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Monk in the World Guest Post: Angela Taylor

I am delighted to share another beautiful submission to the Monk in the World guest post from the community. Read on for Angela Taylor's reflection on finding the light to share.

Today I am appreciating the cooler air and full change of autumn. Coolness in contrast to the heavy heat of late summer is allowing me to breathe a little deeper. These seasonal changes assist a movement within my soul. When I bring my awareness to what each season is speaking, my eye then turns inside to discern if my soul is mirroring the outside changes or in tension with them. The questions that follow clear away the dead refuse that was left over from a previous stage that I moved beyond, even if I had been living as if I were the same person. This autumn startles me awake to my new self.

This is the second month with a new family that I support through the Sanctuary movement, and I begin to realize they are touching my heart in a deeper way than those I have worked with in the past. Even with the language barrier, this wife and mom of three boys, and I have a unique connection. On the days I pick up the oldest from preschool, we stop in the middle to pick up my boys, and then start the trek across town to drop him at his new home. We visit and spend the evening confined in a church building with five very active boys that seem to have no end to their energy. The broken conversations bring humility into my desire for a second language that I am beginning again. Yet the boys’ playfulness and no need for verbal communication bring me teachings to see. This air and autumnal birthing help as I process and let go to creation my feelings of grief for this family.

As I open, I realize the work of moving my mom to a memory care facility hampered the change of seasons for my family on the equinox this year. It was easy to pass by in distraction as it is often hot and the leaves do not turn until mid October. Now today, I felt the tension strong enough and I know I want to switch our nature table. This is an outward expression of the shifting within me. I start by taking off the signs of our summer. The flowers that were picked but had dried, seashells from my husband’s walk on the Camino in Spain, geodes and rocks that my boys had gathered over the years, an empty wasp nest and dried sage from the garden. We had picked up leaves full of color on our last walk. These became the base beneath the new candle of autumn orange. I add the recent pine cone and acorn finds from what Mother Earth had already gifted us on the ground. As I began to settle into this activity, my body became more calm and accepting; accepting of another place of grief which leads to fears of having to say goodbye to another loved one, and accepting of the love I gave to feel this way. After being with acceptance, my gaze shifts to the emerging seasonal questions.

This last month I have pondered the post harvest questions. What is the chaff to be burned in the field? What no longer serves who I am today and might need a difficult pruning? Can I name the seed that was saved and will be buried in the warm earth in the coming months? I am reminded of my answers and those I could not answer. As the days grow shorter, darkness increases and sunlight does not provide all the light we need. Saint Martin carried a lantern and light in the dark months to those in need. In the next three weeks leading to Martinmas, I will sit with the question: What light can I bring to those around me?

In recent years, that was a hard question for me to answer. I was in the midst of grieving a mom who was traveling the stages of dementia and caring for and schooling my young children. My only answer was often…realness. This autumn finds me in a different place. My Mom is being taken care of outside the home and my children are in school. Though I experience grief in a new place of supporting families with deportation orders, my journey has given me the grace to hold it more lightly. My time and spirit are opening. This question of bringing light to my community may not be answered fully this year, but I know my ineffable soul answer is new.

I lay a knitted Star Wars figure on the nature table last in hopes I will get a giggle or two out of my boys when they notice the transformed table in their own time; then lit the candle and said a prayer of thanks to Creation and God as these few moments brought me to myself and allow a flow into the life my body and soul live today.

Angela Taylor lives in Denver, Colorado, with her husband and two boys. She teaches locally on Celtic spirituality, the Hebrew Scriptures and journeying with seasonal changes in nature. She also volunteers with the Metro Denver Sanctuary Coalition to work beside families who have claimed Sanctuary in a faith building.

New Live Retreats added in spring 2019 – U.S. and France!

Our Ireland retreats and pilgrimages are full already for 2019, however we have two new opportunities for you to join Christine for creative inspiration and contemplative deepening:

 

 

 

 

 

Writing on the Wild Edges in the Pacific Northwest

March 10-14, 2019

Join us at St. Andrew's Retreat House on the Hood Canal for a 4-night creative writing retreat. This retreat is normally offered only in Ireland, so take advantage of this opportunity to journey to the wild edges in a supportive community of kindred souls. Limited to 14 participants.

More details and registration here >>

(Christine will also be co-leading a day retreat at ISC in Seattle with Betsey Beckman on March 9th and a workshop session at the SDI conference in Bellevue March 14-17, 2019)

Poetry and the Sacred Garden of the World:

A Veriditas Retreat in Chartres, France

June 10-14, 2019

Join Christine in Chartres for a five-day immersion into the gifts of poetry and how they can break us open to encounters with the sacred revealed in the ordinary. This retreat is held in collaboration with the Veriditas labyrinth facilitation folks and will include a private evening walk on the labyrinth in Chartres cathedral.

More details and registration here >>

Celtic Conversations with Mary Earle

I am delighted to introduce a new podcast series, Celtic Conversations, inspired by my new book The Soul's Slow Ripening: 12 Celtic Practices for Seeking the Sacred and my time living in Ireland. I am hosting a series of conversations with authors, artists, and guides about Celtic spirituality. So find a cozy space and pour yourself a cup of tea. (Also available at Soundcloud, Stitcher and iTunes).

My guest today is Mary Earle and we had a delightful conversation about being created to be in the rhythms of the whole created order, creation as sacrament, rekindling ancestral knowing, the story of St. Melangell and the hare, St. Cuthbert of Lindisfarne, and the gift of hospitality.

Mary C. Earle is an Episcopal priest, writer, retreat leader and spiritual director, who taught classes in spirituality for the Episcopal Seminary of the Southwest until her retirement.  Her home parish is St. Mark’s Episcopal Church in San Antonio.  She has authored seven books and co-authored two. Mary has written about the desert mothers, gratefulness and the body, the spirituality of living with illness, Celtic Christianity and the 14th Century English mystic Julian of Norwich. She presently teaches for the Academy for Spiritual Formation and offers continuing education classes at Oblate School of Theology in San Antonio. Mary and her husband Doug, also an Episcopal priest, live with two border collies, a cat and a lot of gardens.  Their son Jason is a professor of French at Sarah Lawrence College in New York.  Her website is www.marycearle.com.

 

Mary Earle shared this beautiful blessing from the Carmina Gadelica to begin our time together:

As it was,
As it is,
As it shall be
Evermore.
O Thou Triune of grace!
With the ebb,
with the flow,
O Thou Triune of grace!
With the ebb,
with the flow.

*Opening music track is an excerpt from Simon DeVoil's song "Water" on his album Heart Medicine (used with kind permission)

Celebrating Autumn’s Harvest and Release ~ A Love Note from Your Online Abbess

Song for the Salmon (excerpt)

For too many nights now I have not imagined the salmon

threading the dark streams of reflected stars,

nor have I dreamt of his longing

nor the lithe swing of his tail toward dawn . . .

I am ready like the young salmon

to leave his river, blessed with hunger

for a great journey on the drawing tide.

—David Whyte

Dearest monks, artists, and pilgrims,

The autumn equinox falls today in the northern hemisphere (click here if you are in the southern hemisphere welcoming spring)—a time when the sun rests above the equator, and day and night are divided equally. It heralds a season filled with change, celebrates the harvest, and ushers in the brilliant beauty of death. Autumn is a season of transition, of continual movement.

At the heart of autumn's gifts are these twin energies of relinquishing and harvesting. It is a season of paradox that invites us to consider what we are called to release and surrender, and at the same time it invites us to gather in the harvest, to name and celebrate the fruits of the seeds we planted months ago. In holding these two in tension we are reminded that in our letting go we also find abundance.

In the seas of the Northwest U.S. where I used to live, the salmon are responding to an ancient and ancestral call. They are returning from the oceans, and making the hard and often battering journey up the rivers, to return to their birthplaces to lay eggs offering the gift of new life. This journey always ends in their own death. It is an amazing mystery as I imagine this deep longing for home the salmon must feel and the ultimate surrender they welcome while also offering a harvest of blessing for the next generation of salmon.

I have love the beauty of autumn leaves releasing their hold. I have walked close to death many times in my life now, journeying with my own mother the last few days of her life in the ICU after a massive infection ravaged her body, then with John’s mother who let go after a very long journey with Alzheimer's and the great unravelling it causes. Fall thrusts us into the messiness of life and challenges us not to turn away. The season of autumn calls me to honor the full spectrum of human experience, to not push away the sorrow and grief, to not fill the waiting with distractions. I rest into the unknown, I stay present to the great sadness I sometimes feel.

As I walk each day, fall offers solace with her unbearable beauty. But some days, the wind gusts through and the trees are stripped bare. I weep at the ache I feel when I consider how everything I love in this world will one day die. The season calls me to let go of false assumptions, wrests my too-small images of God from me as I enter the Mystery of dying and rising. Autumn demands that I release what I think is important to do and returns me to the only thing which matters that I remember—to love and to allow love to sculpt me, even as it breaks my heart.

But equally, this season calls us to the harvest. Seeds planted long ago create a bounty and fullness in our lives. Autumn invites me to remember the places in my life where I had a dream that once felt tiny and has now grown and ripened into fullness. I savor these places where my life feels abundant. I relish the experience of being nourished by dreams into my own growing wholeness.

The poet Rilke writes of autumn: "Command the last fruits to be full; / give them just two more southern days, / urge them on to completion and chase / the last sweetness into the heavy wine." We move toward our own ripening and in that journey we let go of what no longer serves us. Fall urges us on to our own completion and sweetness.

We live in times when it often feels like everything is coming undone. This season reminds us that the journey of relinquishing all we hold dear is also the journey of harvesting. Somehow these two come together year after year. We are invited to rest into its mystery.

What are you releasing that no longer energizes you?

What dreams do you want to harvest this season?

With great and growing love,

Christine

Christine Valters Paintner, PhD, REACE

Photo © Christine Valters Paintner

Monk in the World Guest Post: Michelle Lisenbee

I am delighted to share another beautiful submission to the Monk in the World Guest Post series from the community. Read on for Michelle Lisenbee's reflection on caring for chickens as spiritual practice.

I live in the Mid-Atlantic. Our summers tend to be very warm and very humid. Not like, jungle humid, but sometimes it feels pretty darn close. One Sunday morning, in late July of 2017, I opened the door to feel blessed coolness. It had been in the high nineties all week. This morning, it was only in the seventies and the usual humidity was absent. I knew it would be back, but for this morning, it was glorious. The sun was shining, the sky was a perfect blue and a light breeze ruffled the leaves of the trees that ringed our back yard. I stepped barefoot out the door, off the porch and into the dewy grass, savoring the cool feel of it on my feet. Our chocolate Labrador, Shasta, always within touching distance of me, followed me out. While she snuffled about and did her business, I slowly crossed the yard to let our chickens out for the day.

We have a small mobile coop and five hens we adopted from a friend when she moved out of state and couldn’t take them with her. We’d gotten only them six weeks earlier and I was still learning how to be a chicken mom. As I approached, I heard them softly clucking to each other. As they heard me coming, they got louder, greeting me in their chicken-y way. I smiled and knelt to open their little doorway. One by one, they hopped down into the grass and began pecking and scratching, looking at me sideways to see if I had something good for them to eat. I reached out to stroke each of them in turn and sang them the silly little “good morning song” I’d made up. Once they realized I had no treats, they ignored me. I placed their ladder, checked their food and water and latched the door. I turned and opened the nesting box lid to check for eggs – and found one perfect brown oval there resting on the sweet-smelling pine shavings. I cupped it in my palm. It felt perfect – round and smooth and warm.

I held it gently as I continued to wander through the lush greenness in our small corner of the world. My attention was captured by a blaze of yellow at our woodpile. I had seen these volunteer flowers growing there earlier and had warned my husband and sons not to mow them down. Today, they were in full, riotous sunshine-y bloom. Coreopsis, I thought. I did not plant them here. I had planted others in the front yard, but none in the back. I had no idea how they ended up here, but they did. The juxtaposition of the messy, overgrown woodpile and the bright happy blossoms lit up my heart. In that moment, I felt completely full of overwhelming gratitude for all of it: the gorgeous weather, the early morning egg, the blooming woodpile. I stood quietly, surrounded by God’s creation – earth, sky, plants, and animals and breathed it in. I felt myself a part of it. As I gave thanks for everything, I realized I need to include myself as part of the picture. As God created all that surrounded me, he also created me. And just as each blade of grass and each perfect egg was a unique creation, made only once, so was I. My eyes welled up. This, I thought. This is truth.

It’s now been a year since we adopted our chickens. Stepping outside twice a day to care for them has become one of my primary spiritual practices. I know, it probably seems odd to call caring for chickens a spiritual activity, but for me, it is. Every single day that I am home, at dawn and just after dusk, I step outside, barefoot if the weather allows. I pause. I breathe. I look up. I check for eggs. I supply food, water and as much safety as I can. I give thanks.

Being outside at the opening and closing of each day helps keep me in in touch with what is real. I notice the weather. I notice the position of the sun. I notice the phase of the moon. I notice the fireflies.  (Oh the magical wonder of fireflies in summer!!) I notice the melting snow, the parts of our yard that stay wet for days after a rain, the birds that have built nests in our shed eaves, the bunnies that hop softly about. I hear woodpeckers in the dead tree next door, the geese that migrate overhead, the squirrels that race around playing tag.

Watching the seasons unfold and flow one into the next is part of what it means to be a monk in the world for me. Every dawn reminds me that we have the chance to begin again. Every dusk reminds me to give thanks for the blessings of the day. As a nurse and massage therapist, remembering that we are all part of God’s amazing creation brings more compassion to my work. And as an artist, gratitude and nature often make their way onto my canvases.  Even if the whole wide middle of my day ends up feeling out-of-sorts, these bookend moments are (usually!) enough to bring me back to center. Praying we all find centering moments in our day – with or without chickens. Blessings.

Michelle Lisenbee is a Registered Nurse, massage therapist and artist. She lives in a 100 year old house in the Maryland suburbs with her husband, two teenage sons, a large dog, three cats and of course, chickens. You can find her at www.michellelisenbee.com or on Facebook at https://www.facebook.com/MichelleLisenbeeArt/

Celtic Conversations with Dara Molloy

I am delighted to introduce a new podcast series, Celtic Conversations, inspired by my new book The Soul's Slow Ripening: 12 Celtic Practices for Seeking the Sacred and my time living in Ireland. I am hosting a series of conversations with authors, artists, and guides about Celtic spirituality. So find a cozy space and pour yourself a cup of tea. (Also available at Soundcloud, Stitcher and iTunes).

My guest today is Dara Molloy and we had a delightful conversation about seasonal connections, living in the wilderness, Celtic rituals, living continuously in a sense of divine presence, and the Irish tradition as a mentor, and mysticism of the Celtic tradition.

Dara Molloy is a Celtic monk, priest and druid. He began his adult life as a Roman Catholic priest ordained into The Society of Mary (Marists). In 1985 he moved to the Aran Islands to live as a Celtic hermit. He lived in a small wooden garden shed for 10 years. During this time his work developed into offering hospitality to wanderers and seekers in a thatched cottage next to his hut. In 1995, Dara formally left the Catholic Church. He declared that he was remaining a priest and  began to offer spiritual services such as weddings, christenings (naming ceremonies), rites of passage and funerals inspired by the Celtic tradition. He offered these from the standpoint of not belonging to any church, sect or cult. This is now his full-time work apart from some writing and leading of pilgrim groups. Dara is married to Tess Harper and they have four children. He is the author of two books: Legends In The Landscape  A Pocket Guide to the spiritual sites of Inis Mor, Aran Islands and The Globalisation of God – Celtic Christianity’s Nemesis. He has a new book to be published in the coming year provisionally entitled Rethinking God – A Celtic Perspective. You can find out more about him at his website.

Dara Molloy shared two beautiful poems with us to begin our time together:

The Wish of Manchán of Liath

(A 10th century poem, anonymous, about the dream of a 6th century monk)

I wish, O son of the Living God, ancient eternal King, for a secret hut in the wilderness that it may be my dwelling.

A very blue shallow well to be beside it, a clear pool for washing away sins through the grace of the Holy Ghost.

A beautiful wood close by around it on every side, for the nurture of many-voiced birds, to shelter and hide it.

Facing the south for warmth, a little stream across its enclosure, a choice ground with abundant bounties which would be good for every plant.

A few sage disciples — I will tell their number — humble and obedient, to pray to the King.

Four threes, three fours, ready for every need, two sixes in the church, both south and north.

Six couples in addition to me myself, praying through the long ages to the King who moves the sun.

A lovely church decked with linen, a dwelling for God of Heaven; then, bright candles over the holy white Scriptures.

One room to go to for the care of the body, without ribaldry, without boasting, without meditation of evil.

This is the housekeeping I would get. I would choose it without concealing. Fragrant fresh leeks, hens, salmon, trout, bees.

My fill of clothing and of food from the King of good fame, and for me to be sitting for a while praying to God in every place.

 

The Lake Isle of Innisfree — W.B. Yeats, 1865 – 1939

I will arise and go now, and go to Innisfree,

And a small cabin build there, of clay and wattles made:

Nine bean-rows will I have there, a hive for the honey-bee;

And live alone in the bee-loud glade.

And I shall have some peace there, for peace comes dropping slow,

Dropping from the veils of the morning to where the cricket sings;

There midnight’s all a glimmer, and noon a purple glow,

And evening full of the linnet’s wings.

I will arise and go now, for always night and day

I hear lake water lapping with low sounds by the shore;

While I stand on the roadway, or on the pavements grey,

I hear it in the deep heart’s core.

*Opening music track is an excerpt from Simon DeVoil's song "Water" on his album Heart Medicine (used with kind permission)

Feast of St. Hildegard of Bingen ~ A love note from your online abbess

St. Hildegard Strolls through the Garden

Luminous morning, Hildegard gazes at

the array of blooms, holding in her heart

the young boy with a mysterious rash, the woman

reaching menopause, the newly minted widower,

and the black Abbey cat with digestive issues who wandered

in one night and stayed.  New complaints arrive each day.

She gathers bunches of dandelions, their yellow

profusion a welcome sight in the monastery garden,

red clover, nettle, fennel, sprigs of parsley to boil later in wine.

She glances to make sure none of her sisters are

peering around pillars, slips off her worn leather shoes

to relish the freshness between her toes,

face upturned to the rising sun, she sings lucida materia,

matrix of light, words to the Virgin, makes a mental

note to return to the scriptorium to write that image down.

 When the church bells ring for Lauds, she hesitates just a

moment, knowing her morning praise has already begun,

wanting to linger in this space where the dew still clings.

At the end of her life, she met with a terrible obstinacy,

from the hierarchy came a ban on receiving

bread and wine and her cherished singing.

She now clips a single rose, medicine for a broken heart,

which she will sip slowly in tea, along with her favorite spelt

biscuits, and offer some to the widower

grieving for his own lost beloved,

they smile together softly at this act of holy communion

and the music rising among blades of grass.

— Christine Valters Paintner

Dearest monks, artists, and pilgrims,

September 17th is the Feast of Holy Hildegard, one of the patron saints of our work here in Abbey because of her roots as a Benedictine monk and Abbess, and her incredible commitment to creative expression and nurturing aliveness. I am currently in the Rhine valley in Germany co-guiding a group of pilgrims here to walk in her footsteps.

I am the living breath in a human being placed in a tabernacle of marrow, veins, bones, and flesh, giving it vitality and supporting its every movement.

—St. Hildegard of Bingen, Scivias I 4:4

Hildegard of Bingen was a 12th century Benedictine Abbess, who was also a theologian, visionary, musical composer, spiritual director, preacher, and healer. For centuries monasteries have been centers of healing and herbal medicine. Monks would grow the herbs and learn their applications, so that people would come for both spiritual and physical healing.

We have lost this connection, with medicine taking place in the efficient and sterile halls of hospitals. Please don’t misunderstand me, I am profoundly grateful for the gifts of modern medicine, and rely on it to some degree to maintain my own quality of life.  And yet, we have lost so much in this shift from the model of slow medicine and healing to the pursuit of quick cures. In the process we have come to compartmentalize ourselves, seeking the fix for the headache or the stomach trouble, without considering the whole of our bodies and our lives. We become impatient when illness descends, rather than yielding to body’s needs and desires.

We rarely have a relationship with our doctors, spending only minutes with them each visit, whereas Hildegard, and other monastics like her, would have come to know her patients. She would have seen the profound connection between body and soul. She would have practiced slow medicine.

One of the fundamental principles of Hildegard’s worldview is viriditas, which means the “greening power of God.” But even more than that, it refers to a lushness and fecundity in the world, a greening life force we can witness in forests and gardens and farmland. Hildegard, who lived in the valley around the river Rhine in Germany, was profoundly impacted by her witness to the profusion of greenness and how this green life energy was a sign of abundance and life. It is what sustains and animates us.

Greenness became not just a physical reality, but a spiritual one as well. Hildegard believed that viriditas was something to be cultivated in both body and soul. Her language is filled with metaphors for seeking out the moistness and fruitfulness of the soul. The sign of our aliveness is this participation in the life force of the Creator. Anything that blocks this flow through us contributes both to physical disease as well as spiritual unrest.

For Hildegard, viriditas was always experienced in tension with ariditas, which is the opposite experience of dryness, barrenness, shriveling up. She would keep asking how to bring the flow of greening life energy back in fullness to a person.

Victoria Sweet, a medical doctor in San Francisco and researcher in medieval history, wrote a wonderful book called God’s Hotel: A Doctor, a Hospital, and a Pilgrimage to the Heart of Medicine in which she explored Hildegard’s principles of greening in her own medical practice. Dr. Sweet worked in a long-term care facility and began to ask the question of what was blocking a patient’s access to this life-giving greening energy and shifting her perspective enabled her to find healing paths that were previously unseen. She also discovered that simply being in relationship with her patients over time allowed her to see patterns and behaviors which revealed far more into their care than a quick visit could ever do.

There is a story from the desert fathers where an Abba says to a seeker, “Do not feed your heart what does not nourish it.” This can be easier said than done, since we are inclined to so many “comforts” which only serve to numb and distract us from life.  How often do we try to satisfy ourselves with that which depletes us?

What if your fundamental commitment was to only offer your body and soul that which is nourishing and to listen to what depletes you and say no to those things.

I invite you to hold this question in all things: Does this nourish me or does this deplete me? 

(We have a self-study online retreat to dive more deeply into the wisdom of Hildegard of Bingen and we hope to lead our next pilgrimage to Germany in 2021.)

With great and growing love,

Christine

Christine Valters Paintner, PhD, REACE

Dancing monk icon by Marcy Hall at Rabbit Room Arts

Monk in the World Guest Post: Elaine Breckenridge

I am delighted to share another beautiful submission to the Monk in the World guest post series from the community. Read on for Elaine Breckenridge's reflection on artistic wounds.

I like the idea of the expressive arts, as long as it doesn’t mean using my hands to create in conventional ways. Give me a pencil to draw, or a brush to paint, even a magazine and a glue stick and I freeze. Over the years at conferences when I see the arts and crafts table set up for the “right brain activity,” something inside of me dies again. I have been known to rebel by sitting on the floor underneath the table writing a poem instead.

I credit my first-grade teacher for helping me to develop this resistance. One day she required me to stay after school with the assignment of cutting beautiful snowflakes like everyone else in the class. I failed. I am left handed. Using righthand scissors there was no way snowflakes were going to happen. Only hot tears of shame and humiliation fell that day. I’ve never tried to make a snowflake since that day.

Being a student of the Abbey of the Arts has had its challenges for me since there are many invitations to make art. While the atmosphere around the expressive arts projects on a pilgrimage to Ireland with Christine and John was inviting and non-judgmental; I still felt very self-conscious. My St. Bridget’s cross, my candle, my painted rock in my mind were inferior to everyone else’s. I thought it would be “good for me” to try to make a mandala every day, so I signed up for the Hildegard of Bingen on-line retreat. I quietly faded away, unable to complete the assignments because of my wounds. I wanted to take the “Artist’s Rule” on-line class, to explore writing and creativity in general, but I just could not muster the courage and confidence to do so.

That said, I believe in my very being that I am artistic. As an Episcopal priest, my creativity and artistry can be seen in the way I craft traditional services as well as innovative rituals. I have a knack for bringing together words, music, and liturgical art in ways that are meaningful for people. My preaching can be creative as well as my teaching.

But what I do does not last. Liturgy is like building a gorgeous sandcastle on a beach. We admire it. It gives us joy in a brief window of time. But all too soon, the tide rises and sweeps it away. The liturgy ends and we go our separate ways. The tangible experience slips into the ether. Is it ego that would like to make something with my hands that would be a more concrete expression of what I can do and offer God’s world? I don’t think so. I think I have a genuine desire to give birth to something that can be held and cherished.

And so, I tried again. I went to a bead making workshop. The teacher was very gentle as were the people at my table. And look what I made–a mini rosary. I cherish holding it and the process has been very healing.

What I know is that I still carry the wounded child who needs to be both encouraged and protected. But digging deeper, I have come to realize that my wounds are a source of perverse pride. Clinging to this false narrative that I can’t use my hands to make art has given me permission to take few risks. And it has cut me off from the wonder of exploration.

Because I want to continue practicing expansiveness in all aspects of my life and not contraction, I am going to give myself permission to keep experimenting with other mediums. And I will still claim my right to make art in the way I am called. Perhaps most importantly, I am going to try to be more conscious. Am I choosing my artistic medium out of love or rebelling out of fear?

Ironically, my first-grade teacher’s name was Miss Tombs. She has haunted me long enough. It’s time to let her go. Someday I will draw a picture of her, maybe even standing beside a tomb. But for today, look what I just made. Let it snow!

Elaine Breckenridge is a dancing monk and an Episcopal priest currently serving St. John the Baptist Church in Lodi, California. Her passions include incorporating Celtic and Creation Spirituality into traditional liturgical forms, the music of Kristopher E. Lindquist (Kelmusic.com), yoga and living the Abbey of the Arts Monk Manifesto.

 

Celtic Conversations with Christine Sine

I am delighted to introduce a new podcast series, Celtic Conversations, inspired by my new book The Soul's Slow Ripening: 12 Celtic Practices for Seeking the Sacred and my time living in Ireland. I am hosting a series of conversations with authors, artists, and guides about Celtic spirituality. So find a cozy space and pour yourself a cup of tea. (Also available at Soundcloud, Stitcher and iTunes).

My guest today is Christine Sine and we had a delightful conversation about Celtic spirituality and the act of blessing, the love of creation, the two books of revelation, and cultivating awe and wonder in our lives.

Christine Sine is the founder and facilitator for the popular contemplative blog Godspace, which grew out of her passion for creative spirituality, gardening and sustainability. She describes herself as a contemplative activist, passionate gardener, author, and liturgist. She loves messing with church traditions and inspiring followers of Jesus to develop creative approaches to spirituality that intertwine the sacred through all of life.

Christine facilitates workshops on contemplative and creative spiritual practices, spirituality and gardening, simplicity and sustainability as well as how to develop a more spiritual rhythm for our lives. She often encourages participants to paint rocks or leaves, plant contemplative gardens, walk labyrinths and create spiritual pathways that draw us into deeper intimacy with God. Christine is inspired by Celtic Christian spirituality, which has opened her eyes to the God who is present in every moment, every experience and every place.

Her new book, due to be published in March 2019 by InterVarsity Press is The Gift of Wonder:Creative Practices For Delighting in God. Her other books include Rest in the Moment: Reflections for Godly Pauses, Return to Our Senses: Reimagining How We Pray, To Garden with God, Light for the Journey, GodSpace: Time for Peace in the Rhythms of Life, and Tales of a Seasick Doctor.  Christine and Tom Sine also co-authored Living on Purpose: Finding God’s Best for Your Life.

You can connect to her on her website, Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Pinterest, and YouTube.

Christine Sine shared this beautiful blessing she wrote to begin our time together:

*Opening music track is an excerpt from Simon DeVoil's song "Water" on his album Heart Medicine (used with kind permission)

Feast of St. Ciaran ~ A love note from your online abbess

Dearest monks, artists, and pilgrims,

September 9th is the Feast of Ciaran of Clonmacnoise, one of the great Irish saints. He lived in the 6th century and is one of the great monastic founders called the “Twelve Apostles of Ireland.” Ciaran had a kinship with animals. There are stories of him befriending a fox who would carry his Psalter back and forth to his teacher so he could learn. He had a cow which gave milk to all of the Abbey. The cow was so revered that when she died, her hide became a kind of relic and it was said to offer healing, and whoever laid on it would go to heaven. Ciaran would also put his books on the antlers of a stag, as a kind of book rest. It was also said that a boar became his first monk.

There is a story that Ciaran goes out to the island of Inismor to visit with the great Abbott Enda. There they both have a dream of great fruitful trees growing beside a stream in the middle of Ireland. In the vision they could see the tree protecting the entire island with abundant fruit provided.

Enda told Ciaran: "The great tree is you, Ciaran, for you are great in the eyes of God and all people. All of Ireland will be sheltered by the grace in you, and many will be nourished by your fasting and prayers. Go to the center of Ireland, and found your church on the banks of a stream."

I love this great and flourishing tree as symbol of Ciaran’s call in life. He was moving toward his own soul’s ripening. The dream pointed the way.

He founded his monastery at the intersection of the river Shannon running north to south, and the esker, a system of ridges forming a natural roadway, which runs across Ireland from east to west. Clonmacnoise became one of the largest and most significant monasteries of the entire Irish church as a center of learning.

What dreams are calling to you as summer begins to turn to autumn (or winter into spring if you are in the southern hemisphere)?

With great and growing love,

Christine

Christine Valters Paintner, PhD, REACE

Dancing monk icon by Marcy Hall at Rabbit Room Arts