Hold Me Under Quotes

“Maybe none of us can be saved. Or maybe, like Werner said, I’ve been handed the key to saving everyone. Because Victor was right. Trying to fix lost causes has always been my thing. All of them except myself.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“I was put on this earth to ruin your life,” he breathes in my ear. “Fucking right.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“I wish, as I disappear into the darkness, that I didn’t live in a world where the only way not to hurt was to shut everything out and live among your dreams.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“Maybe fate is recursive—the mention of fate can, itself, be fate, signposting the steps our unlikely journeys take through the universe. Or maybe fate is a word people invoke to manipulate those who are desperate for meaning.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“You tore me open and put me back together, but you kept something for yourself. You won't give it back, and now I belong to you”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“Hate is intimate, endless, obsessive. Addictively co-dependent. You can’t disappoint someone who believes in the worst possible version of you. You can only memorize them, every hope to break, every vulnerability to tear open, until they’re your everything and you’re their shield against the nightmares that you made for them. And now that I’ve tasted it, I’m not sure I could ever go back, even though I know it’s wrong.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“I never thought. I never thought I’d be here. I never thought I’d know what it means to be happy. And sometimes we say I love you, and sometimes we say I hate you, and sometimes we just exist together without a name, two stars in the universe, and it doesn’t matter because they’re all different names for the same thing, something that will never belong to anyone but us.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“Sometimes, when you open the door of a cage after so many years, the wild thing inside is more afraid to be free than it was to be caged. All I can do is sit next to the door and wait.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“I don’t know.” I want to understand the shape of love, not because I think it might be better than hate but because sometimes I wonder, just for a second, if it might be another name for the same feeling. “I don’t want to make you uncomfortable.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“It hurts too much,” he whispers. “I need to quit you slow, or it’s going to kill me.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“He looks so happy it kills me. “I was put on this earth to ruin your life,” he breathes in my ear. “Fucking right.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“Love has borders, limitations. A million movies and a billion books have charted its course. We chase it because we already know how it makes us feel, and once you’re in love, your only choice is to fall back out of it again.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“I’m the one you’re wet for, right? Not them. Because they don’t hate you like I do.” He nods.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“I don’t care how any other asshole fucked you, Victor Lang. If I’m going to do this, I’m gonna do it my way.” My”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“For you, this is just a detour, a blip. For me, this is everything. I didn’t know what it meant to feel safe until you hated me.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“Catching sight of him is becoming an obsession; when I look at him, I see something bright, a flame I can use to burn us to the ground.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“I do hate you. I really do. I think you’re a bad person.” “Uh-huh?” He sounds so tired, so hopeful. “I hate you, Victor.” “Promise?” “I’m never gonna stop.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“Even though I just decided it isn’t my fate to save him, even though he tries to convince me he isn’t worth saving, I can’t help myself because I’m not sure there’s anyone else in his life who would.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“When I go, I thought it should be by drowning. That’s why I don’t breathe when I swim, because if the water wants me, it can have me. But maybe this is better—”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“I’ve always believed I came from the water. It speaks to me. It keeps me alive, and I always thought it would take me back.” He looks over his shoulder, at the sea, and I risk a couple of steps toward him.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“In case you haven’t noticed, I bite.” Scanning the available roads, I pick one that goes uphill. “I’m pretty tough.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“I don’t fantasize about impossible things like unicorns or your father liking you or me being able to trust you.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“Hurt me once, shame on you. Hurt me twice, shame on me. Hurt me a thousand times, I must have done something to deserve this. I was born wrong.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“Don’t turn around. Don’t touch me. Don’t speak. Don’t go. Fall asleep between me and the door. Give me your dreams, the dreams of someone who has never done anything wrong. You tasted good. You sounded even better. But I’m not what you deserve. I just needed to make sure you’d stay here, between me and the door. And I don’t know any other way to ask. Sometime in the night, you climb out of bed and put on a shirt, some shorts. I watch you go, because I’m not asleep, and I expect you to leave. Maybe for good. Maybe, after everything I’ve done, it was this that drove you away. But you don’t leave. You pull back the sheet and climb in next to me. No one ever comes back for me. Until you.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“I don’t understand what Victor did to me. I don’t understand the urges that torched my body. And I don’t understand why my cock, an emotionless, unresponsive piece of equipment I pump out once every couple of weeks, is awake and begging for the human train wreck making my life miserable.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“And maybe I’m doing this just to humiliate him, but deep down I want to know if being hurt by someone who hates you makes cleaner, sharper wounds than the hideous scars love leaves behind.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“He stands behind me and rests one elbow on my shoulder. He’s always so strong and stable, like he’s anchored solidly to this earth, like he could keep me from floating away.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“I hate that I look for him whenever he’s not here. I hate the relief when he appears, like all the bad ways he makes me feel are the only anchor I have.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“She thinks there will be something left of me when she’s gone, but I’ve given her everything I am and the thought of losing not only her but myself is terrifying.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under

“It’s time for you to decide how you feel about fate. Maybe a freak accident brought together the only man who can get through to my son and the only man who can give your mother the help she needs.”
― Riley Nash, Hold Me Under