If There's a Way Quotes

“You’re a ticking time bomb,” I hear myself say, my voice distant even to my own ears. “One that just keeps fucking rebuilding itself after every explosion, over and over and over again. But I don’t. I don’t rebuild. I don’t heal. I just keep taking it. But I can’t anymore. There’s not enough left of me to take any more shrapnel and walk out alive.”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“I look up just as a gorgeously restored ’67 black Impala pulls into the lot, stopping right before me.”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“Hell, I’ve loved you,” I go on deeply, my voice bottoming out with a grave sort of certainty, “in some capacity, for what feels like my entire life. Before I even knew what love was, I’ve been loving you.”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“I might fuck up,” my uncle tells me bluntly. “Clearly, ‘cause I already did. But I’m… I’m tryin’, and I’m learnin’, so please, just please bear with me. Tell me when I fuck up, teach me, but…” He gives me a sad smile. “Give me a chance to be better.”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“Looking across the room at the closed bedroom door, it takes everything in me not to cross the distance and beg him to love me again. To give me a second—fuck, I don’t even know what number chance I’m on at this point, but I want it. Need it. Because I know this time... This time I’m not going to yank it away from him. I’m not going to spit on it or throw it in his face or hurt him with it. This time will be for real. This time will be for always. Whether I’m good and ready for it or not. Now… I just need to fucking figure out how to make him listen. Better yet, I need to figure out how to get him to believe me.”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“I want to be burdened by you,” I tell him, lifting my shoulders before dropping them. “I want to be the person you burden.”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“I open my mouth, but close it when I realize I don’t know what to say here. How do I tell him that now that I know what it’s like to wake up in his arms, I don’t know how I’ll ever sleep without him again?”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“I’ll do whatever it takes to prove I’m not going anywhere. Prove he’s not a whim or a fix or any-fucking-thing else in between. He’s the beat of my fucking heart.”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“Keep this beating.” I still. “Just keep your heart beating for me, okay?”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“You’re so fucking gorgeous, City Boy. Sorry it took me so long to tell you.”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“Please just let me be the one to walk away for once. Please let me try to let you go.” And this time…”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“And I’d rather feel this burden of knowing and loving you than go even a second without you existing somewhere on this planet.”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“Well too fucking bad,” I murmur. “You are loved. And I’m not better off without you.”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“All I feel is the boy in my arms—my boy. My guy. My man. The one who’s been there all along, waiting for me—and all I can do is pray that I’m not too late. Please, please, please don’t let me be too late.”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“It might get easier to withstand over time”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“You’re a ticking time bomb,” I hear myself say”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“All I feel is the boy in my arms—my boy. My guy. My man. The one who’s been there all along”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“You didn’t make anything worse”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“She pulls back, cupping my cheeks, her eyes dropping to each of my cheeks where her thumbs rest. “Ah.” She cuts a dry look at her son. “I see now.” I make a face, and cut a questioning look at Will from the corner of my eyes. “Just like that Harry guy you used to be obsessed with. From that boy band… something, something Direction.” My eyes fly open at the same time he barks, “Mom!”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“He married my sister.”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way

“So long as I have the will to live…” I swallow hard, fingers digging into his skin, and I murmur against his lips. “There’ll always be a way.”
― Jessie Walker, If There's a Way