intermission Quotes

“He's free with affection when it doesn't mean anything, but avoids it at all costs when it does.”
― Zeppazariel, intermission

“He realizes then that it has nothing to do with being ready. There's not a time when people are just—magically ready, if this is what they're afraid of. The truth is, that time won't come, but someone will. Someone will come, and they'll be more important than any fear you've ever felt in your life. Someone will come, and you won't feel afraid at all.”
― Zeppazariel, intermission

“By which he means he was too many pints in, drowning his sorrows over the fact that he'd lost not only one of his best friends but also the one person in the world who's worth more than the weight of his fear of love, so it was double the damage, really.”
― Zeppazariel, intermission

“See, the main problem—the thing that really and truly holds him back, and always will—is that the thought of settling down, the thought of commitment, makes Barty want to scream at the top of his lungs and take off running.


Anything past friendship and fucking, and Barty hits a brick wall. No, actually, it makes him turn and go in the opposite direction. It's just not for him. He doesn't want to do it; he doesn't want to find one person who calms him, who makes him feel safe, who can ease the brimming fire under his skin when he still wants to blaze on. He's not ready for it yet, and maybe it's not love, but it's something like it; maybe it's not love, but it could be; and that's enough for him to refuse it.

Barty wants to live. He wants to make mistakes, and be reckless, and experience everything and everyone he can. He wants to care and not care in equal measure without any of the guilt. He wants to carry wild stories in the tips of his fingers and create memories that will light him up even when the world feels so dull. He wants to shag who he wants to shag, anyone he likes, and he wants to continue on to the next when the mood strikes. He wants to be young; he wants to slow down and feel every moment, not rushing, because he can't even conceptualize what he's meant to be rushing towards.”
― zeppazariel, intermission