Constantly Cotton Quotes

“When bad stuff happens and you’re a kid, well, it sticks. It makes it so you’re not a kid no more but it’s hard to grow up too. You’re stuck, half the time thinking it’s all bad and half the time hoping someone will save you, even if you are saved, and you been saved going on five years now.”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“For not the first time, Jason wondered who would throw this kid out, who would force him to make that terrible choice?”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“expect. That’s an order from Ernie to you. I’m out of here, because frankly, that shit makes me twitchy. Bye!”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“He could see somebody had thrown Cotton away. Somebody had thrown Jason’s angel away. Jason might”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“don’t get the cute guy in the red sports car. I don’t get the knight in shining armor.”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“Your operation,” Rivers told him, which considering how much of it was random and how much was a clusterfuck, was not exactly a sign of respect.”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“Me neither,” he whispered. “You take all the lovers you need, but I will never fall in love again.” “I don’t want anyone else,” Cotton said brokenly.”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“Come on, sweetheart, I swear, I won’t hurt you.” Cotton thought of telling him that of course he would; he was going to leave, and Cotton was never going to be okay again.”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“You’re so beautiful,” he murmured. “So beautiful. You’re kind and smart and the best lover I will ever have. And I love you. And you probably don’t believe that and think I’m too young, but I’ve believed I was in love a thousand times, and this is the first time it made me better. Made me stronger. Made me someone who can really love and not someone who is constantly begging for what the world won’t give me. You did that.”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“Jason liked to do things—touchy things—that had nothing to do with “This will get your dick hard” and everything to do with “This will make your heart beat and your chest swell and your stomach erupt into butterflies, and you will weep wanting to be touched like that some more.”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“scrawny alley cat of a man who couldn’t avoid trouble if it came with detour signs was going to tell Jason how to run his own personal life? It was just that the quick jab about stomping down on his emotions until they rose up and took a guy by the throat had been so damned…”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“Me neither,” he whispered. “You take all the lovers you need, but I will never fall in love again.”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“How resilient did someone have to be to have gone through all of that and still have a laugh that rang through the trees like bells, making them holy?”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“Yeah, you gotta stomp down on your emotions until they rise up, grab you by the throat, shake you around a little, and then grind you into the pavement. I’ve done that.”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“You live. Whether I’m out there or not, you live. Because leaving you is going to be like ripping my arms off, and my lungs, and all the other things, and the only thing keeping me from bleeding out is going to be knowing you’re okay. So you find a purpose, you start school, you fall in love again, but you live!”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“Jesus fuck a rabbit, Ernie, the hell is wrong with you?”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“the full-grown bear took a swipe at him, and he shit his pants—swear to God, it’s on the police report—and jumped into his SUV and proceeded to drive the SUV into a tree, where it bounced into the lake, and our subject drowned with a look on his face like this.” Daniels mimicked pure terror. “Which is probably the most solid proof that God exists that I have ever fucking”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“the SUV didn’t just meet a tree. The subject drove it into a tree, running from a grizzly bear, because the subject was going to take out a half-grown cub with an AK-47 semiauto.”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“Both of you”—and the incriminating finger made an inclusive little circle—“rest, sleep, confront your demons gently, and fall in love in ways nobody will expect.”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“Five guys?” Medina asked, horrified. “Where’d they all fit?” Cotton shrugged. “Well, we all worked in porn, so sometimes up each other’s asses. But once you quit the business, you pay extra rent for that single bed, you know?”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“He could see somebody had thrown Cotton away. Somebody had thrown Jason’s angel away.”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“So are you,” Burton murmured. “An avenging angel, full of justice. But that’s not a bad thing.”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton

“He was a sin-eater, someone who cleaned up the sins of others, allowed the government to function without the onus of facing what they’d done.”
― Amy Lane, Constantly Cotton