K.T. Pinto's Blog, page 63
November 1, 2012
Some pictures from Sandy's visit:
Again I thank the gods for watching over my friends and family when Sandy visited...
For more pix: http://www.buzzfeed.com/mjs538/photos-of-hurricane-sandys-destruction-of-staten
For more pix: http://www.buzzfeed.com/mjs538/photos-of-hurricane-sandys-destruction-of-staten
October 31, 2012
No... no... no... yes... no... no...
I haven't been able to sleep well the past couple of nights, a sure sign that my anxiety, stress and depression are taking a toll on me.
So last night, around 4am, I was lying in bed, staring up at the ceiling, when I became acutely aware of how empty the other half of the bed was. Don't worry, this isn't a wallowing of self pity. The emptiness got me thinking: if there was a knock at the door and it was a random playmate, would I want them to fill the empty space?
I started going through all my previous playmates from the time I had become "active": boyfriends, FwB, flings, XH... (it's not as big a list as one would assume).
I took away any real life details of theirs: wives, girlfriends, gayness, kids, death, insanity... to make decisions a little easier.
Out of all of them (and I will say yes, they are in the double digits, no, they are not in the triple) I came up with the whopping number of FOUR.
What I took into considerations was the levels of disgust, indifference, dullness, compatibility, sensuality, flexibility, conversation skills, and cuddliness... and a few other bits of data. Granted, I'm not sure if I remember all of them who have touched my life - and other parts - (which right there excludes those forgotten), and I of course didn't include those have only fantasized about (so George Clooney had to be excluded) but I wonder if 4 is a good or bad indication of my life so far?
Why am I thinking about this? Did I mention I haven't been able to sleep lately?
So last night, around 4am, I was lying in bed, staring up at the ceiling, when I became acutely aware of how empty the other half of the bed was. Don't worry, this isn't a wallowing of self pity. The emptiness got me thinking: if there was a knock at the door and it was a random playmate, would I want them to fill the empty space?
I started going through all my previous playmates from the time I had become "active": boyfriends, FwB, flings, XH... (it's not as big a list as one would assume).
I took away any real life details of theirs: wives, girlfriends, gayness, kids, death, insanity... to make decisions a little easier.
Out of all of them (and I will say yes, they are in the double digits, no, they are not in the triple) I came up with the whopping number of FOUR.
What I took into considerations was the levels of disgust, indifference, dullness, compatibility, sensuality, flexibility, conversation skills, and cuddliness... and a few other bits of data. Granted, I'm not sure if I remember all of them who have touched my life - and other parts - (which right there excludes those forgotten), and I of course didn't include those have only fantasized about (so George Clooney had to be excluded) but I wonder if 4 is a good or bad indication of my life so far?
Why am I thinking about this? Did I mention I haven't been able to sleep lately?
October 30, 2012
It's the most wonderful time of the year...
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!
QotD
Of course motivation is not permanent. But then, neither is bathing; but it is something you should do on a regular basis.
- Zig Ziglar, author
- Zig Ziglar, author
October 29, 2012
QotD
I'm not afraid of death. It's the stake one puts up in order to play the game of life.
Jean Giraudoux
The French novelist and playwright was born on this day in 1882.
Jean Giraudoux
The French novelist and playwright was born on this day in 1882.
October 27, 2012
Thinking of leaving Fet...
I'm a member of fetlife.com (big surprise, right?) and I must say, it's rather disappointing.
I posted this today, entitled Thinking About Leaving Fet...
I really don't see any upsides to staying on this site.
The only people I seem to pleasantly communicate with are people I've already met off-site or people who had been introduced to me by people I know off-site, all of whom are on other sites with me.
The others who communicate with me are the following:
1) People who can't stop talking fet.
2) People who don't understand what a polite rejection is and think that telling me graphic details is the way to make me change my mind.
3) People who live in countries I will never visit who don't understand that 'sensual domination' can not be done on line.
4) People who start their conversations with me by telling me the most graphic things that apparently I'm going to do to them.
5) People who are just gathering friends.
6) Women who are looking for someone to play with them and their husband/master/daddy/etc. Are there no single lesbian/bi women out there?
7) Men who think that because I am a dominant, that means I'm REALLY a switch just waiting to be dominated by THEM.
8) People who are writers who contact me to either a) talk and talk and talk about their work or b) want me to edit their work and give publishing advice (or leads) for free.
9) People who want, Want, WANT to meet me... except they only want to meet me AT MY PLACE or contrarily say under no uncertain terms that they won't come to Staten Island EVER.
10) People who want to learn more about the pack and me, but amazingly seem to be working or busy anytime there is an event.
And then there are the groups, otherwise known as 'Places to play Fuck or Pass'.
I am on a bunch of groups, and it seems like the only time anyone says anything is when it's one of those dumbass games, or when someone wants to wax graphically about the last encounter they had.
And the rare time someone actually does say something, it's rare that anyone besides me responds (kinda like on this group).
As I write this, I know I may get three responses, and they'll be from people I already know and chat with regularly. Which is just another reason why I find Fet rather useless to me.
On top of EVERYTHING else, this site has once more proven to me that trying to reach out to other Staten Islanders that I don't already know is just a waste of time. How skilled am I that I have once again been blackballed from TWO Staten Island groups for being - get this - DOMINANT. Nothing's been officially said, but getting the cold shoulder from everyone, like no responses to anything I comment on or post (and it's the same people on both groups) is a good indication of it.
So yeah, there seems to be no upsides to Fet.
Thoughts?
I posted this today, entitled Thinking About Leaving Fet...
I really don't see any upsides to staying on this site.
The only people I seem to pleasantly communicate with are people I've already met off-site or people who had been introduced to me by people I know off-site, all of whom are on other sites with me.
The others who communicate with me are the following:
1) People who can't stop talking fet.
2) People who don't understand what a polite rejection is and think that telling me graphic details is the way to make me change my mind.
3) People who live in countries I will never visit who don't understand that 'sensual domination' can not be done on line.
4) People who start their conversations with me by telling me the most graphic things that apparently I'm going to do to them.
5) People who are just gathering friends.
6) Women who are looking for someone to play with them and their husband/master/daddy/etc. Are there no single lesbian/bi women out there?
7) Men who think that because I am a dominant, that means I'm REALLY a switch just waiting to be dominated by THEM.
8) People who are writers who contact me to either a) talk and talk and talk about their work or b) want me to edit their work and give publishing advice (or leads) for free.
9) People who want, Want, WANT to meet me... except they only want to meet me AT MY PLACE or contrarily say under no uncertain terms that they won't come to Staten Island EVER.
10) People who want to learn more about the pack and me, but amazingly seem to be working or busy anytime there is an event.
And then there are the groups, otherwise known as 'Places to play Fuck or Pass'.
I am on a bunch of groups, and it seems like the only time anyone says anything is when it's one of those dumbass games, or when someone wants to wax graphically about the last encounter they had.
And the rare time someone actually does say something, it's rare that anyone besides me responds (kinda like on this group).
As I write this, I know I may get three responses, and they'll be from people I already know and chat with regularly. Which is just another reason why I find Fet rather useless to me.
On top of EVERYTHING else, this site has once more proven to me that trying to reach out to other Staten Islanders that I don't already know is just a waste of time. How skilled am I that I have once again been blackballed from TWO Staten Island groups for being - get this - DOMINANT. Nothing's been officially said, but getting the cold shoulder from everyone, like no responses to anything I comment on or post (and it's the same people on both groups) is a good indication of it.
So yeah, there seems to be no upsides to Fet.
Thoughts?
October 26, 2012
QotD
The starting point of all achievement is DESIRE. Keep this constantly in mind. Weak desire brings weak results, just as a small fire makes a small amount of heat.
Napoleon Hill
The author of Think and Grow Rich was born on this day in 1883.
Napoleon Hill
The author of Think and Grow Rich was born on this day in 1883.
October 19, 2012
Carrot-ginger soup
This was pretty easy to make (in fact, I merged two pretty easy carrot soup recipes together) and is tasty, filling and yummy!
October 16, 2012
Happy Puppy Food!
Today when I went food shopping I found a new dog food by Purina called Be Happy
This is what's written on the back:
Be happy is more than a food - it's a life philosophy for dogs. We canines find our happiness to be instinctual - sort of like sniffing trees (or other things we like to sniff - wink, wink). But it's a little harder for some other species - humans, I'm talking to you.
Wanna know the secret to being happy? It comes down to three pretty simple things
1. Play more.
Let loose and have fun!
Don't take yourself so seriously.
Roll around in the grass, play fetch, or chase squirrels -
Whatever makes YOU happy!
2. Be Yourself.
You are one of a kind,
so celebrate your quirks!
And remember, it could be worse,
you could be a cat! :)
3. Eat Well.
Good food makes you want to
do a happy dance!
Eating well helps make you
healthy on the inside and
happy on the outside -
who doesn't love that?
I dunno... I just thought it was cute. :)
This is what's written on the back:
Be happy is more than a food - it's a life philosophy for dogs. We canines find our happiness to be instinctual - sort of like sniffing trees (or other things we like to sniff - wink, wink). But it's a little harder for some other species - humans, I'm talking to you.
Wanna know the secret to being happy? It comes down to three pretty simple things
1. Play more.
Let loose and have fun!
Don't take yourself so seriously.
Roll around in the grass, play fetch, or chase squirrels -
Whatever makes YOU happy!
2. Be Yourself.
You are one of a kind,
so celebrate your quirks!
And remember, it could be worse,
you could be a cat! :)
3. Eat Well.
Good food makes you want to
do a happy dance!
Eating well helps make you
healthy on the inside and
happy on the outside -
who doesn't love that?
I dunno... I just thought it was cute. :)
October 15, 2012
Lessee...
...if I did this correctly...
