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DROWNING IN MEMORIES (BOOK 2 IN THE MEMORIES SERIES)

Not All Memories Are Bitter

Drowning In Memories is written in two parts: Bitter Tasting Memories, part one; After Midnight, part two, dedicated to my brother, plus a bonus short story, One In A Million: A True Story of Friendship.

Parts one and two continue the memories and the many mistakes I made along the way. This up and down ride includes fun times, not-so-fun times and sad times that came to mind during and after writing Bitter Memories.

Many secrets Uncle Henry kept hidden over the years are revealed. While trying to mend fences with Aunt Olivia I learned you never can go home again, at least I never could. John, who I didn’t know growing up, was an amazing big brother. With great pride I share some of our times together while getting to know each other.

One In A Million is a true story of friendship and love between two friends helping each other deal with spirals of emotions, good and bad. After an attempted suicide I met David, another patient on the psych ward suffering from deep depression. However, holding a heartbreaking secret, David had a good reason to be depressed.

Becoming instant friends, David shared his secret with me and ultimately changed the direction my life was heading. Showing me life through his eyes, this young man saw beauty in everything around him. David loved life. He only wanted to be there for his friends and to help others. But, no one could help David. No one could change what was to come for my dear friend.

I am a true crime, memoir, and crime fiction author. Most of my books are based on true events from my own life, or from stories shared by my friends. Some are heartbreaking, others are heartwarming.

You can find all my books on the website

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BITTER MEMORIES: A MEMOIR OF HEARTACHE & SURVIVAL (BOOK 1 IN THE MEMORIES SERIES)

Multiple personalities take over Sarah's
mind...only so they can protect her.

Abducted by her father when she was three years old, Sarah found herself in a world of criminal neglect and unfathomable oppression as her father, stepmother and many others perpetrated more and more horrible acts of verbal, mental and sexual abuse on the innocent girl.

Continually terrified, Sarah began to form separate personalities so that she herself did not have to face the hideous reality of her day to day life. Only in nightmares that the other personalities presented to her while she slept did Sarah have any hint about the horrific abuse she was being subjected to.

The personalities would block out time for Sarah and bear the horror of the experiences themselves so that their dear Sarah would not have to.

Although the names in this unforgettable story have been changed from those in real life, the horrors that occurred are factual. This tale of the author's early life on the run, dealing with hunger, fear and molestation, is a true and unnervingly gripping account of the extremes of neglect and mistreatment a child can undergo—and still survive.

Told from the heart, Bitter Memories is dedicated to all survivors of abuse and is written with the hope that exposing these horrors will help prevent them from happening to others, and that more survivors will find a path toward healing.

Contains adult language and sexually graphic content.

I am a true crime, memoir, and crime fiction author. Most of my books are based on true events from my own life, or from stories shared by my friends. Some are heartbreaking, others are heartwarming.

You can find all my books in this series plus more books on my website.

http://sj2448.wix.com/suejulsen

I WRITE TRUE CRIME, MEMOIR, CRIME FICTION, AND INSPIRATIONAL FICTION

I am a true crime, memoir, inspirational fiction, and crime fiction author.

Most of my books are based on true events from my own life, or from stories shared by my friends.

Some are heartbreaking, others are heartwarming.

Please visit my website see all my books, the formats available and links to order.

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TRUE CRIME - CRIME FICTION - INSPIRATIONAL FICTION & MORE

I am a true crime, memoir, crime fiction, and inspirational fiction author. Most of my books are based on true events from my own life, or from stories shared by my friends. Some are heartbreaking, others are heartwarming.

Please visit my website to see all my books, the formats available and links to order.

Autographed copies of all paperbacks are also available. Send a message from the contact page on the website for more information or to order your signed copy or copies.

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THE REVENGE SERIES

I am a true crime, personal memoir, crime fiction, and inspirational fiction author. Most of my books are based on true events from my own life, or from stories shared by my friends. Some are heartbreaking, others are heartwarming.

I hope you'll enjoy the Revenge Series featured here as much as I enjoyed writing it. **NOTE: Although inspired from true events, these three stories are 95% pure fiction.

Trophy Murders, Book 1 in the Revenge Series

A TOWN TERRORIZED…FAMILY SECRETS…YEARS OF LIES UNFOLDING…

Imagine a quiet, peaceful little town turned upside-down when friends and neighbors are being brutally murdered in their own homes, many in their own beds.

Their new police chief, Henry Frye, knows in his gut it’s the gang of hoodlums who moved into the big house on the hill, but he has no proof. All he wanted when he accepted the job was to move his family to a nice small town and raise Sarah, his niece, in a safe place, hoping his wife would come to love Sarah and be a good mother for her. But his wife hates the little girl and takes her anger out on innocent little Sarah every chance she gets.

Sarah has problems at school while trying to deal with the aunt who hates her, and she’s still having terrifying nightmares. Henry, missing the mistress he’d left behind, is dealing with murders all over town, but Sarah’s nightmares sends him to San Quentin prison to talk to Sarah’s father, hoping to find answers that have been bothering him since the day Sarah came home after a six year kidnapping by her father. He hopes any answers he hears, he can live with…

Cutter’s Revenge, Book 2 in the Revenge Series

HAUNTING MEMORIES…SECRETS…LIES…A SERIAL KILLER STALKING…

Cutter's story introduces a man believing he has amnesia, when in reality he suffers from a multiple personality disorder.

Henry Frye is at his wits end after numerous men and women vanish from small area towns, then one of his own officers’ turns up missing.

He fears his days as police chief are nearing an end; that the town will lose faith in him since he’s already had so many of his townsfolk murdered, and now, what appears to be another serial killer in the mist. He doesn’t know the serial killer will soon be stalking his own backyard.

At least things are getting better with his niece Sarah, or so he thinks. With a new mistress in his life, he has buried his head in the sand and avoids going home unless absolutely necessary, afraid of what he might learn if he does go home.

But, when years of lies from the past threaten to destroy him, he goes to the knoll where he scattered his dead mistress’s ashes and talks to her. He then goes home to talk to his new mistress and to Sarah, the two women who mean the world to him, praying Sarah can forgive him when she learns the truth…

Evil times Two, Book 3 in the Revenge Series

TERROR STRIKES THE QUIET LITTLE TOWN ONCE AGAIN....

Five years after the death of Stan “Cutter” Clark, the worst serial killer the town has ever known, residents in Munday, Texas are still trying to cope with nightmares of the morbid acts that occurred in Clark’s basement.

When Elaine Miller, a dynamic new real estate agent moves to Munday, she ignites fury, ignoring the town’s pleas, and sells the house the town believes is evil.

Greg Larkson, the new owner of Clark’s home, holds a dark secret that could change the town and Elaine Miller’s life, forever...

ENTER THE TWISTED MINDS OF THE REVENGE SERIES......IF YOU DARE!

You can learn about all my books on my website.

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THE PAST NEVER LEAVES US

As my birthday once again creeps up on me, once again i remember the past. All those years with my father......all those years living in fear.....all those years I didn't even know what a birthday was.

For those who have read my story you know what I'm talking about. For those who haven't read my books I'll fill you in a little bit.

I was kidnapped from my bed in the middle of the night when I was 3 years old by my father. He told me we were going on a trip, and this made me so excited. But, it wasn't just a trip. No, for the next 6 years I lived a life on the run from the people who loved me and from the police.

I didn't know my father had kidnapped me. I didn't know how cruel this man who claimed to love me really was.

But that changed real quick. The confusion started the night he took me from my bed. The fear started shortly after. The abuse I suffered at his hand and the hands of others along the way was horrific.

This man — my father — hurt me time and again. He allowed others to hurt me. The fear was so intense I split into other personalities in order to survive.

It was these alters who saved me. If not for them I know I would have died before my fourth birthday.

To learn more about my story you can read Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival and Drowning In Memories.

But, back to the purpose of this blog post.

The first birthday celebrated occurred when I was ten years old. I don't remember anything about that day, other than not knowing what we were celebrating.

I'd never had a "special" day. I'd never had a birthday cake. All I'd known was fear and abuse.

Today I think back on those terrifying years and I wonder how many other little kids are living a life of abuse, scared to death of the people who say, "I love you."

It's not fair for a child to live this way. It's not fair for a child to not know what love is. It's not fair for a child to go to bed hungry. Life is not fair for a child living a life of abuse.

As an adult I look back and I survived. But how many more little kids are still suffering?

The simple answer is too many! Even one child living with abuse is too many! Yet, child abuse remains a national epidemic.

So many people know abuse exists, yet they want to ignore it. They want to pretend they can look the other way and this will make the abuse not exist.

This is living in a world of denial. It's a world of fantasy.

If just one person who saw me — a scared, dirty little kid in the back seat of a car all alone — had called the police I wouldn't have lived those years scared, hungry and abused. No, I could have been found and returned home to my mother and grandparents. The people who really did love me. People who knew what love was. My father never knew the meaning of love. He only knew his own desires and needs. My father was cruel, yet for years I still loved him.

I feared my father, but yes, I loved him. He was my father, after all. I didn't want to believe he would do things to hurt me, to lie to me over and over again. I was just a little kid hanging onto the only person I knew. The only person who sometimes fed me — if it served his needs.

I know there are hundreds, maybe thousands of little kids still suffering today. There are hundreds, maybe thousands, of little kids who have never had a birthday cake. Who have never felt a loving hand or a hug.

Child abuse is not fair to our children, but it does exist! And this abuse, for the ones who survive, never leaves them. The past always has a way of rearing it's ugly monster head when we least expect it.

Please think of the children who are suffering. Think of what you can do to help these kids. Don't bury your head in the sand and pretend abuse doesn't exist.

If you see a child being mistreated....if you suspect a child is being abused in any way, please, make that phone call. Tell the police or child services. YOU can make a difference in a child's life. YOU can step up and help change this national epidemic.

The child can't do this.....only YOU can! Remember.....the child is scared. The child has probably been told if he or she tells anyone about what's happening they will be hurt worse, or someone they love will be hurt or killed.

A child deserves to be loved and nurtured. A child deserves that one special day each year to be treated like a king or queen. A child deserves a birthday cake, a party, or at least some recognition that on this day of the month they were born and they are wanted and loved for who they are.

A cake may seem like nothing much to some people. But to a child, knowing that cake was made (or bought) just for him or her, means so much.

To a child this little sentiment can mean he or she MATTERS.

You can read my story......and it's not a feel good story......it's a life of extreme abuse....but it's also a story of survival, with the help of what some may say were imaginary friends......and maybe they were, but it was my life and without them I know I wouldn't be here today writing this blog, pleading with everyone to get involved. Pleading with society to protect our children — many who suffer at the hands of a loved one. It's not always a stranger who abducts, abuses and kills children.

It could be your next door neighbor. It could be a member of your own family. It could be your friend....but to the child these people are not friends. They are people who lie and hurt, and yes, sometimes kill an innocent child.

Make a difference.....stop hiding from what is right in front of your face so many times. MAKE THAT ONE PHONE CALL TO SAVE A CHILD FROM A LIFETIME OF HURT, PAIN, SHAME, AND A PAST THAT WILL NEVER LEAVE.

I am a true crime, memoir, and crime fiction author. Most of my books are based on true events from my own life, or from stories shared by my friends. Some are heartbreaking, others are heartwarming. You can see all my books on my website.

http://sj2448.wix.com/suejulsen

KIDNAPPED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT

Can you imagine the thoughts, the fear, going through a little girl's head after being kidnapped in the middle of the night?

When taken from my bed, then being told we were going on a trip, I was so excited. But, as he carried me out to the car—that he'd left running—I began to get scared, but I didn't know why. I was with my Daddy, after all. And Daddy wouldn't do anything to hurt me...would he?

As he slowly drove away from the house I felt something was wrong. It wasn't until he neared the highway and told me to lie down and go back to sleep that I remembered my doll Judy. He'd picked me up so quickly that I'd left Judy, my best friend in the whole world, on my bed. I cried for him to go back to the house. I begged him to go back for Judy but Daddy only yelled and again told me to lie down and go to sleep.

But how could I sleep without Judy? I'd never been without her since my second birthday when Daddy had given her to me.

I continued to cry and begged him again to go back but he became so furious. With fire in his eyes he turned around in the car seat and told me to shut up about the damn doll.

When I couldn't stop crying he threatened me, saying if he had to pull the car over to the side of the road he would give me something to cry about.

It was then that I knew something else was wrong. Terribly wrong. Daddy had never hit me or yelled at me before. He was acting so mean and I truly believed I would be very sorry if he stopped the car.

I also thought, by the way he was acting, he didn't love me anymore. But how could that be? He was taking me on a trip, wasn't he?

As night turned to day and back to night again I began to wonder if I'd ever see my home again, my grandparents, or even my mother.

I felt so lost. So scared. So alone. What would I do if I lost Daddy? I had to stop making him mad at me! I worshiped Daddy. It was my fault he got mad and yelled at me. I thought: All I have to do is be a good girl and everything will be okay.

But everything wasn't okay. Nothing would ever be okay again...I didn't know how my life was going to change—forever...

You can read my full story of abduction, fear, abuse, and survival in Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival.

I am a true crime, memoir, and crime fiction author. Most of my books are based on true events from my own life, or from stories shared by my friends. Some are heartbreaking, others are heartwarming. Visit my website for all my books with links to order in various formats.

http://sj2448.wix.com/suejulsen

SHOES - HEARTWARMING & INSPIRATIONAL

SHOES is an inspirational story about Carla, a young woman who becomes a single parent when her husband walks out on her after their baby is born, then battles bouts of depression while trying to give her daughter the life she deserves.

Three years later Vince decides he wants his daughter for the day to celebrate her third birthday that, like her other birthdays, he missed. Carla has reservations, but wanting Megan to know her father, she allows Vince to take Megan home.

He locks Megan inside a large dog crate, ignoring the child all day, then takes off to the bar with friends. When time comes to take Megan home, driving intoxicated, he has an auto accident, leaving the little girl seriously injured and in a coma. Megan survives, but she now walks with a significant limp and her learning abilities are slower.

At six years old, possessing wisdom beyond her years, Megan surprises her mother time and again by her logic, and her determination to not let her disability get her down. Learning from her daughter, Carla once again believes love does exist, then with Megan playing matchmaker, Carla finds true love with her daughter’s doctor, a man who is no stranger to discrimination. Megan keeps the family strong, continuing to teach her mother and new father valuable life lessons.

Please visit my website to see all my books with links to order in the desired format.

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HEARTFELT EMOTIONS

Kidnapped at three years old, I began writing as a means of escape from the emotional scars and repetitive nightmares from my childhood.

Today I am a true crime, memoir and crime fiction writer with eleven books currently published.

Most of my books are based on true events from my own life, or from stories shared by my friends.

Some of my books are heartbreaking, others are heartwarming. However, no matter what I write, I always write from the heart giving my readers stories filled with genuine emotion.

To see all my books please visit my website.

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