Grief Is for People Quotes

“Heavy is the enchantment of places you know you will never see again.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“Human beings are the only animals that experience denial. All creatures will try to survive under attack, will burrow when under siege or limp through the forest. But they recognize trouble when it hits. Not one fish, in the history of fish, having gotten its fins chewed off, needs another fish's perspective: I don't know, Tom, that looks pretty bad. Denial is humankind'a specialty, our handy aversion. We are so allergic to our own mortality; we'll do anything to make it not so. Denial is also the weirdest stage of grief because it so closely mimics stupidity. But it can't be helped.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“Time only pushes wounds aside. Regular life becomes insistent and crowds out the loss. Usually, this is a good thing. So much of healing is the recognition that not all your tissue got damaged in the accident.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“How will he know you loved him," she asks, "unless you try to destroy yourself?”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“While I wait for the police to come, I call Russell to confess what happened. He is my favorite person, the one who somehow sees me both as I want to be seen and as I actually am, the one whose belief in me over the years has been the most earned (he is not my parent), the most pure (he is not my boyfriend), and the most forgiving (he is my friend).”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“Anger is a cousin of intelligence. If you are not revolted by certain things, you have no boundaries. If you have no boundaries, you have no self-knowledge. If you have no self-knowledge, you have no taste, and if you have no taste, why are you here?”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“Perhaps if I knew more about God, I would know it’s blasphemous to want answers, and perhaps if I knew more about philosophy, I would know it’s foolish to suggest there are answers.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“In The Year of Magical Thinking, Didion writes: “A single person is missing for you, and the whole world is empty.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“You become numb when you swallow too much sadness at once. The reason it feels like no boundaries have been crossed is because the concept of boundaries has been obliterated. Maybe there is no such thing as an emergency. Maybe our days are not a mixture of upbeat and downbeat songs, but notes in the same maudlin song. You just haven't hit the bridge yet. Keep humming, you'll get there.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“It's impossible to predict how much you'll miss something when it's gone, to game grief in advance. We fend off the worry that we're taking our lives for granted by feeding ourselves the lie that we understand the value if their components.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“By living, I am, by default, leaving him.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“Thomas Merton wrote, “The more you try to avoid suffering, the more you suffer, because smaller and more insignificant things begin to torture you, in proportion to your fear of being hurt. The one who does most to avoid suffering is, in the end, the one who suffers most.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“It’s unpredictable, this stage of grief. Just when you think you have a handle on it, a crack opens up where the crazy gets in. The pain is a weather system that builds and expands, occasionally touching down, like lightning. If you have ever thrown your back out while brushing your teeth, you’re familiar with the sensation.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“Sometimes I was lonely, sometimes I was just alone. This is the kind of distinction people make after breakups, as if loneliness is what happens to you after you fail to be alone.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“Human beings are solid things made out of delicate materials. Perhaps that is why we like jewelry as much as we do, because jewelry is our inverse- delicate things made out of solid materials.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“The problem is that our capacity to handle something shocking in the short term can make things indistinguishable in the long term. You become numb when you swallow too much sadness at once.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“Denial is also the weirdest stage of grief because it so closely mimics stupidity.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“I find I cannot have an interaction with a new person, a person you would have adored, without wondering if I am meeting the friend you needed. Is this the person for whom you would have lived just a little longer? Is this the person who would have shown you how to keep going? What if I was the wrong friend for you? What if we were all the wrong people for you?”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“But I will never forget how casually she referred to reality as "waking life". Not "consciousness" or "daytime" or plain "life," but a state on par with dreaming. I thought about that conversation a lot during those first weeks of spring, when the only thing that made my life a life was that I was awake for it.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“To mourn the death of a friend is to feel as if you are walking around with a vase, knowing you have to set it down but nowhere is obvious. Others will assure you that there’s no right way to do this. Put it anywhere. But you know better. You know that if you put your grief in a place that’s too prominent or too hidden, you will take it back when no one’s looking. This is why I spend my nights looking into the restaurant. I fantasize about keeping Russell in front of me for a little longer, asking him questions, knowing nothing either of us says will change the outcome. Each time the restaurant closes. Each time he drops me off at my door. Each time he walks off into the dark. And then he’s gone. And I am still holding this vase.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“Dying / Is an art, like everything else," wrote Plath, whose lifelong flirtation with death went too far one fateful February morning. And art is nothing if not subjective. In the same vein, when I think of Virginia Woolf, it is not merely as a helpless participant in the morbid fascination that has sprung up around these two writers--but of the windows of time of their deaths. The time it took Woolf to fill her pockets with rocks. The selection of those rocks. When does a suicide begin? When do we start counting? At the riverbank or in the river? In the kitchen the night before or the next morning? Rilke warned the "we must learn to die: That is all of life. To prepare gradually the masterpiece of a proud and supreme death, of a death where chance plays no part, of a well-made, beatific, and enthusiastic death of the kind the saints knew to shape."

That's nice. But it's hard to throw something like that together at the last minute.

What gruesome work suicide makes of grief! Sometimes I conflate blame and action, sometimes I separate them as if in a moral centrifuge, sometimes I think it doesn't matter either way.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“How difficult it is to love someone who was so wrong and who will never be right again.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“Perhaps this is the plainest definition of anxiety: mourning what isn't gone yet. Anxiety is an ever-present stage of grief, a shadow attached to the heels of its more infamous siblings.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People: A Memoir

“The miracle of life is not that we have it, it’s that most of us wake up every day and agree to fight for it, to hold it in our arms even when it squirms to get away. It’s a miracle, a genuine miracle, that the reverse doesn’t happen more often.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“But there was never going to be a version of the story in which it wasn't my missing jewelry and my dead friend. You can ignore grief. You push it around your plate. But you can't give it away.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“Suicide is a tax on human consciousness.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“Alas, I am not on her side. I am not on the side of the living, or the group Iris Murdoch called "the unbereaved." Here, in the small hours of grief, I am not to be trusted. I am no one's friend.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“One is relieved for the dead, that they were spared the news, but frustrated to be robbed of their reaction.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“Because something must be done. My initial grief, which I thought might be taking a manageable shape, has mutated. It’s colonized my entire personality.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People

“I was losing him and yet I couldn't get away from him.”
― Sloane Crosley, Grief Is for People