Samantha Beardon's Blog, page 68

Open book?

​I wish you could read  the book, that is me,

Although the chapters are muddled, looseleaf, free,

I feel self fulfilled most of the time,

Or brimming with emotion, often undefined,

Passionate, energetic, a lover of learning,

Apathetic and lazy, my negatives churning,

I want to put everything right,with the world, 

To make a difference not remain unheard,

My heads full of secrets I would rather keep,

 Guarding them hidden even when I sleep,

I wish you could interprete the book that is me,

Tease out the contradictions, help me set them free

Confident, articulate, a natural leader

Shy, unsure, more of a reciever

Am Trying to fit into the crazy world

Am I out in the world or hidden under the bed,

Maybe you can tell, I would rather not dwell, 

Am I trying to fit into this crazy world,

Or being myself unreserved, 

I think you will have to read my book, 

Find out for yourself, check the whole, don’t overlook,

I hope you will see someone open and caring,

With a sense of humour meant for sharing,

I am not a totally open book.

Heritage

From the Haiku Hub challenge

Fallen dreams scatter

Roots deep in the soil shift, lift

New heritage shoots  roots

Light me a spark

​Light me a spark

Thats a good start

Show me the essence,

 of you

Then I can view, 

you true

My heart and mind remain open 

To possibilities, 

full of emotion

Lets relax and go with the flow

Early days,lets just get to know

Each other

Will this feeling grow

Beyond the first kisses glow

Head first into bliss

Or will the arrow miss?

On line Friendship

We met on a word game, in cyberspace

We got on well we bonded and chased

We talked and shared, our lives our schemes

Hard to remember, it is a fantasy, a dream

For we only know the other, from the information shared

Keeping secrets, though the soul seems bared

We share our lives, from our own point of view

Not a rounded version from others too

We share an oasis, from life’s woes and cares

We are friends indulging in a cyber-affair

We share great intimacy, its exotic erotic

But its words and pictures, it’s only symbolic

It revs up our hormones and gives us a thrill

Feels so real our needs to fulfil

We find so much in common, it gives us a high

We see the nice bits, not the grumps or the cry

We have a view of another’s life

Sharing the pleasures and some of the strife

We need to remember while the interaction is real

Our mind adds in details, too many, surreal

But the real world comes first, has to be the case

Fantasy is just that, it may have a place

Enjoy the moments the tingle and the fun

If your emotions entangle, it’s time to run

Understand the rule,s keep them in mind

Then friendship not heartbreak will be

The bottom line.

 

Dedicated to all those who meet and interact on line. Relates to Converging Lives the novel.

Looking for love with that certain someone.

​Are you still looking for that special person ….the only one for you.

The person you are destined to be with. Do you think that only one person in this world exists for you? If that is  true, if every person had only one perfect match, and only one person to make them happy. Then it means love will be limited to that person and you will never be complete without them! 

What happens if you never meet?

Maybe you should consider that there are many compatible individuals out there.

So where does love come from how does it start? For many people looking for love it is the spark that is the signal,  but sometimes the spark is pure animal lust that when satisfied leaves mild attraction only, it is a product of mind and hormones. Sure you need attraction its part of the recipe but what about the other givens, is your list of must haves very long and non negotiable? Do you discard people after the first date if they dont meet up with everyone of your expectations? 

If you are searching for that special someone or are starting again. You have to go back to basics and look within. The starting place for love is with yourself, you have to love yourself , you have to look at the reasons love has failed in the past. Whilst it might be nice to put the blame totally on others for failure there has to be an element within your behaviour  or beliefs that is stalling love developing. Maybe something from long ago stored in the recesses of your memory long forgotten. 

In order to be loved you have to radiate love, be a beacon so that others are attracted to you. You need to love yourself, love life be happy with the world. 

You do all that already? You know your hang ups ? But you need somebody else to make you happy?

Nobody can make you truly happy its a state of mind within yourself. 

Think again if everybody you meet is incompatible there is something within you, perhaps you are  being judgemental, or not drawing them to you. 

If you can become a beacon of love and contentedness then you will be a magnet for friends, family and that special person you are searching for. 

Stop dreaming of perfection in others and look to your own inner happiness, then start checking out the people around you. You will react to them differently you will not be needy for love, and that will be a sea change in how they react to you.You don’t have to compromise on the qualities you feel you need in your partner but you will become more open to the form they are packaged in. 

Dont be constrained by looking for the one perfect individual, look with all encompassing love at a wider pool. Dont be blinkered by the fantasy in your head. Work on being more loving, working on misplaced beliefs. Live your life and get the best from each moment, be happy and love will find you. 

Share

Take me to another land

I put myself in your hands

Describe things I might never see

Make it all alive for me

Teach me facts I did not know

Make me wiser when I go

Share your humour, joy and drive

Helps to make us more alive

Close my eyes and you are here

During moments that we share

Help make my imagination soar

Well my friend, who could ask for more?

Keeping our feet on the ground

We must, keep our feet on the ground

From the euphoria we have found

In cyber games and chats, that confound

Pictures and words taking us to fantasy

Maybe outside sanity

The pictures and feelings are fascinating

In  lives forever separating .

 

Related to Converging Lives the Novel.

Child within

​Gratuitous Glee

Gargantuan Gloating 

Magical mischief

Fantasical Floating

Hubris  Humour 

Feelings Flaunted

Childish Characteristics 

Maturity Morbid

Sometimes

Responsibility

Needs

Reversing

Kick

Laugh

Misbehave

Play Pranks

Responsible Reason

Regulated Routine

Conforming Code

Security Scene

Status Quo

Intermix the fun

Child within

Air in the sun.

Happiness

Happiness is a funny thing

The strangest things can make us zing

A smile an act

The use of tact

A meeting of minds

The sharing of lines

A hand held out

A teasing bout

A care thats shared

A friend thats cared

Natures beauty

Doing ones duty

Working out

A sexy bout

Its hard to define the happiness rhyme

It changes with the day and time

its certain that good friends will play

A part in happiness every day !

Pollyanna….or you??

​Perfect

Positive

Playful

Prideful

Passionate 

Persuasive

Petulant

Peevish

Pragmatic

Perfect

Pollyanna