May the Best Man Win Quotes

“Queer identities aren't binary states. There's no such thing as 'imposter queers' because there's no one right way to be queer.”
― Z.R. Ellor, May the Best Man Win

“Asking for love as a trans person, with the blunt hammer weight that word carries, feels like walking on fragile, cracking ice. Asking for love as the angry mess I am feels like inviting dark water to swallow me whole. Of course I didn’t want to test his love for me. I knew it would have a breaking point. I just didn’t want to learn where that was.”
― Z.R. Ellor, May the Best Man Win

“She thinks I have no skin in this game anymore. But telling the world who I am doesn’t stop truckers from honking at me as I walk to the diner that afternoon. It doesn’t stop me from needing to duck into three mini-marts on my way home to find one that sells tampons. It’s changed the shape of the target on my back, but it’s also made that target bigger.”
― Z.R. Ellor, May the Best Man Win

“If my life looks solid to everyone around me, then maybe it isn’t actually falling apart under my feet.”
― Z.R. Ellor, May the Best Man Win

“Part of me feels like an ever-detonating bomb, but I’m a person, too, and just because controlling my anger is hard doesn’t mean I shouldn’t try.
Just because apologizing is hard doesn’t mean I don’t need to.”
― Z.R. Ellor, May the Best Man Win

“I tell myself it means nothing, that this is DC and people of all political orientations sit at the same table here. But that’s not true. Because if he’s welcome at a table, I’m sure as hell not.”
― Z.R. Ellor, May the Best Man Win

“I kept telling myself Sol was weak, nerdy, uncool to let their gender define them, limit them in what they can and can’t do. But both of us were just showing Cresswell the side of us we thought would help our queer asses best survive this mess. I’ve underestimated how much we’re alike when they really let go. I’ve never connected to a friend like this, aside from Lukas, because they’re the first friend I’ve ever made as myself.”
― Z.R. Ellor, May the Best Man Win

“You think you’ve got it hard?” Sol says. “Try giving a free grammar lesson every time you tell people your pronouns and they don’t believe in singular they. Try convincing your literature professor tía that Latinx is a real word. At least people know what a fucking boy is.” They pound their fist on my dashboard. Grin. Do it again. “Fuck!”
― Z.R. Ellor, May the Best Man Win

“When I win Homecoming King and the story goes viral and I become superfamous, I’m not selling Hollywood the rights to my story unless they swear to cast a trans actor to play me. A hot one.”
― Z.R. Ellor, May the Best Man Win

“like being useful,” I say. And busy. Busy keeps my mind off things.”
― Z.R. Ellor, May the Best Man Win

“what cis people don't get is that it's not the wrong clothes, the wrong name, the wrong pronoun. It's the strangling feeling, like you've been buried alive and are struggling to breathe, like you don't exist. That the most important part of you is invisible and thus, unreal.”
― Z.R. Ellor, May the Best Man Win

“I never asked for this to be my life!” I shout. “I don’t want to teach him, I want him to know. I want him and everyone else to know who I am right away, to never get my gender wrong—god!”
― Z.R. Ellor, May the Best Man Win

“The maze of students closes tight around me—I can’t see over all the assholes around me who have the nerve to be tall.”
― Z.R. Ellor, May the Best Man Win

“We can find common ground once everyone in this club worships me.”
― Z.R. Ellor, May the Best Man Win