Yashas Mahajan's Blog, page 6
July 25, 2023
Word of the Week #382:
None of us wants to fall, right?
I mean, sure, there are those among us who enjoy the occasional bungee jumping, or skydiving, or what have you…
But by and large, when we are trying to climb the rungs of life, we don’t want to fall, right?
We do fall, though. As much as we may wish not to, as much as we may try not to…
But most of us are not the type to fall once and stay down, are we? Hell, we’ve probably already lost count of the number of times I got back up, dusted myself off, and rushed back up the mountain.
Actually, that’s the thing. That is why I am beginning to wear down just a little bit.
Why do I have to keep “rushing” back up the mountain? Do I even have to? Would it be such a bad thing to just sit down at the basecamp for a few minutes and just recover? Just assess my wounds, at least?
I don’t know. Maybe there’s something wrong with my wiring.
And now that the mountains I’m hoping to climb loom higher than ever before, I suppose the falls would be harder than ever before. The abandon with which I stride onward and upward, however, remains unchanged.
What’s the worst that can happen, right? I’ll just get back up, dust myself off, and rush back up. Let’s see where I end up, yeah?
July 18, 2023
Word of the Week #381:
If you’re disciplined about “one” thing, are you even disciplined?
Being ready and able to do everything that needs to be done, that’s the mark of a disciplined adult, right?
Anything less than that isn’t enough.
Being able to do everything that needs to be done, no matter how badly you wish you didn’t have to do it? That’s the test.
Word of the Week #380:
If you’re disciplined about “one” thing, are you even disciplined?
Being ready and able to do everything that needs to be done, that’s the mark of a disciplined adult, right?
Anything less than that isn’t enough.
Being able to do everything that needs to be done, no matter how badly you wish you didn’t have to do it? That’s the test.
July 11, 2023
Word of the Week #380:
Sometimes, you don’t need many words, because the perfect piece of art that describes everything you’re feeling already exists.
This is one of those times.
July 4, 2023
Word of the Week #379:
The strangest thing about changing and growing and continuously becoming a better version of yourself, however, is the occasional pang you feel when you realise that had you become this changed, grown, better version a few weeks or months or years earlier, you could have avoided so much pain and loss and heartbreak for yourself and for the people around you.
This realisation always weighs on me. It makes me almost incapable of celebrating my progress without succumbing to the guilt of my past failings.
Almost.
After all, another of the things I have learned is that I need to just be a little kinder and more forgiving with myself. It is a relatively recent lesson, to be honest…
Bittersweet… still has enough sweetness to make my day.
We keep moving forward.
June 27, 2023
Word of the Week #378:
I don’t know when or how, but at some point over the past few years, I suddenly found myself able to express my deepest thoughts and feelings.
Now, I realised it suddenly, but I’m sure the development was far from sudden.
This was something I never thought I’d be able to do. Now, it almost feels natural.
And it has changed my life…
“I remained too much inside my head and ended up losing my mind.”
Edgar Allan Poe
June 20, 2023
Word of the Week #377:
Home is not where you appeared. Home is where you were found.
Run away. Travel far and wide. Find yourself. Pray to be found.
June 13, 2023
Word of the Week #376:
Imagine you’re on a cliff.
If you peer past the stone slab under your feet, you can just look into the ravine.
The breeze blowing into your back gently nudges you ever so closer to the edge.
You take a step forward.
You know there is no more stone pressing into your feet anymore.
You know you have stepped past the edge.
You know exactly what awaits you.
And yet, there is a moment—just the tiniest of moments—when nothing happens.
Your head feels faint.
Your arms go limp.
You remain immobilised in the air.
And nothing happens.
Time stands still.
So do you…
Now imagine feeling that constantly for six months.
That.
June 6, 2023
Word of the Week #375:
Just so much more and more, I can’t help but feel that maybe a home isn’t a place after all.
Maybe it can be a place, but it doesn’t have to be.
Maybe it can be a person, but I so hope it’s not.
But more and more, it feels like a home is just a moment. Just the briefest of moments.
All of life is just push and pull.
Tides rise, tides fall.
The sand slips out from between your toes.
But there is that one moment when everything is still. The world is quiet. You feel at peace. You have everything I have ever wanted. And everything is just… perfect.
This is a place where I don’t feel alone.
That Home, The Cinematic Orchestra
This is a place that I call my home.
May 30, 2023
Word of the Week #374:
I believe far too often, we use Pros and Cons in a very misleading manner. The simple fact is that Pros are never meant to be weighed against Cons.
People do this all the time. They act with a misguided belief that the potential for good in any situation can supersede the potential risks.
We see this all the time, right?
Isn’t that why we see people tolerate toxic—even abusive—relationships just because “they do love me most of the time, and they’re not like that when they’re happy and sober, and if only we can…”
You know the script.
Even a mountain of positives can’t outweigh that one negative that you cannot afford to ignore. And therein comes the concept of “dealbreakers”.
What is that one risk that you are not willing to take? What is that one fault that you are not willing to overlook?
That is how we should look at Pros and Cons.
Are there enough Pros to this situation to make me interested?
If yes, are any of the Cons dealbreakers for me?
If no to either, I am OUT.
