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Day 3,684: Hyperion

A banner day for movies, out of nowhere.

I’m halfway through Stalker by Andrei Tarkovsky. It’s been on my list to watch for a while, now; ever since watching his Solaris really and absolutely being blown away by it. Solaris is the only film I’ve ever seen that does what 2001 does. Sooooooo maaaannnyyy movies and filmmakers have tried to do what that movie does, and none of them do it. Except Solaris. So…Tarkovsky’s other scifi-ish film has been on the list.

What. The fuck. Was I WAITING FO...

Day 3,683: Worf 359

A solid day. Last night was an adventure though; literally right after turning out the lights to fall asleep, Joy decided to puke in bed. All over the sheets. And the mattress below. So, it was a quick strip of the bed, tossing the sheets into the wash, dabbing off the mattress (and febreezing it), and then making the bed all over again. Which we’d done a couple hours earlier already because it was Sunday.

And then she puked again. This time, Liz was able to snatch her off the bed in time.

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Day 3,682: Chaos > Order

I wasn’t sure what kind of day this was going to be for me today. I didn’t have anything planned, per se. I just wanted to wake up and see how I felt. Was wiped out and exhausted a few days ago at the end of last week, and this weekend was going to offer a couple slivers here and there to kinda recharge.

I did recharge today, but not in the way I expected. I cleaned! I did five loads of laundry (only two of our clothes, obvs – the rest was sheets and towels and whatnot), and I did two power m...

Day 3,681: Visalia

It was Ashika’s 4th birthday (party) today. She turns 4 for real on Monday. But, today was the big bash, and big it was. She legit had like 20 kids show up. Bounce house in the backyard. Tons of pizza. Moana showed up.

We went up early to help get everything ready. It looked so good! And then drove back home. I’m wiiiiiped. Super wiped. But happy to be getting to bed on time. Whew. Coops came up with us. He was so good. Loved all the peoples, kids included. He’s so good like that; loves ALL p...

Day 3,680: Le Quick

Making this a quick one, but…took it more low-key today. Work was actually fairly busy, but I didn’t try to cram in all the other stuff. I mentally took it off. Let stuff go.

It worked. I feel better. One step toward better, anyway.

Mental recharge, here I come.

Night night.

Day 3,679: The Wall

Hit a bit of a wall today energy-wise. And not even writing-wise, just in general. Writing was good this morning! Great, even. It’s coming together. The best week I’ve had writing so far this year, in fact. But man…round lunch, when it was time to do yoga…I was done. Done with the day. Wanted to conk out. I so rarely get like that, it was noticeable. I’m not exactly sure why, except that I’ve definitely gone hard these past few weeks.

I rallied though! I rallied to finish work, go to therapy,...

Day 3,768: Counterpart

Left my iPad out in my office. Eye roooollll. Thumbin it over here on the old iPhone.

Joy is being a maniac tonight. So silly. Right now she’s digging into my leg like she needs to build a burrow. And now she just dove underneath the blankets and wants to play blanket monster. Crazy baby.

Three days in a row getting up on time and getting in all three hours of writing in! I think maybe I was trying to force a 6:30 start time when 6:45/7am is really the sweet spot for me. Like…THE sweet spo...

Day 3,767: Writing Mood

A busier day today, both writing-wise and work-wise…and I’m bushed. Feeling…feeling resistance. I’m close on this outline. But I’m not there yet. Big hole missing. I’ve been coming at it from a plot perspective, and I’ve gotten things reeaaaalllyyy close. But maybe I need to come from a character perspective. So I’ll try that in the morning. The good news is that I did three full hours today. Three full hours that didn’t get me a solution, which has me in my feels…but it was the first time in a ...

DAY 3,766: Heheh

Joy giving me kisses right now on my arm. Sweetie pie.

Good writing day. Otherwise…it was slow, and that means anxiety creeps in, which god, I know…there’s issues there. Issues calming down. Issues being idle. I know this. I know this. Working on it.

It’s not that bad, truly. It’s not like it overwhelms me. It doesn’t. I just…I have a hard time relaxing when I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing. When I relax the best is when I know that’s what I’m supposed to do. But when it’s nebulo...

Day 3,765: Nice-Ass

I watched a documentary today on the opioid crisis in this country, and it was pretty eye opening. How often our healthcare system fails people. Law enforcement, too, and government. There are good people out there, without question, but there are also a LOT more monsters than you’d think. And it always, always comes down to money. I wish we could get money out of our politics. I really do. It would be so different.

I slept in. I took care of the pups. I ate breakfast and finished that doc. I...