Still Missing Quotes

“You can be as happy as you've ever been in your life, and shit is still going to happen. But it doesn't just happen. It knocks you sideways and crashes you into the ground, because you were stupid enough to believe in sunshine and roses.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“I hate them for not being in pain like me, hate them for being able to enjoy themselves. Hate myself for feeling that way.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“I'm in a weird-ass mood today, Doc. Wired up, mind all over the place, looking for answers, reasons something solid to cling to, something real, but just when I think I've got it figured out and neatly filed under fixed instead of fucked, turns out I'm still shattered, scattered, and battered. But you probably already knew that, didn't you?...You might not be able to help me. That makes me sad, but not for me. It makes me sad for you. It must be frustrating for a shrink to have a patient who's beyond fixing. That first shrink I saw when I got back to Clayton Falls told me no one is a lost cause, but I think that's bullshit. I think people can be so crushed, so broken, that they'll never be anything more than a fragment of a whole person. (129)”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“Time only counts when you have a purpose”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“There are all these books that say we create our own destiny and what we believe is what we manifest. You're supposed to walk around with this perpetual bubble over your head thinking happy thoughts and then everything is going to be sunshine and roses. Nope, sorry, don't think so. You can be as happy as you've ever been in your life, and shit is still going to happen. But it doesn't just happen. It knocks you sideways and crushes you into the ground, because you were stupid enough to believe in sunshine and roses. (99)”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“It's an old church and smells like a museum - in a good way, a survived-lots-of-shit-and-still-standing kind of way. Something about the stained-glass windows works for me too. If I were to get all deep on you, I could say the idea of all those broken pieces being made into something so damn pretty appeals to me. Good thing I'm not that profound. (54)”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“I think people can be so crushed, so broken, that they'll never be anything more than a fragment of a whole person.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“That first shrink I saw when I got back to Clayton Falls told me no one is a lost cause, but I think that’s bullshit. I think people can be so crushed, so broken, that they’ll never be anything more than a fragment of a whole person.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“You’re supposed to walk around with this perpetual bubble over your head thinking happy thoughts and then everything is going to be sunshine and roses. Nope, sorry, don’t think so. You can be as happy as you’ve ever been in your life, and shit is still going to happen. But it doesn’t just happen. It knocks you sideways and crushes you into the ground, because you were stupid enough to believe in sunshine and roses.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“I'm in a weird-ass mood today, Doc. Wired up, mind all over the place, looking for answers, reasons something solid to cling to, something real, but just when I think I've got it figured out and neatly filed under fixed instead of fucked, turns out I'm still shattered, scattered, and battered. But you probably already knew that, didn't you?...You might not be able to help me. That makes me sad, but not for me. It makes me sad for you. It must be frustrating for a shrink to have a patient who's beyond fixing. That first shrink I saw when I got back to Clayton Falls told me no one is a lost cause, but I think that's bullshit. I think people can be so crushed, so broken, that they'll never be anything more than a fragment of a whole person. (129)”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“Sorry I missed our last session, but I saw my mother and I needed some time to pick myself back up off the floor. You know, it's funny, but the night after I saw her I really wanted to sleep in the closet. I stood outside it for the longest time with my pillow in hand, but I knew opening that door would be going backward, so I lay back down on my bed and conjured up your office in my mind. I told myself I was resting on your couch and you were watching over me. That's how I fell asleep. (324)”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“Mom would never get that lack of affection is abuse”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“My grief is a windstorm. Sometimes I can stand straight up in it, and when I'm angry, I can lean into it and dare it to blow me over. But other times I need to hunker down, tuck around myself, and let it pummel my back.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“it’s almost comforting to hear that even though my life is fucked, people are getting up and going about their lives every morning.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“There are all these books that say we create our own destiny and what we believe is what we manifest. You’re supposed to walk around with this perpetual bubble over your head thinking happy thoughts and then everything is going to be sunshine and roses. Nope, sorry, don’t think so. You can be as happy as you’ve ever been in your life, and shit is still going to happen. But it doesn’t just happen. It knocks you sideways and crushes you into the ground, because you were stupid enough to believe in sunshine and roses.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“I think people can be so crushed, so broken, that they’ll never be anything more than a fragment of a whole person.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“Little by little, day by day, the sky became green.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“I hate them for not being in pain like me, hate them for being able to enjoy themselves. Hate myself for feeling that way.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“The one thing I could never seem to shut out was my ache for simple, affectionate touch. I never knew how essential it was to my well being .”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“Mama nunca entenderia que la falta de afecto equivale a un maltrato.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“She’s still beautiful, but she seems, to me anyway, like a once-vibrant painting whose colors have bled into one another.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“My grief is a windstorm. Sometimes I can stand straight up in it, and when I’m angry, I can lean into it and dare it to blow me over. But other times I need to hunker down, tuck around myself, and let it pummel my back.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“Mom would never get that lack of affection is abuse.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“the moment I put my soul on the shelf to make room for the devil.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“But if somebody is telling you the sky is green, even though you know it’s blue, and they act like the sky is green and they keep saying it’s green day in, day out, like they really believe it, eventually you could start wondering if maybe you’re nuts for thinking it’s blue.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“I hate them for not being in pain like me, hate them for being able to enjoy themselves. Hate myself for feeling that way”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“But once they have it, they’ll throw it all away for the first man who treats them like a piece of garbage, and no matter what he does to them, they’ll just keep coming back for more.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“there’s something a little strange about a guy who needs to line up everything on his desk but doesn’t get his teeth fixed.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“Her wails grew louder. He ripped the book out of my hands. “Make her stop or I will.” My tone as calm and reassuring as I could make it, I lifted her out of her bed and said, “I think she might be getting sick too.” “She’s fine. You just have to learn how to control her.” He buried his head under the pillow. I had the insane urge to go over and press my whole body down on the pillow,”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“In those few seconds he looked so fucking happy, and I wanted to be the only woman who could make him smile like that. Just talking about it is making me feel all crazy inside. I know I’m supposed to want him to be”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing