sad thing is: I know people saw me! I tried to stay out of sight, but people did see me, and not one person ever called the police.

Did they not care? Or, did they just not think? Or, did they think someone else would make that call?

If just one person had picked up the phone and made that one important call, I could have been saved from a life of misery and pain. For six long years I suffered heartache and sorrow and abuse! All because no one picked up the damn phone!

But my misery didn't end after the FBI found me. I lived for many more years still suffering because I didn't know how to change my life. I didn't know how to accept what had happened to me, or how to forgive myself for something that wasn't even my fault.

In my book, Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival, I talk openly about my life. As heartbreaking as it was to write, and as difficult as it is for readers to read, I had to tell what happened to me in order to help other survivors know they are not alone. But, I also wrote it so other people who never experienced abuse could learn what it’s like for a child living with abuse, neglect and hunger.

Even though my story is about extreme abuse, it will be similar to other stories of child abuse. But it doesn't take extreme to mess up a kid, forever!

Everyone needs to know how important it is to get involved. Don’t wait for someone else to do what you know should be done; to do what you know is right — because no one but you might do it!

If you haven’t thought about what you would do, take a few moments to think about it. If you’d seen me in that car, all alone, dirty, cold and scared, would you have called anyone to help me?

If you saw a child with bruises over and over again, or welts and/or cuts from a belt, would you call the police, and say: “There’s a child I suspect might be abused. Please check into it.”

Think about it. Would you?

It’s only with help from strangers that an abused child can be saved. They need you! They need everyone who suspects child abuse to care!

Just remember, YOU could be a lifesaver for that child. YOU could rescue that child from years and years of pain and sadness, from feelings that they are no good, that no one loves them, feelings that they are to blame for the way they are, or have been treated.

It’s not the child’s fault, but an abused child doesn’t know that! So please! Please be one of the people who cares. Be the one to step forward and save that child. After all, it is a precious, innocent child who will be helped.

Should you decide to read my story and learn from it, there is no way to “sugarcoat” child abuse, therefore be prepared for strong adult language and explicit content because my life was a living Hell.

To learn more please head over to my website and read my books. Then tell others about my story so they too can learn, and hopefully, get involved when needed. Our children still suffering needs every single person to care, to get involved, to help change their lives of sorrow.

I want to take this opportunity to say thank you to everyone who has read my books and told others, and especially to the ones who have learned from my experiences and know they will not sit back while a child is being hurt, many times abused by people who claim to love them.

Bitter Memories: A Memoir Of Heartache & Survival. WARNING: **** CONTAINS SEXUAL CONTENT AND EXPLICIT LANGUAGE****

The other books in this series are: Drowning In Memories, Trophy Murders (for my fans who like a little crime fiction mixed with truth), and Cutter's Revenge that takes tragedy and turns it into an ending the way my fans and I wanted.

You can find all seven of my current books and the descriptions for each one on my website.

http://sj2448.wix.com/suejulsen

Coming tomorrow: After Midnight, #4 in the series, (which is also part two in Drowning In Memories will be available as a single on Amazon. I will add this book to the website as soon as I have time to get over there and set it up.

Scars of Abuse Run Deep

I watch them. Strangers walking down the street, smiling and laughing, and I wonder: What was their life like growing up? Did they have a normal life? Did their parents love them; tell them they were wanted? Were they told they were, and are, cherished?

As children, did they easily fit in with other kids, or go out of their way trying to fit in? Did they succeed, or were they laughed at? In a crowd, did they slink into a corner trying to be invisible? Did they get beatings—or whippings—or just grounded? Were they told how useless they were and they never should’ve been born?

As adults, do they have self-confidence or are they intimidated easily? Are they afraid to voice an opinion? Afraid of being ridiculed? Afraid of doing something wrong?

While watching these seemingly normal, happy men and women I wonder: Are their smiles are fake? Are they laughing outside, but crying inside?

Most of my life I cried inside while faking a smile. I felt alone. Unloved. Unwanted.

That dreadful night when my own father took me from my bed and drove away from the only home I’d ever known, I had no idea how much my life was going to change—forever.

Starting at age three, my life became filled with sorrow, neglect and abuse — a life no child should ever experience. Hurt time and again by people who claimed to love me, I grew up in the shadow of fear, uncertainty and hate.

Finding out just how bad things could get for an innocent little girl who just wanted to be cared for and loved, I lived life on the run, starving, abused and terrified. So terrified, in order to survive, I split into multiple personalities. The mind is a wonderful thing, and without the "others" to protect me I would not be here today.

All my life I tried to run from myself. I tried to forget the horrible things that had happened, but I couldn’t. I’d been left with deep scars from so many bitter memories, voices in my head, and nightmares. Horrendous nightmares that I felt sure would haunt me for the rest of my life.

Although unnerving, Bitter Memories is a gripping account of the extremes of abuse a child can undergo — and still manage to survive.

Written from the heart, taking on a life of its own, I relived those memories of heartache, sadness, extreme hunger, and intense fear in hopes of helping other adult survivors find a path toward healing their scars of abuse.

My story deals with explosive topics that former child victims of mental, physical, and sexual violence will understand.

My life was a living hell, one of extreme worst. But it doesn’t take extreme to mess up a child’s head. It doesn’t take extreme to drive a child beyond the breaking point.

Without professional help to deal with abuse issues, long term effects can include fear, anxiety, depression, anger, hostility, inappropriate sexual behavior, poor self esteem, tendency toward substance abuse and difficulty with close relationships.

Without help, abused kids continue to experience the trauma. Feelings of fear, insecurity, and a sense of hopelessness prevents the child from living a happy, fulfilled life. Many times, as I did, victims relive their abuse in recurring nightmares.

Pain of abuse is so intense, yet victims feel they can’t talk to anyone about the abuse. They are terrified of how society will react; they keep quiet to avoid being hurt further.

Abused children feel ashamed. They have low self esteem. In a crowd, they feel totally alone. As feelings of despair sets in; they believe the abuse was their fault; they’re being punished for being bad; life isn’t worth living.

When the pain inside becomes overwhelming, the victim is more likely to attempt suicide.

Child abuse, neglect and/or abduction are national epidemics. Sweeping it under the rug, or choosing to believe it doesn’t happen, won’t make it go away, nor does it change statistics: (1) Almost five children die daily from abuse in the United States. (2) Three million abuse reports — physical, emotional, sexual and/or neglect — are made every year. (3) It’s estimated nearly 10 million cases will go unreported. (4) It’s estimated 60 million survivors of childhood sexual abuse live in America today. (5) Girls are three times more likely to be sexually abused than boys, however, boys have a greater risk of emotional neglect and serious injury than girls.

It doesn’t matter how abuse is inflicted, it still leaves a lasting impression on the victim. Homes in which women are beaten are at greater risk of having abused children. Children who were abused, as much as they don’t want to, often subject their own children to abuse.

If you see, or even suspect a child is being abused, report it immediately. It would be better to be wrong, than to be right and do nothing, and you may help save a child from a lifetime of heartache.

All an abused child needs is a chance and an environment full of love and kindness to show them how truly important they are.

To read my full story please pick up a copy of Bitter Memories: A Memoir Of Heartache & Survival. WARNING: **** CONTAINS SEXUAL CONTENT AND EXPLICIT LANGUAGE****

The other books in this series are: Drowning In Memories, Trophy Murders (for my fans who like a little crime fiction mixed with truth), and Cutter's Revenge that takes tragedy and turns it into an ending the way I wanted.

You can find all seven of my current books and the descriptions for each one on my website.

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A SPECIAL OFFER FOR MY READERS

Announcement:
After tonight I will no longer post my blog on Sunday and Wednesday. Instead, I'll be posting each week on Monday (but not this Monday) and Friday. I look forward to seeing all of you right here again Friday night.

SPECIAL *** SPECIAL *** SPECIAL

There were only forty paperback copies printed with this cover art — and it was never made available to the public.
I only have TEN (10) copies left at this SPECIAL LOW PRICE for fans, friends and followers before Cutter's Revenge comes out with all new cover art that will be available to the public.

First Come:
$10.00 each + $5.95 (US only), and signed, of course. Sorry, but if outside the United States regular shipping rates for your country will apply.

This is a great deal since the $15.95 is a dollar cheaper than the price of the new paperback, before shipping!

If interested in grabbing a signed copy of Cutter's paperback with the very first cover before they're all gone (forever) please message me at: suejulsen.books@yahoo.com

To see Cutter's AWESOME new cover coming to paperback in about two weeks or less, please visit my website. It's already available in e-book!

Thanks everyone!

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