Samantha Beardon's Blog, page 59

Ah Winter.

​Is winter here yet? 

Winter set into my heart many months ago

The freezing block rimed with sparkling ice

Growing bigger with my fountain of black tears

How I long for the heat of summer to release me 

To allow me from this numbed prison.

Is winter still here?

Since I felt your love slipping away from me 

I feel the coldness of the north winds 

Chilling my very bones as I continue in life as an automaton 

Paying lip service to my chores and responsibilities

Doing what I must with an absence of joy.

Ah, winter!

Today the season has caught up with my already wintery soul

Outside the grass is silvered and sparkling with frost

The sky is grey but under the clouds I see a golden glow

No significant heat to purge the voracious cold

But adding brightness to cheer and enough heat to melt the icy vapour

Ah, darkness!

You make the winter days feel long 

Daylight is at a premium the day skewed to favour darkness

This suits my feeling of melancholy my dissaffection with the world

Like an animal I can guard my hurts and hibernate

I need not shine a light on your lack of caring.

Hibernation is impossible life gets in the way

As winter approaches we live in close array

The darkness is a complication but our lives are full of light

In the cold midwinter, we stay cozy make things right.

Ah, winter

It is a season of more than dark and cold

Nuts and berries on the trees food for creatures 

The warmth of a roaring fire ,as we take our ease

The beauty of the virgin  snow on garden, tree and field

Logistics can be difficult but as humans we succeed.

Ah, winter

Have I lost your love

Let us sit by the fire and air our souls

May the ice on my heart be melted in the glow

Even if your love has disapated 

I need to tackle winter, love it and extoll.

Winter

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December feels just like spring

Weather warm no cold swing

Dark and damp the winter nights

Gloomy days a few are bright

Rain and gales the weather gives

No crisp cold frost the warmth forbids

The season marches further on

Christmas creeps up hit that gong

Presents bought and cards a wing

Mood adjusts to the festive swing

Towns and cities, houses too 

Covered in lights of every hue

Friends give a a glimpse of other lives

 Christmas in another guise

Ce!ebrating with summer days

Not for them the winter haze

Crisp blue skies and sparkly seas

Sunshine, sea  blue sky warm breeze

But grey or blue, north or south

There is the touch of a friend as greetings bounce

 Brings a smile to warm the heart

Because friendship is a really great art

Its always summer somewhere

And during the winter season be aware

It can always be summer in your heart.

Attracted

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I am attracted to you, like a moth to a flame

Attracted to your beacon, am I flying in a game

I am attracted to your light, might it be the pheromones

I feel you so close my whole being responds

Even when you are far away

I let my essence free

So it can move towards you, a real devotee

I visualise us dancing dreamily

Maybe a touch indecently

As our spirits intertwine

Mirroring our meetings 

During freedoms

Down the line

I am attracted to your light, would you could be mine

 

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Looking for you

​I spent my life looking for you

Now I have found you,am happy but blue

It’s too late for you to be my mate

Wasted years, parlous state

Too many miles travelled

Too many locks to unravel

Could I be selfish and go with my heart

Whilst breaking many others,would just be the start

Now I stand on the precipice 

Looking back and forwards on the edge of bliss

Knowing that glimpse is my only prize

Now a life wedded to duty and fuelled by lies

I spent my life looking for you

Such a stupid thing to do! 

Procession of life.

​Procession of life, love, lies, toil and joy

Summon good vibes, ignore the blind alleys, miss the decoys

Shine me a light so I don’t miss what I should see

Will the future take me where I want to be

Resolve to move forward

Rebooting my thought processes, running the gauntlet

Open to a world of possibilities

Discard outmoded thoughts and sensibilities 

Procession of life, love, lies, toil and joy

Winter Haiku

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In the lanterns glow

Bare frosted branches spark

 Darkness of winter

Proverb’s and sayings.

​The grass is always greener on the other side

Does that mean we should run there, or take time to decide

Curiosity killed the cat

Should we make note of that

A rolling stone doesn’t gather moss

Is that about living life, not giving a toss

All that glitters is not gold

Dreams are good but check the road

Don’t throw out the baby with the bath water

Hold onto the good, reflect, reorder

Every cloud has a silver lining

If only we could see past hurt and anger, learn, stop pining

Life is not about making others happy

It’s about sharing your happiness with others

Proverbs and sayings litter our speech

Are there truths there within our reach?

  

Choices

​Am I truly happy? 

Could I have been happier?

Did I make the right choice last year?

If I had taken a different route, would I have less fear?

Does happiness have a pinnacle?

Or will tomorrow supply me more?

If my choices had been different,would I have a better outcome?

If I could rewind would I climb a different mountain?

Take a deep breath and stop the angst

I cannot obssess about what might have been

Am I content in the now?

Working on that with all my know how

I have to adapt, learn to change

Look to the future to rearrange

The past is the past it will help me to learn

But if I obsess, I won’t get a return

I can day dream the changes my life would have

But I will never know, its a life I never had

Am I truly happy?

If not I must strive

Move into the future

New choices to derive

Tricky?

​Attraction snuck up on us quickly

The lure of romance in the air

That first wave of emotion swept us away

No need for Tinder, its redundant today

We floated along on clouds of pheromones 

Unpinned by laughter and shared interest

We couldn’t stop touching each other

 Magnetism was off the top of the scale

This seemed like a long term relationship

It was too exciting to fail

Our essences wove tight together

Linked tightly, something to treasure

Then one day we seemed to falter

Things seemed to subtlety alter

A ripple and tearing of our bond

Has part of the attraction left

I am feeling slightly bereft

Attraction snuck up on us quickly

Is phase two going to be tricky?